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i am. so sorry if i have ever used the phrase “i have an au where—” and led you to believe that there is an actual fic out there for you to read rather than, at best, a post where i explain the concept, and at worst it is simply something that lives in my brain

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Jack & Robby having a set of long range compact walkie talkies that Jack spent an insane amount of money on and won’t tell Robby how much exactly because he knows he’ll disapprove

it’s for emergencies, they simply clip it to the waist of their cargos and forget about it most days

one goes back and forth in between them, lives at the hospital in between their lockers and the other lives on their kitchen counter

Jack’s simply too paranoid to trust phones, maybe he can’t get to his phone, maybe it’s out of charge, who the fuck knows, and if something happens to any of them or their kid he wants to know ASAP, that way he’s also not anxiously checking his phone constantly or has a small heart attack every time a notification gets past his do not disturb and it’s simply Robby asking if he can grab his hoodie cause he forgot it at the hospital

they’ve never had a real reason to use it that’s why when Jack’s in the middle of stabilizing a fracture to get it Xrayed the static sound of the walkie talkie being on makes his heart beat that little bit faster

a tiny voice comes through saying “hi daddy” followed by Robby’s voice calling out for their daughter, some more static and giggles and running sounds before the static goes out and then Robby’s voice again, soft and a little breathless saying they’re okay before it goes dead for real

Jack has to shake his head to focus again, apologizing to the room, continuing with his work, if the room feels just a little lighter and everyone has a soft smile on is no ones business but theirs

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hello to whoever has decided to look at my blog 🫡

i go by A, and i’m a chronically online college student (everything is fine and i definitely don’t need to get more sleep 😃👍). i just wanted to make an intro post for anyone who is curious about this blog (see below):

this used to be a criminal minds page at the height of the pandemic, but i have since expanded into multiple fandoms (aka whatever i happen to be obsessed with at the moment). i haven’t been super active in a while but may make a shitpost or two here and there 💀

i wrote a few fics way back when, so my old master list is linked here. my ao3 is linked on there as well, which also has the fics on the master list in addition to some works for other fandoms. here is the old intro post as well if anyone is curious.

finally, just to make a few things clear:

hate will never be tolerated (unless it’s directed towards racists, fascists, transphobes, etc—then by all means)

it is that deep. art is political. existing and living is political. that is why i am including these statements on an aPoLiTiCaL tumblr blog—fandom spaces are not excluded from politics.

free palestine and all of the places that have and continue to experience genocide and oppression (and to be clear, antisemitism also has no place in the pro palestine movement. judaism is not zionism, and no group is a monolith). all of our struggles are interconnected—as long as there is even one group facing oppression anywhere, no one can experience true liberation and freedom.

fuck ai—no amount of convenience can ever justify the sheer damage it does to our environment, especially at this moment in time where there are absolutely no regulations. additionally, it contributes significantly to environmental racism and creating significant health and infrastructure issues for those who live near the massive data centers required to sustain these ai models. its use in systemic violence, domestic and international, is especially egregious.

if you disagree with any of these, you can fuck right off 🫶

for those who stayed, hope you enjoy my hot mess of a blog 🫡

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finally watched thunderbolts and now i need to sit and contemplate my existence for a while

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I’m gonna need everyone to walk with me for this one

Robby and Jack are interns, kind of enemies, u know the usual rivalry everyone headcanons them to have when they first start working together

Jack’s looking for Robby for whatever reason, someone tells him last time they saw him he was headed towards the bathroom so Jack checks just in case

he immediate spots Robby’s black New Balance in a stall, he sounds like he’s actively throwing up and Jack worries, if he caught something and needed to go home he had to let Dana know so she could call someone to fill in for Robby asap

he knocks, asks if Robby’s okay, tries the door just because and it’s actually unlocked

Robby looks like shit, pale and sweaty and is folded over, but what really worries Jack is that even through the thick dark fabric of his scrub pants he can spot a darker patch of blood

he’s so fucking scared he just starts talking, asking Robby is okay, trying to do an assessment of what might be wrong because half an hour ago he was fine, they had argued over treatment for a patient until Adamson threatened to send them both to chairs if they didn’t calm down

Robby eventually sends him a death glare and tells him to shut the fuck up and that if he dares to put a hand on him to play doctor he’s gonna bite his fingers off

he tells Jack to go get something from his locker, Jack hesitates, but eventually moves because whatever it’s wrong with Robby, he seems to know exactly what it is

he gets the bag Robby asked for and after rummaging through his locker (feeling a bit like a creep) in search of clean spare clothes he eventually digs into his own locker to grab his own stash of scrubs and a clean pair underwear the guy’s definitely gonna need

by the time he gets back Robby still looks pale, sweaty, eyes red rimmed and glossy like he was trying so fucking hard not to cry, hands shaky as he took everything from Jack’s hands

he disappears back into the stall and Jack hears the click of the lock, paces in circles around the place for no more than two minutes before the lock clicks open and Robby peers his head out with a small “can you do this?” Jack takes what’s being offered, painfully aware of the syringe as it drops in his hand and the small vial that accompanies it

