illyria didn’t like to be caged. ⸻ to be caged was to be defeated and to be defeated? weakness. it had only ever happened to her once before. twice, if including angel investigations draining her power with gadgets too modern for her rage. to exist inside the mind of another was no more torture than essence being encased in jewels & sarcophagus’. the humanity itched from within, clawing and suffocating, and overwhelming. or at least, that’s how it USED to be, but as time goes on, illyria has grown almost accustomed to being a pair. she’ll call it resignation if anyone were to ask, though truthfully, they’re struggling to remember a life without the cohabitation.
rush of victory eases over old one when she succeeds in pushing through to surface, more comfortable as armour graces skin. " i once burnt seven kingdoms to the ground because they dared to defy a simple order. my followers would bring me the head of any enemy i desired … and now you wish for me to browse grocery store aisles for ice cream that sounds like a cartoon. " she sneers response, foot kicking the abandoned basket for good measure. that’ll show ‘em. " you always pick the wrong flavour. " and so reveals the real reason behind her hijack. illyria never cared for human sustenance when she first returned. hadn’t needed it to survive either, but fred’s tastes are now her tastes, soul introducing a variety of new experiences. one she was currently denying human counterpart of in favour of a craving far messier. " i wish to kill something. we will go hunt. then you can eat. " surely vampires used such spots to find their own food. this was still los angeles after all.
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The switch would begin like a headache -- a migraine aura with spots floating across her vision. Fred supposed it was a miracle she was alive to feel the discomfort in the first place.
She still wasn't exactly sure what had caused her soul to return to its body, but whatever had done it hadn't managed to exorcise Illyria completely from her core. Or maybe this cohabitation had been their plan all along. The scientist knew how Angel's condition had operated, given the bounds of a curse for its triggering incident. But with Illyria, there seemed to be little rhyme or reason -- predominantly either herself or the entity vying for control at any given moment.
Fred was good at keeping the Old One under control, mostly. But there were moments she slipped -- fear seemed to be the biggest catalyst, as did intoxication. But sometimes, the switches were random, like right now --
"Oh, no... no, not now," she muttered as she saw the blue-tinged aura creeping into the periphery of her vision. Fred quickly put down her grocery basket and braced herself against the ice cream freezer door at the local food mart. The woman shut her eyes tight, trying to push back the feeling of cold creeping up her extremities...
But when she reopened her eyes, it was like she was watching the world from inside herself. A private screening room of the grocery store she'd just been in. But Fred was no longer in control.
"Oh, damn it. Illyria, what could be so important that you pushed me out before I got my Ben and Jerry's?"
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i am truly mesmerized by the theme of your blog, and i have never met anyone who loves illyria as much as me! i didn’t care for fred until she became evil >< i really wish illyria had more screen time before the show ended
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this is the sweetest message! let me just say … you have made my whole day, nonnie. it’s always a pleasure when somebody uses the anonymous option to spread some love. illyria is a relatively new muse for me compared to others, so it means the world to hear someone thinks i’m doing a good job. i have such a fondness for fred, but the complexity of illyria … obsessed always.
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threats from a vampire are no more than empty, meaningless promises. entertaining even, though the weary exhale of breath that escapes the primordial being sounds more TIRED than amused. when will they learn their words & their feelings hurt less than their forged weapons? the old ones weren’t built to show empathy. they were made to rule, by any means necessary. that was their purpose. " you would try. " it’s a surprisingly simple response. she has long since learnt grand words are lost on spike. he doesn’t listen nor does he shudder. the lower creatures of this world have grown bolder in her absence, even the ones who know what god king is capable of.
