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Saturday Feb 8th

-25hr Fast-

Went to my boyfriend’s tonight, wasn’t going to eat until his roommate brought in chocolate chip cookies. I had one, and then went through the stale food on his dresser while he was in the shower and ate 2 pieces of chicken and a McDonald’s burrito..... not my finest moment. I should not be taking food from him.

Snack- 426cal

Chocolate Chip Cookie (1)- 68cal

Popcorn Chicken (2pcs)- 68cal

McDonald’s Breakfast Burrito (1)- 290cal

2/8/20 Total Calories- 426cal

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Friday Feb 7th

-14hr fast-

Went and helped at the Soup Kitchen today, had a tiny lunch. Then went to Kevin’s to get tied up and he made dinner. When I got back I had a not too terrible junk food snack. I really see these binges decreasing in calorie count, hopefully I can start restricting soon! (Sorry about the lack of pics)

Lunch- 191cal

Chicken Pot Pie (.25c)- 103cal

Mushrooms (4Tbs)- 11cal

Corn Salsa (1Tbs)- 22cal

Tortilla Chips (5)- 54cal

Dinner- 330cal

Sweet Potato Slices (8)- 67cal

Chicken&Squash Gnocchi- 263cal

Snacks- 390cal

Mini Snickers (1pkg)- 43cal

Cinnamon Apple Puffs (30pc)- 13cal

Veggie Straws (15)- 49cal

PB Powder (3Tbs)- 105cal

Dark Chocolate Almond & Coconut Kind Bar (1)- 180cal

2/7/20 Total Calories- 911cal

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Thursday Feb 6th

-28hr fast-

Little late night binge BUT it was mostly made of small foods and I had a pretty good purge after it (my first purge in years). Sorry about no photo.

2/6/20 Total Calories- 991cal

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Wednesday Feb 5th

-25hr fast-

Actually.... not a total fail? All these binges are still happening, but slowing down for sure. (Sorry about the burger and chips not pictured.)

Snack- 379cal

PB Powder (9Tbs)- 315cal

Honey (1Tbs)- 64cal

Dinner- 730cal

Vinegar&SeaSalt Chips (1pkg)- 210cal

Burger- 520cal

2/5/20 Total Calories- 1,109

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Tuesday Feb 4th

-20hr fast-

Well..... coulda been worse.

Snack- 344cal

PB Powder (8Tbs)- 280cal

Honey (1Tbs)- 60cal

Dinner- 1,495cal

Cheesecake (2 slices)- 514cal

Fettuccini Alfredo- 120cal

Breadsticks (1)- 150cal

French Fries- 230cal

Siracha Mayo (1Tbs)- 60cal

Turkey Bacon Club (3/4)- 421cal

2/4/20 Total Calories- 1,893cal

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Monday Feb 3rd

-28hr fast-

Pros: at least I got rid of some food I stored.

Cons: I proved that I will go downstairs for binge food.

Dinner- 2,109cal

PB Powder (7Tbs)- 245cal

Funyuns (1pkg)- 180cal

Vinegar&SeaSalt Chips (1pkg)- 210cal

Spicy Chicken Sliders (1)- 205cal

Sausage&Pepperoni Pizza Calzone (1)- 600cal

Mini Skittles (1pkg)- 40cal

Strawberry Pocky (1pkg)- 200cal

Chocolate Pocky (1pkg)- 200cal

Cheetos (.5pkg)- 165cal

Honey (1Tbs)- 64cal

2/3/30 Total Calories- 2,109

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Sunday Feb 2nd

This was bad. I don’t even know what to say.... wow. I need to stop myself.

