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what if,,, u liked this for a short starter that i take from one of these two prompt memes <3

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hm,,, time to figure out what will make me be active back on here again <3

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isaiah && makoto.

makoto feels a bit at ease with isaiah’s hand shifting , rubbing the skin there as if to comfort them and they hoped that it was just that and nothing more. ’ but , i think that i’ll always worry about it , isaiah. ’ they take a deep breath , like the weight of the world is on their shoulders , only eased somewhat when they feel him press a kiss to their cheek; a bit surprised by how gentle the action is , breathing hitches as he makes a trail down to their neck , glancing at him as he rests there to speak again. ’ stuff like this doesn’t usually work out for me. ’ they carefully place a hand into his hair , gently playing with the strands. ’ i just get scared , you know ? ’

isaiah almost leans into their touch, instead simply letting them continue to toy with the strands of his hair as he shifts to study them. he understands the worry, he thinks, some of it echoing his own experience, though well aware of just what cause the issue there. is it an apology he should offer now ? he swallows it back for now, only nodding along slightly to their concerns. there doesn’t seem to be a right thing to say now, or not one he’s too keen on saying even now. fingers continue to rub slight circles into their inner thigh, another kiss pressed against their skin with a sigh. “ can’t spend the whole time worrying about it, you know. we just... see how things go.”

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ezra && theodore.

theodore feels like his words are caught in his throat , he is rarely ever left speechless , but ezra managed to make him as such again and again; he had never been a talkative person , but they made him want to praise to the sky to show them how much he loves them. he feels himself starting to tear up , taking a shaky breath when they brush back his hair , leaning into the feeling like he never thought he would feel it again. ‘ you thought i was cute ? ‘ he manages , a teasing to his tone despite the shakiness of his voice , his heart aches with how much he loves them. ‘ i thought- i thought you were beautiful , i knew that i would love you the moment that i laid my eyes on you. ‘

the slight strain in his tone is enough to have something catch in ezra’s throat, eyes softening even more with each passing moment. there’s a certainty in theodore’s words that leave them aching, the reassurance they craved through everything. “ did you ? ” do you still ? unsure of what else to do with their hands, they take his, eyes staring intently as if seeing for the first time, almost afraid to look back up when they feel their vision begin to blur with tears. they’ve never been too embarrassed to cry, even less so in front of him, only seems unearned when they know they were their own cause. “ could— could you really be so sure that soon ? ”

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all  forced  smiles  and  swallowed  words,  and  your  tongue  still  drips  with  that  lingering bitterness,  but  you  can't  be  too  angry  when  it's  gotten  you  this  far.

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YOU KNOW THAT YOU CAN CALL ME WHEN YOU WANT. CALL ME WHEN YOU NEED, CALL ME IN THE MORNING &. I’LL BE ON MY WAY.

independent, selective & private original character multi-muse as guided by lane; 8teen, he/she/they, cst. read pages prior to interaction.

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* things said meme

things you said over the phone

things you said with the tv on mute 

things you said when you were proud

things you said under your breath

things you said with sorrow between your fists

things you said when you were lost

things you said when our world began to crumble

things you said with too many days between us

things you didn’t say at all

things you said that i wasn’t meant to hear

things you said you’ll never forget

things you said with clammy hands 

things you said when fear cut deep

things you said while a fever stole your mind

things you said with rage between your teeth

things you were afraid to say

things you said when no one else was around

things you said when the sun was shining

things you said with blooming bruises and stinging cuts

things you said when we were safe

things you said without thinking

things you said that kept me grounded

things you said you loved about me

things you said you hated about me

things you said when you lied

things you said with scraped knees 

things you said with tears in your eyes

things you said while holding my hand 

things you said in the car

things you said under the stars

things you said at my grave

things you said at the kitchen table

things you said on the porch at 3 am

things you said in a gas station parking lot 

things you said in a hotel room

things you said in the waiting room

things you said while you stroked my hair

things you said that made me feel loved

things you said when i was crying

things you said while i cried in your arms 

things you said when you thought i was asleep

things you said in your sleep

things you said when you kissed me goodnight

things you said after a nightmare

things you said before death snatched you

things you said that i wish you hadn’t

things you said when it ended

things you said when you met my friends

things you said when we first met

things you said when they took me away

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isaiah && makoto.