" am i to be held responsible for the consequences of actions i played little conscious role in? " head turns away from the screen, abandoning their mario mission to observe @insufferablemonsters. " i did not hurt this shell any worse than humans did. " it’s difficult to say WHY she challenges the accusation; if demon is simply looking to ruffle feathers, or if she truly feels compelled to justify herself. perhaps the morbid curiosity illyria finds herself drawn to has taken over, feeding into that strange & unusual desire to explore this world more. " my qwa’ha xahn chose her. he was weak. blinded by his own infatuation. " with winifred burkle as much as the power he thought would be bestowed upon him. memories show her this. " and charles, blinded by his own greed for smarts beyond his reach. " the weight of his guilt grinds her gut something sick whenever he’s near. all their wretched emotions do. " you and your so - called champion. vampires with souls. " words twist the metaphorical knife, eyes never blinking. " choosing to spare the life of strangers over the one you now grieve most. ⸻ yet MY existence is seen as the true villain in this story, because it better soothes your own conscience. " there’s a pause and if one were to look close enough, they might have caught it. that flicker of rage ( or is it hurt? ) that disappears in one quick blink, finally breaking gaze. " i grow bored of your misplaced judgement. i may have consumed this vessel from within, but i did not kill it alone. i could not have spared fred from this fate even if i so desired to. "
† ―――― THERE WASN'T ONE PART OF SPIKE THAT ACTUALLY ENJOYED ILLYRIA'S COMPANY. all she did was go on and on about how powerful she was and how she used to have men bow down at her feet. newsflash, lady, new world and you need to get on with how things are around here. i mean, seriously, for how smart she was, how did she not realize by now that the world she once knew wasn't that world no longer? he sighed deeply in annoyance, ❛ y'know, i wish you would put me out of my bleedin' misery. at least then i wouldn't have to listen t'you prattle on about how self - important you are. it gets tiresome ❜ he shot back at her, tempted to stick his tongue out at her, but he doesn't. she really does bring the child out of him. he blows his lips at her words, ignoring her, but he knew deep down she was right. not only did he hesitate to hurt her because he knew he'd get his ass handed to him, but it was also because of the simple fact of the face she wore — someone that cared for him without a second thought. that was rare for the vampire nowadays, and it was gone [ .... ] because of her. and that's why he didn't always hesitate.
A VICTORIOUS LAUGH EMITS FROM THE VAMPIRE WHEN ILLYRIA IS DEFEATED BY A SIMPLE TURTLE IN THE MARIO GAME. ❛ guess you're not as good at everything as you think you are, luv. now, if you don't mind, i'd like to keep playin' my game — ❜ he starts, but she starts a new match before he could kick her. he rolls his eyes so hard he could see the back of his head if it was possible. he continues to play nonetheless. he glances over at her, noticing the pause in her sentence, ❛ don't blame the bloke too much. he was in love with her, after all. i'd be the same if you hurt the woman i loved. actually, i'd kill you ❜ he told her and then realized how much of a big mistake that was. now she was going to be relentless with her words of torture. he refused to look at her when she questioned him, keeping his attention on the game, ❛ maybe. what's it t' you ? ❜ very mature, spike.
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she can smell it again. ⸻ the sickly stench of GRIEF that never seems to leave. it lingered around every corner of wolfram & hart when she passed, and it lingers stale in the air around them right now. illyria doesn’t understand it. doesn’t try to either. their mourning is an insult to her very existence; a blatant acknowledgement that they see her as less than the human this vessel used to be. winifred burkle was no one remarkable. not by a god’s high expectations at least, but the worship she seems to still garner from her peers even in death? … illyria confesses they find themselves curious. perhaps even envious. the world used to hold her in the highest regard. now, she finds herself here, boxed inside a diner with a human who did nothing to hide his contempt for her presence.
armour creeks as fists clench, lifeless eyes narrowing further when wesley challenges the question rather than providing an explanation. " i wish nothing from you. " statement contradicts the primordial being’s previous accusation, pride interfering with suspicion and head tilts higher in defiance. let him have his secrets. they were of little to no threat to illyria the merciless. " i am here because i choose to be here. " it’s a petulant counter, spoken with venom. there was a time when god king had the power to rule armies far greater than mankind could even begin to fanthom. they waged wars together, sometimes multiple at once. now, she finds herself treated as no more than a puppet / his spare pair of hands. she would remove his as punishment, if she thought he’d care. @insufferablemonsters is different from the others though. he is cold and distant, not too dissimilar from the shell illyria now resides in. sometimes she wondered if his soul died during her resurrection too. " i would slaughter you & bathe in your entrails, but to end your misery would be a MERCY i do not care to show. " if he can get personal, so can she.