Snack- 1,009cal

PB Powder (5Tbs)- 175cal

Peanut Butter (2.5Tbs)- 235cal

Honey (1Tbs)- 65cal

Snack Reese’s Cups (4)- 440cal

Chocolate Pocky (1/2 container)- 95cal

Dinner- 1,639cal

Ravioli (1.25c)- 250cal

Peas (.5c)- 59cal

Breadstick (1)- 150cal

White Rice (.25c)- 60cal

General Tso’s Chicken (6pieces)- 416cal

Cake Pop- 160cal

McDonald’s Vanilla Shake (1/2)- 126cal

McDonald’s Large Fry (.4) - 100cal

McDonald’s Quarterpounder w/ cheese (.6)- 318cal

2/2/20 Total Calories- 2,648cal

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Friday Jan 31st - Saturday Feb 1st

Got weighed at the doctors after my week of binging on Friday. I can’t even bring myself to update the weight on here because it doesn’t feel real. Literally sent me into tears and shaking.

Fast- 0cal (66hours)

1/30-2/1/20 Total Calories- 0cal

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Thursday Jan 30th

-24hour fast-

OH MY FUCKING GOD I ATE AGAIN!!!!!!!! I was soooo close..... I’m fucking pissed. I wasn’t hungry and had a coffee, but my friend Riley invited me out and I couldn’t say no. And then I ate wayyyy more than I needed because I WASN’T HUNGRY IN THE FIRST PLACE! I’m so mad I can’t even think. I WILL NOT DO THAT AGAIN!!!!1!1!1! Jesus girl, have some self control. I won’t see you tomorrow because I’m doing another long ass fast.

Dinner- 1,352cal

Chicken Tenders (3)- 243cal

Fries (small)- 230cal

Mayo (2Tbs)- 120cal

Asian Slaw Salad (1cup)- 100cal

Pesto & Mozzarella Pizza (2slices)- 187cal

Breadstick (1)- 150cal

Tres Leches Cake (1serving)- 142cal

Mini Apple Pie (1)- 100cal

Ice Cream (1/4cup)- 80cal

1/30/20 Total Calories- 1,352cal

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I forgot how much you SHIT after you binge.... ooooooo wow this is no bueno. Just another reason to stop doing this!

-Future me and others, is the food now worth the repercussions later?-

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Wednesday Jan 29th

~29hour fast~

I felt terrible about my binge yesterday and was planning on not eating for the rest of the week. I did, however, forget how much energy you gain after you eat. I also forgot how much hungrier you get. So, after trying my best all day, I started snacking on peanut butter in my dorm room (I need to get rid of it cause that’s a HUGE trigger food for me). Then after 2 or so hours I decided to just have dinner and fulfil my hunger. I took way too much food (didn’t eat everything pictured) but wasn’t so full I couldn’t walk. I am saying it right now, I am getting back on track, no more food until Sunday (at the least)!

Snack- 558cal

PB Powder (3Tbs)- 105cal

Peanut Butter (4Tbs)- 376cal

Honey (1/2Tbs)- 32cal

Rice Roll (1)- 45cal

Lunch- 788cal

Potato Wedges (8)- 143cal

Turkey Club Sandwich (1/2)- 175cal

Siracha Mayo (1Tbs)- 60cal

Veggie Egg Rolls (2)- 160cal

Vanilla Ice Cream (1/4cup)- 80cal

Chocolate Lava Brownie (1)- 170cal

1/29/30 Total Calories- 1,326cal

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Tuesday Jan 28th

Today was a high stress day. It was a bad anniversary, I got no sleep, I saw a phsychiatrist, I had a huge panic attack the day before, and was starving. Walking back from class at noon, I couldn’t help but stop at the cafeteria... and then go in... and then get a plate... and then another. Luckily I didn’t eat the entirety of what was pictured, but I ate so much that I cried and could hardly walk. My mood switched randomly throughout the day and I was crazy bloated. The calories were very high and I’m not happy with myself. I had a 4.4lb gain after this meal.