‘ i know that you don’t and- and you do come back , but …. ‘ what if one day you realize that i’m nothing more than just someone you have sex with ? they only glance at him when he shifts closer , almost leaning into the hand that rests on them , wanting to soak in even the smallest touch from him; not sure when they’ll get it next. ‘ i do trust you …. i just get scared , i guess ? ‘ they duck their head , wondering if they’re silly for feeling this way again and again. ‘ i- i don’t want to lose you. ‘

the hand resting on them shifts up and down slightly, seemingly unsure of whether its aim is to soothe or something more. “ you don’t have to worry about that. ” they shouldn’t, but he knows he’s given them more than enough reason to do just that. leaning closer, lips pressing something gentle against their cheek before they mark a trail down, resting along their neck for a moment before he looks back up. “ why are you so sure that’s where we’ll end up ? ”

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isaiah && makoto.

‘ then what is it ? ‘ makoto mumbles under their breath , dragging a hand through their hair to push the strands back , any happiness that they felt from last night seems to be long gone. ‘ i know that you have to , but …. ‘ i wish we didn’t always end up in bed together again and again. they look away from him , brows drawing together as they feel themselves tear up , voice breaking somewhat when they say the latter. ‘ will you ? because …. sometimes , i’m scared that you won’t. ‘

isaiah wants to take offense to the latter, but there’s reason in their worry that he can’t quite argue against. “ I don’t leave without warning. ” not today, not recently, at least. “ and I keep coming back, don’t I ? ” he hopes there’s enough sincerity in the way he looks at them, just enough to reassure something, even if he wasn’t sure just how much weight his words really carried. he shifts closer, closing the gap between them when they turn away, a hand carefully resting  “ don’t you trust me ? ”

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isaiah && makoto.

‘ ….. just like that ? ‘ makoto doesn’t look at him , the pain is evident in their eyes and the way that they’re laying next to him , swallowing hard as they pull themselves to sit up. hands anxiously fidgeting with the shirt of his that they’re wearing , they finally look at him , face lined with worry. ‘ how long are we going to keep doing things like …. this ? ‘ how long do you plan to keep leaving me ?

“ it’s not ‘ just like that, ’ ” isaiah makes no move to rise after them, only following makoto’s movement with his gaze. “ you knew I’d have to go. ” almost out of his control, like he didn’t hide behind the same excuse each time. sitting up, there’s a hint of something apologetic in his eyes, but it never makes it past just that, a sigh pushing its way past his lips instead. “ what’s wrong with this ? you know I’ll come back. ”

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baby,  won’t  you  kiss  me  already  ? 

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@tiltedsun / sc.

“ maybe this was all supposed to happen just like this because… because it was always gonna be us anyway. ” an apology sits on their tongue, already said too many times as it is between them, but ezra wonders if it will ever be enough for the hurt that sat between them. the smile they offer is just as hesitant as the hands that reach up, gently brushing back messy hair. “ I always thought you were cute, you know. since— since I first saw you. ”

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@tiltedsun / sc.

“ it’s cold outside. i don’t do cold.” it hardly makes a difference, skin cold to the touch no matter where aries is, only made worse when julian strays from his side. it’s a weak argument, eyes just barely peeking through covers. “ do you have to practice right now ? ”

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@tiltedsun / sc.

“ I know you love me. ” the words stumble from isaiah’s mouth with little filter now, tone almost carrying the slightest bit of accusation as he lies next to them, hoping for a moment that makoto might still be asleep despite the way their stirring has put a stop to the idea. “ and I mean what I said last night, I just... ” a breath, just a moments pause. “ I might have to leave soon. ”

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brown haired chanhee, an extinct species

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alternatively, what if,,, u liked this for some quick back and forth threads that i take from one of these two prompt memes <3

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what if,,, u liked this for some quick back and forth nsf.w threads that i take from these prompts,,,