♱ ―――― IT FELT LIKE A KNIFE IN THE HEART WHEN ILLYRIA TRANSFORMS INTO HIS FORMER LOVER — a sight he did not desire to see when it wasn't truly her. all this ever did for wesley was remind him that she was gone, lost in the echoes of souls, and he was left with this demon he didn't quite know anything about. it left a horrible pit in his stomach, and he was eager to get this journey over with. he was ready to get to their destination to be informed as much as possible about her; possibly even a way of bringing winifred back into her former body. this was why he kept their mission a secret from her because he knew if she were to find out what this was truly about, she would have his head. he hoped it wouldn't come to that, but he wouldn't be entirely disappointed if he were to be vanquished. at least then he would have some semblance of peace, finally. he avoided all possible eye contact with her, afraid of what he might feel if he were to. would it be longing? anger? despair? all things illyria has already managed to invoke from him. but when she speaks, using a cold sullen tone, he sighs greatly. he was hoping it wouldn't come to this.
HE FINALLY LOOKS UP FROM HIS COFFEE, PALMS WRAPPED AROUND THE CERAMIC MUG TO GATHER ITS WARMTH. he cocks his head to the side, completely unsurprised by her question, ❛ i don't entirely see the point of having a conversation. was there something you'd like to discuss ? ❜ he asked her, averting the subject to her to avoid speaking about his own emotions, something he's learned to do over the course of this tragic several years. angel warned wesley not to go on this expedition, to not get his hopes up for any positive outcome, but he needed to know. he needed to know if there was any way he could bring winifred back. the well was a bust, and he was well aware of that, but he refused to believe that nothing else could be done. ❛ having you here with me is a means to end, illyria. you're purely here for an extra pair of hands. did you have something better to do with your time here on this earth ? ❜
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PROMPTS FOR COMMANDS AND DEMANDS
* adjust as necessary
stop following me!
get out of here.
get some rest.
kiss me.
cool it.
shut your mouth.
get off the computer.
walk back out the way you came.
stay low to the ground.
hold this for me.
stop doing that!
hang this up.
fill this up.
don't you dare.
don't look at me.
make your bed.
say something!
keep it clean.
go find someone else to bother.
get back or i'll shoot!
quit doing that.
go to bed.
turn around.
tell me the truth.
trust me on this.
stay here.
get your hands off me.
eat this.
try this and tell me if you like it.
hold me.
get lost!
don't ever speak to me again.
head down this road.
stop the car!
don't say that to me.
stop it right now.
get over yourself.
quit talking.
hide with me.
throw this away.
be here by nine.
get this to me as soon as possible.
don't delay.
tell me how you feel.
talk to me.
touch me.
clean that up.
go date someone else.
hold my drink.
tie this for me.
go take a shower.
wrap yourself up with this.
be here early.
tell me you're lying.
pour me another one.
take my hand.
put your phone down.
go to hell.
stay close to me.
get back here.
shut the door behind you.
stay away from me.
go cool off.
talk to me.
turn left here.
stay the night.
don't do this to me.
leave and never come back.
don't say another word.
pick that up.
speak to me!
clean yourself up.
sleep if you need to.
turn that off.
put that back.
get back in the house.
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PROMPTS FOR ANGSTY CONVERSATIONS
* a collection of things you never want to hear
you never told me that. i can't believe you never told me.
what difference does it make?
no, no, no, don't leave me! please!
i failed you. is that what you want me to say?
was it all a lie? all this time?
so... when do you leave? what time? so i can be ready.
why did it take you so long to tell me? how long have you been holding this in?
i was wrong.
is this it? is this all there is?
at least give me one last dance.
all the exits are blocked. we're trapped.
there's too much blood.
you're the worst person i've ever met.
you're just as broken as i am.
i really thought we could work things out.
so stupid of me to think you actually cared.
you're just going to carry on and pretend like everything's fine when it's not fine.
go on without me. i can handle this.
don't tell me i'm too late.
i told you to leave me alone.
there's no use in trying anymore. it's over.
i should have known. i should have known all along.
i need you to be honest with me. tell me the truth. i deserve the truth.
you failed me.
i wish i never met you.
it's over. go home.
i feel something broken inside me. you can't fix it. no one can.
just take some deep breaths. in and out. you're gonna be fine.
you used to be better than this.
there's no way out.
what the hell was that for?
if you stay here, you'll die. do you understand?
how dare you speak to me like that!
am i too late?
you have to believe me. i didn't mean for this to happen.
i used to think you were perfect. i guess i was wrong.
so this is how it ends? just like that?
we're running out of time.
