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Brian, as a fan of the 27 Club, has a serious self-destructive tendency. When he gives Justin the scarf symbolizing self-destruction, it signifies that Justin is the only stabilizing force in his chaotic life. Brian yearns to become an eternal figure through die young.And yet, he says to Justin, "I want you safe. I want you around for a long time."Brian wants Justin to live well, to become someone truly great,and be the person he wants to be.Justin came into Brian’s life in place of pain, and Brian depends on Justin more than he depends on himself."If I know nevertheless what love is, it is because of you. I have been able to love you, you alone among all men. You cannot imagine what that means. It means a well in a desert, a blossoming tree in the wilderness. It is thanks to you alone that my heart has not dried up, that a place within me has remained open to grace."

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The biggest difference between Michael and Justin is that, although Michael reached out to the helpless young Brian during his childhood, he never truly understood Brian’s inner world. Even in the end, he failed to realize that Brian genuinely loved Gus. Nor could he save Brian—that is, help him embrace his true self and become a person at peace with who he is. Brian remained a restless soul, a drifter flirting with danger and life itself.Justin, on the other hand, was different. He was young and brave, intelligent and independent. He drew Brian in, bit by bit, compelling him to explore this intriguing boy. Every time Justin stood up to his father and held firm to his beliefs, he shone like a light that pulled Brian closer.Being with Justin was anything but safe—he was talented and full of potential, always on the verge of outgrowing Brian. This constant push and pull, the fear of gaining and losing, tore at Brian emotionally. He desired Justin, but was afraid to fully give himself.What ultimately changed him was his love for Justin. That love marked Brian’s true emotional growth—accepting his own vulnerability, accepting that he could truly fall in love with someone. Justin redeemed Brian, not by fixing him, but by teaching him how to love that Brian could finally see—and accept—who he truly was.

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Some people are truly funny. Even though Brian rushed toward Justin first during the explosion, he loves Michael. Even though Brian argued with Michael for Justin's sake, he loves Michael. Even though Michael was lying in a hospital bed, Brian only cared about proposing to Justin, but he loves Michael……