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i dont think our relationship will be the same again. I don't think I'll ever be and feel the same way.

i dont know if this will last the end of the year

if it will then the same things will happen again and again. and I'll be fuckjnf sick of it

my heart is heavy all the time. i had sso many breakdowns and cried so much

i feel really loved at times. but i just want security. i dont want to doubt

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this shit tiring asf

i feel like a fucking dog waiting to be pet

but i dont bark or whine

i leave after being ignored

why cant you understand that i feel lonely and have no one else . i want to escape my troubles by being with you.

why cant your understand that i dont want to have to interrupt other people so you can give me attention

why do i have to act and be desperate ??

but i AM really the problem to everythibg. i dont understand anyone. i want people to do what i want and adjust to me. and im incredibly selfish and inconsiderate and mean and dgaf about anyone. people think otherwise because i dont show that. but im aware of my thoughts and actions. and know that I'm a bad person for it. as i continuously choose what *I* want despite others being unable to do so becuase they literally can't or just dont want to. and i crash out when other people bother me. when they ask me to do something simple that wont even affect me negatively in any way anyway. why cant i be less selfish

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visibly crying while walking and people passing by,, yea fuck you

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PUTANGINA NAMAN KASI EH FUCKING BITCH TANGIN MO TALAGA

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stop fuckinf pissing me off omygod

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ohhh i really want to fucking jump i hate everything i hate myself i hare everyone existing is so shit i hate it i fucking hate life what the fuck am i supposed to do i dont understand myself i dont understand anything i dont understand my actions and the reasonjng behind it because why the fuck am i acting like this so fucking stupid shit i will jump i am not a good person and i dont deserve love i am just faking everything and so is everybody else nobody is genuine and everybody is selfissh i wiwlll fucking dje alone and sad and i will junp pls omygod i fuckinf hate it i hate it j will hurt it hurts i wiwll just spiral and get worse and worse as the days go by i am not good at all i will actually go fucking insane i feel like im not myself omygod pls what the fuck is even happening

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putangina ng lahat i hate everyone fuck you fuck everyone I'll kms i will kill myself why is everybody so disappointing I FUCKINF HATE OMYGOD WHAT THE FUCK

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i hate myself omygod im just trying to not cry while in class im so tired i dont want to do anything i cant do anythinf everything i do is shit

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papakamatay nalang talaga ako ayaw ko na

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i don't think he loves me anymore

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PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PIFANGNAJDKS PRUAJGIINA PUTANGINA PITUAJFNG PUTANINA PUDSNANGI APUTAMGINA PUTANFINA PTUANANIGNA PUTANIGNA PUTANGNI PURANAI PJRANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGJNA PUNANIS PUTANGJINA PUTANGINA PJTNANFA PHTANGINA PUTAING APINFNA PUTNAIGNA PUNTAIINA PJTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTANGINA PUTNAIGNA PUNTANIGNA APIMTSNING APJTNANINA

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IM SO TIRED

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it's not that week and yet i'm like this and i have so much things to do i hate myself so much i dont know what to do

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why is it so fucking difficult to talk why don't we understand each other im so fucking tired please

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i miss having my person

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maiyak ako dito eh wala pa ako dalang panyo pano yan tutulo nalang sipon ko

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shouldn't be surprised that I'd be going back why am i like this omg let me go so i can be alone