when were you going to tell me the truth?
how long has it been since we spoke? feels like years.
when did this start? how long has this been going on?
you never really loved me. it was all fake.
who was that? why were they here? why did you let them in?
i came as fast as i could.
what the hell did you think would happen?
can i even trust you?
i don't know who i am anymore.
i can't lose you again.
you are my biggest regret.
what good will it do?
just keep pressure on the wound, okay?
how could you do this to me?
i said get out! get out of here!
i'm never speaking to you again.
i tried to stop it!
you're so fucking stupid.
it's never been okay.
good riddance.
get out of here! i'll handle this!
i can't believe you. i can't believe you did this to me.
you were a good person once. i looked up to you.
i never should have listened to you. i'm such a fool.
don't lie to me! i know when you're lying!
why the hell did you do that?
i've never been wanted. not really. not by anyone.
i never loved you.
i've been dealing with this my whole life.
it was all a lie.
you forgot my birthday.
i'm a monster.
you actually believed that shit?
you think i would just stick around and let you treat me like that?
are you actually leaving?
can i kiss you one last time?
i can't believe i gave up my life for you. i gave up everything for you.
i can't lose you, too!
for what it's worth, there's no one i would rather fight alongside.
hang on for me, all right? don't leave me. please don't go.
i deserve better than this. i deserve better than you.
good! get out of here! i didn't want you here anyway!
i made it up as i went along.
things are going to get worse before they get better.
i don't think we're getting out of this alive.
we're not gonna make it.
get the fuck out of my face.
i don't think i'm meant to be loved.
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"NO ONE EVER LISTENS TO ME" PROMPTS
* assorted dialogue for expressing frustration, adjust as necessary
this is what happens when you don't listen to me.
i told you the truth, and you ignored me.
no one ever listens to what i have to say.
i could be a valuable asset, you know. i could help. but no one ever wants my help.
no one ever seems to take me seriously.
it turns out some of my ideas are good after all!
i'll tell you the truth, but it's going to cost you.
will somebody please just listen to me?
i feel like i'm talking to a wall.
you're not listening to me, are you?
would you just stop for a second and listen?
i'm telling you everything i know.
you're the first person who ever took me seriously.
thank you for actually listening to me.
i'm not used to people actually caring about what i have to say.
i don't know anything beyond that.
you could have asked me, and i would have told you the truth.
they wouldn't hear me out, but maybe you will.
no one understands me. no one ever tries to understand me.
they think i'm lying, but i'm not.
if you would just listen to me for a second, we could fix this.
i was right, wasn't i?
and you thought i was making shit up. who's the fool now?
i don't want to say "i told you so" but... i told you so.
this could have all been prevented if you'd just listen to me.
they won't answer my calls.
i can't get through to anyone.
they told me they have it under control.
they're going to regret not listening to what i have to say.
would you just let me explain to you what's going on?
i have all the answers you need.
i'm actually an expert at this, believe it or not.
why don't you just ask me how to do it?
i know how to do it.
they didn't believe a word i said.
you'll hear me out, right?
give me a chance to explain everything.
i can't help you if you won't listen.
you're going to regret not hearing me out.
i have a lot of things i need to say.
listen to me for two seconds.
i had all the answers right here the whole time.
you wasted a lot of time not listening to me.
do you want my advice?
you're the one who refused to listen to me. i was trying to help.
i thought you said you could handle this all by yourself?
i know more than you do.
if you want to survive this, heed my warning.
i've done this before. i know how to do it.
you'll thank me later.
what's it going to take for you to listen to me?
i know what i'm doing! back off!
this is the thanks i get?
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i lived seven lives at once. ⸻ i was POWER in the ecstasy of death. 𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐝 . . . now? i’m trapped on a roof, just one roof, in this time & this place with an 𝚞𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗 who drinks too much whiskey, and called me a 𝘀𝗺𝘂𝗿𝗳.
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#smurfdemon : independent, selective & mutuals only writing blog for illyria the merciless from the angel the series fandom. their character has been created around both canon and personal headcanons. tortured regularly by hope. est. may 2023. temporary rules can be found here while i work on a more illyria specific carrd. important note: illyria is a powerful purebred demon that ruled earth during the primordium age. they are not your regular demon and not to be underestimated.
a character exploration into → the world you once knew (and ruled) is gone / conqueror / reincarnation / legendary / to be loved and feared / humanity seeping through / a fate worse than death / adaptable.