Lunch- 1,606cal

Fries (1.5ish servings)- 412cal

Siracha Mayo (1Tbs)- 60cal

Tomato (1)- 22cal

Pickle Slices (10)- 8cal

Soft Shell Chicken, Rice, & Bean Tacos (2)- 368cal

Chocolate Chip Cannoli (1)- 190cal

Chocolate Chip Cookie (2)- 136cal

Snickerdoodle (1)- 80cal

Veggie Egg Roll (2)- 105cal

Mac & Cheese w/ Bacon (1/4cup)- 100cal

Vanilla Ice Cream (1/4cup)- 80cal

Blueberry Sauce (1oz)- 44cal

1/28/20 Total Calories- 1,606cal

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Friday Jan 24th - Monday 27th

After getting back to Laramie, I was quite busy and alone. I had some relationship issues and was very stressed. I did a huge fast that I am very proud of and realized that the “traditional” you-haven’t-eaten effects (dizziness, tiredness, hunger pains) go away after your 3-4th day of not eating. This was actually quite fun and I want to challenge myself to more of these looong fasts.

Fast- 0cal (119hours)

1/24-27/20 Total Calories- 0cal

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Thursday Jan 23rd

Today was my last day home, so my mom treated me to a lunch at my favorite restaurant. I tried not to worry about calories and got a Pico De Gallo and Avocado Burger with fries and chipotle mayo. (It was so good!!) I only ate half the burger, but I had quite a bit of mayo and all the fries. I did eat past the point of just feeling full though. I didn’t eat for the rest of today. I’m so excited to be back!

Lunch- 1,076cal

Burger (half)- 360cal

Fries (2.5ounces)- 375cal

Avocado (half)- 161cal

Mayo (2Tbs)- 180cal

1/23/20 Total Calories- 1,076

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Wednesday Jan 22nd

~16hr Fast~

I got decent sleep last night and was at the food pantry from 8-12. I was planning on eating a good miso soup with tofu tonight, but my dad brought in donuts and to curb my craving I had peanut butter powder. I then decided to actually have a meal and have veggie straws with salsa. Another thing I love with salsa is cheese, so I added some shredded cheese. I then was mindlessly snacking and had some actual peanut butter with m&m’s from this trail mix bag and then a handful of blueberries. I don’t count this as a binge because it didn’t emotionally feel like a binge, but I punished myself without dinner and went for an hour long walk because I was mad at myself.

Calories Burned- 198cal

Snack- 401cal

PB Powder (5Tbs)- 175cal

Veggie Straws (13)- 42cal

Salsa (1Tbs)- 4cal

Parmesan Cheese (2Tbs)- 42cal

Peanut Butter (1Tbs)- 94cal

M&M’s (9)- 32cal

Blueberries (15)- 12cal

1/22/20 Total Calories- 401cal

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Tuesday January 21

Last night I got a decent amount of sleep, I was planning on eating the sweet potatoes I had and some noodles, but I didn’t know how to cook them. I had a midday snack of some Pb powder. Then I went for a 45min walk with my dogs and then did an hour long yoga class, but when I got back I didn’t know what to eat. I made myself some sweet potato fries in the air fryer with some fry sauce. I didn’t eat them all, but they made me super full and were really good.

Calories Burned- 322cal

Snack- 70cal

PB Powder (2Tbs)- 70cal

Dinner- 298cal

Sweet Potato Fries- 168cal

Fry Sauce (1Tbs Mayo, 2Tbs Ketchup)- 130cal

1/21/20 Total Calories- 368cal

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Monday Jan 20th

Woke up at 3am and decided my day had begun, I went to the food pantry from 8-12 and then ate half of my leftover salmon and a fourth of a head of roasted cauliflower. Then I went on a 4 hour walk with my mom before finishing the salmon, cauliflower, and having some PB powder. All in all a pretty good day, good workout, and super protein filled food.

Calories Burned- 686cal

Lunch- 288cal

Salmon (5oz)- 215cal

Cauliflower (half a head)- 73cal

Snack- 35cal

PB powder (1Tbs)- 35cal

1/20/20 Total Calories- 323cal