[ i. CARRD.] ᅠ [ ii. HEADCANONS. ] ᅠ [ iii. MEMES. ] ᅠ [ iv. BLOGROLL. ]
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@thatslayer sent : think i'll sleep for two days straight after a fight like that. prompts for after the battle.
" i thought the slayer was supposed to be an extraoridnary power. ⸻ does this world do anything but disappoint? " it’s perhaps an 𝚞𝚗𝚏𝚊𝚒𝚛 judgement, given the skills illyria has just seen faith display, but compliments do not come easy to primordial being. if ever. the concept of rest & recharging is 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 on creature as old as they, and that which was beyond her comprehension was automatically deemed UNWORTHY by oversized ego. sorry, faith. eyes scan over the trail of bodies they’ve left behind, top lip lifting in sneer. " this was not a fight. this was sport. in my time, our wars waged for 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚜. we did not stop until every wall hung with entrails, and our bodies bathed in blood like rainfall. your battles here are . . . petty. and dull. " but here she is, still fighting them. the irony is not lost on old one. where else was she going to go? this world didn’t belong to her anymore. such revelations had been made painfully clear.
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the silence in which they travel doesn’t necessarily arouse cause for suspicion. ⸻ if anything, illyria welcomes the quiet. it’s the first semblance of 𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚎 offered in weeks. the humans ( amongst other lower beings ) all make noise, but nothing or nobody ever says anything truly worth listening to. their words are 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝗶𝘀𝗲 in a meaningless world, and she grows tired of the incessant echoes that plague every hallway. the momentary reprieve is welcomed, as well as 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐝. however, the further they travel, the more aware of wesley’s DISCOMFORT she becomes. the air that hovers around them is thick with tension and while his inattentiveness neither bothers nor upsets her, it does have the demon king questioning what inspired him to take this journey together if their presence caused him such 𝚞𝚗𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚝 unrest. that was suspicious. there’s a lot about modern - day humans illyria didn’t understand, but their emotions? . . . far easier to read than any book. fools wore them as much as they wore clothes, out in the open for all to see, especially those with 𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐮𝐥 observation. he’s keeping something from her.
" i don’t care. " response to his explanation is immediate and yet, despite claim, illyria follows regardless. by the time they’ve entered roadside dinner, hard - armoured skin has been temporarily shedded in favour of looking more 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗. the familiar sight of long lost winifred burkle stands instead, 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐡𝐲 & 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝, as if she never died. wesley doesn’t like it when she does this; looks like her. he’s said as much in the past, but how else do they expect to blend? blue - tinted skin attracts 𝚞𝚗𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 attention. that will be her excuse if asked anyway, though truthfully? perhaps the primordial being has an ulterior motive. perhaps she seeks a 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 from him. illyria might not mind the silence, but the ignoring of her very existence, by a human of all creatures . . . insulting. ego doesn’t have time ( or rather, 𝗿𝗲𝗳𝘂𝘀𝗲𝘀 ) to decipher that puzzle right this second. body slides into chair opposite former watcher and for a long, 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 moment, all illyria does is stare. it’s purposeful. 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 more than questioning, accusing even, without using words. when she does speak, it becomes painfully obvious appearances are no more than deception, voice cold & monotone, so very far from the soft, southern lull her shell used to speak in. " you request i join you on this expedition, and yet you sit in quietude, like a bug on the wall. why? "
IT WAS STILL HARD FOR WESLEY [ .... ] TO LOOK AT HER, SPEAK TO HER, EVEN HEAR HER VOICE. this creature, higher being, was disguising as the love of his life, someone he had too little time with but he was assigned to mentor her and retrain her to be a contribution to society in a way where she didn't harm or bring fatality to anyone. he didn't like it and he made that quite evident to illyria. she questioned him constantly on his methods and ways of emotional thinking but something he wouldn't admit is that he admired her vastly, she was fascinating. he couldn't tear himself away from her no matter how much he tried to talk himself into it. it was all because she wore fred's face and he had to remind himself of that.
WESLEY TOOK HER ALONG ON A MISSION OF HIS. he wanted to visit some expertise to help him better understand who she was, where came from, and potentially what she could be capable of. she didn't know that yet, though. he kept his knowledge mission in the dark; slightly afraid how she would react or if she would be compliant. he didn't want to risk that. it was important he knew her history and how to defuse her if something were to trigger in her. sure, her power is limited and restricted but for how long? he didn't want to find out.
HE DROVE DOWN THE SEEMINGLY ENDLESS DARK ROAD IN THE MIDDLE OF NIGHT WITH HOURS AHEAD OF THEM. their ride had been mostly quiet but that was pretty typical from wesley's end. he didn't have much to say to her except questions about where she came from which is what he'd like to limit their conversation to as much as possible. anything else just reminded him of his beloved. it was obvious that wesley was growing tired; every now and then his eyes would shut but only for a brief moment and he adjusted himself frequently to keep his body moving and mind awake. he spotted a coffee shop that was open in one of the nearby exists and he points briefly to signal to her, “ i must grab a coffee ” he told her, taking the exit and once arriving, parking. he led her inside where he ordered his black coffee and found a table for them to rest at. she might not need it but he sure did. he avoided eye contact with @smurfdemon, hoping she wouldn't notice or shine a light on that. he just wanted this trip to be as minimal contact as possible.
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They're Called "Personal Issues" for a Reason starters
"You don't need to dig into my past; some things are better left buried."
"I appreciate your curiosity, but I'm not ready to share that part of my life."
"There's a reason I keep certain things to myself. Let's just focus on the present."
"Curiosity killed the cat, you know? Let's not go there."
"I value our friendship, but some doors are meant to stay closed."
"Don't pry, please. I've dealt with it on my own, and that's how I prefer it."
"I've got personal demons I'm wrestling with. No need for you to join the fight."
"Not every scar has a story I want to share. Let's drop the subject."
"I've learned to live with my secrets; let's not disturb the peace."
"We all have our shadows. Mine's not something I want in the spotlight."
"Some chapters of my life are best left unread. Respect my privacy, okay?"
"I'd rather not revisit the past. Can we focus on the here and now?"
"It's not about trust; it's about protecting both of us from unnecessary pain."
"Let sleeping dogs lie. Some things are better off undisturbed."
"I've closed that chapter of my life. No need to reopen wounds."
"You're a good friend, but not every story has a happy ending."
"I've chosen not to share. Let's leave it at that."
"I've got my reasons for silence. It's not about you; it's about me."
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" feelings are worthless to me. " or at least, they used to be. still are too, for the most part, but taking over a 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗 body with 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗 memories complicated such a situation. illyria is not fred. that part of this shell is long gone, but pieces remain enough to occasionally cause confusion. the 𝐥𝐨𝐲𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐲 felt to friends, the 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 shown to a certain watcher. images are clear in mind and as much as primordial being dismisses emotions, she also cannot shake them. they are embedded into this body just as much as old one is. " to feel 𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚋𝚝𝚎𝚍 to someone is to give them power over you. i offer no such compromise. ⸻ i go where i please, not where i am needed. " which begs the question; why does she stay here? angel investigations can pretend they keep her within sight to prevent the threat she poses, but the reality is, they could not box her inside these walls if illyria TRULY desired to break free. her power far 𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬 anything they, or their modern technologies, can use against it. it is a reality she tries not to question too often, unsure how to find the answer. instead, attention returns to another comment previously made, head snapping to left side. " you have not met another me. i am the last of my kind. " the others linger in prisons, 𝚞𝚗𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 even by her. for now. " who is foolish enough to make such a claim? i will wear their tongues around my neck. "
"Well, yeah. Slayer, The. Hi. . .your mighty goddess, met one of you, I think." Did Glory counted as a goddess demon? Not sure, probably from another world really. But the power is almost as unsettling as that of the Master, and that man was simple just that, an old old vampire. Perhaps the First Evil, that fateful night she almost lost Angel again. "It's not like I feel that for every vampire I come across. I'm very proficient, trust me." Buffy points out, almost feeling called out by her previous relationship with Angel. The topic always brings some sore wounds, things that never closed because he still is cursed, and they still can't be together. "Angel was different. He never hurted me. . .until his curse. He loved me and I love him." And the Slayer uses the present tense because that love never fades away. "He was never my enemy. Because he always comes when I need him. And I do the same." And the Slayer props her Scythe with ease in one hand, the weapon of her ancestors. "He needed me, I called. But I'm sure feelings are weird for you."
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the threat of physical attack doesn’t unnerve her. ⸻ in fact, it barely elicits a response at all. the only reaction is a slight curve at left mouth corner, 𝚜𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚜𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚔 making it clear they’re neither afraid nor concerned. simply amused. " you can try. you will 𝗳𝗮𝗶𝗹, but i enjoy this. " and perhaps that’s why he doesn’t, much to her slight 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭. battle was at least EASY for the primordial being to comprehend. combat, winning. these are 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚊𝚛, unlike everything else surrounding her. head tilts in observation as eyes purposely focus on him, reading every little reaction. " you hesitate to hurt me. " it isn’t a question as much as a 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁. old one sees everything and even if she doesn’t, she senses, smells. she doesn’t pry further though. not yet anyway.
instead, gaze drops down to the controller now in hand, turning it over in an attempt to learn each little angle. the human world had created such 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 devices to entertain themselves. finger presses one button, nothing more and luigi jumps, only to be instantly taken out a minute later. outrage flashes over blue - shaded features. " the turtle killed me. how is that possible? " attention immediately snaps in spike’s direction, as if her character’s fate is his fault, but whatever accusation might’ve been about to escape seems to fall 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 at his own question. it's illyria's turn to hesitate, turning to look back at television as game re - starts. " . . . wesley does not wish to spend time with me. 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳. " there’s a pause, surprisingly 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚏𝚞𝚕 for someone who claims the opinions of others mean NOTHING to her, before she pushes on. " is that why you don't kick? because i look like her. "
† ―――― “ THE HELL I DON'T !! i have rights just as much as the next bloody person. y'know, i've half a mind to drop kick you ” he responded, eyes narrowing at the blue-haired demon. as much as he was tempted to grab her and quite literally throw her out, he knew he didn't stand a chance against her and her immense, ancient strength. he knew that from all the times she's successfully kicked his ass. so, he didn't and just gave up as he always did against her. as much as spike always said it was because of how strong she was compared to him, some of those times was because of the body she was inhabiting. it hurt to watch fred's body be possessed by some demon that forced its way inside of her. fred deserved so much more than that. he rolled his eyes at her next comment and scoffs, “ yea, right, like i'd let you but i don't really fancy gettin' into 'nother one of yer tussels, luv. i was hopin' t' have some peace 'nd quiet t'night but looks like that dream's died ” he responded, sighing deeply in disappointment. he went to his bedroom and changed into some clothing quickly before heading into the fridge, grabbing a beer. he slowly turns when she speaks and notices she's already invited herself to his games as well as his television. there goes the telly, he thought to himself. he saunters over and plops himself into the sofa next to her, grabbing a remote and handing her one. “ fiiine but don't screw it up. i jus' got my high score ” he threatened but, of course, it was an empty one just as they all were. as he starts up the game for two players, the music chimes on the television and they begin their screen slider game. “ you care t' clue me in as to why you decided t' bother me tonight ? thought you'd be out with the ex-watcher [ .... ] ”
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it isn’t often illyria dones this human appearance. ⸻ tapping into the shell they 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 in, as well as the memories that come with her, triggers what’s slowly becoming the old one’s 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. humanity. since breaking free from the prison world, nothing has been how it used to be. true form is 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚝, now forced to remain in the body of a former librarian slash demon hunter, and while currently hidden skin - clad armour usually at least 𝘀𝗲𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀 primordial being from the ordinary, tonight she looks no different than any other human sat at the bar. it’s curiosity more than anything. a need to UNDERSTAND how this dimension works, despite claiming to hold no respect for it. no wonder it killed the cat if this is what such longing leads to. " i know no songs. your music is 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 to me. " the response doesn’t match soft features, and illyria catches herself a beat later. wasn’t the point of this 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 supposed to be about blending? back straightens then and smile is forced, accent slipping from well - spoken monotone to strong, southern accent with complete ease. " i mean, i’m a first timer. i don’t know what ya’ll like to sing around here, but i have always been fond of that song about 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘦 and grey skies. "
@smurfdemon ♡’d for a starter (still accepting) !
"got anything in particular you want me to sing tonight?" it was all the more fun singing when she knew there was someone out there that actually wanted to hear that one out of her repertoire. "name a song, any song. i bet i can give it a good go."
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