Jack tries really hard not to think of the worst but his mind gets ahead despite it all and immediately thinks about how he’s going to have to fucking report Robby out of everyone in the ER

his pulse is in his throat as he rotates the vial and when he reads testosterone the air doesn’t feel as heavy

they don’t speak as Jack helps Robby with the shot, but the uncomfortable silence makes Robby mumble a soft and low are we good? Jack replies a simple we’re good and he knows something has shifted between them, he just hopes it’s a good thing and doesn’t put them on even thinner ice

it’s a week after when Jack sees Robby again, he asked Monty about the man’s sudden disappearance but Adamson simply said Robby got sick and needed to recover

the issue is that he tries texting after two or three days and it goes unanswered, then he tries calling, and really gets worried when the seventh call in the span of four days goes once again straight to voicemail

so he does the most rational thing in the world and shows up at Robby’s apartment

after ten minutes or so of knocking (and getting told by an old lady that she’s gonna call the cops if he keeps it up) Robby finally answers, wrapped in a blanket, hair sticking out, looking awful

Robby doesn’t seem all that surprised, even if they’re not friends, Jack showing up like that is something Jack would do

Jack tries to ask if he’s okay, why he hasn’t been answering his phone in a well, tries to joke that the ER has been more bearable without Robby but he shuts the fuck up so fast when Robby throws something at his chest and Jack manages to catch it, misoprostol

well, shit

Robby tells him to just shut up, that he’s not in the mood to joke around, he doesn’t expect Jack to grab him by the scruff of his neck and pull him into a hug, so tight Robby feels the tears well up immediately despite having cried the better part of the last week

they stay like that for a long while, until Robby cries it all out and Jack’s jacket is covered in tears and snot

Jack has no idea what it feels like to get an abortion but he knows the theory, aches at the thought of the layers upon layers of complicated feelings Robby is going through and the fact that he had just basically isolated himself to go through such a fucking painful and possibly traumatic event

after a beat Robby slumps on the couch, clearly exhausted, and Jack quietly moves around the apartment, cleaning the mess, going out for groceries when he sees Robby’s kitchen is to all effects empty, does some half decent meal prep because he knows Robby needs at least another full week of rest and by the looks of it he hadn’t been eating all that much before Jack showed up

when Robby wakes up he expects Jack to be gone, only to find the man in his kitchen, the pile of sheets he had bled through in the drier and a brand new pack of the exact same brand of pads he used in the bathroom

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Saw somebody on tiktok discussing it that people are apparently claiming "Mr. Terrific doesn't sound smart."

And I'm gonna have to fight somebody yall piss me tf off

The man goes on to say that Terrific has largely been written by white men so he's never really spoken with much AAVE in the comics. But that now with Edi taking head he's breathed life into him. And the newest Mr. Terrific Year One redoing his origin story definitely does have AAVE

He also points out the same happened with Ryan Coogler. That people couldn't wrap their damn heads around the fact that somebody with an Oakland accent could actually talk about film with nuance and skill. Yall are racist as hell.

Mr. Terrific speaks with confidence. He's speaks like he's the smartest man in the room because he is. Some say he should sound like Reed Richards. That is old and tired. Some of yall just don't like to acknowledge that intelligence and AAVE can exist at the same time. That somebody talking like he does IS scholarly.

People don't know what code switching is and that's clear. I am so proud of Edi for stepping up and being able to do so much for this role and in turn the characters as a whole.

I should not have to hold anybodys hand and say the AAVE that EVERYBODY appropriates on a daily massive scale claiming it "Doesn't sound intelligent" is racist bullshit.

Every quip and line and bit of his identity he has makes his character better. It is earned and real and 100% intelligent. What in the hell

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gonna be thinking about the ragebaiting monkey bot trolls for the rest of time now. what an amazing joke

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I think my favorite thing about this Superman movie is how it beautifully shows that, yes, he's superhuman, but he still needs help. When he was thrashed on the ground, Mali came to help him get up. Krypto also helped him multiple times (such an absolute menace, but still a good dog!!). When he was feeling at his lowest, his earth parents were there for him. Lois Lane and her whole gang helped expose Lex Luthor's real motives, which in turn helped Superman clear his name. Metamorpho assisted him in the pocket universe, and when Superman couldn't save the people in Jarhanpur because he also need to save Metropolis, he asked his friends for help.

I'm so incredibly glad they didn't make him that "macho, I'm tough, I don't need your help" type. I'm genuinely glad Superman was portrayed again as a sincere, earnest, and kind person that he is. We really needed that. We needed this Superman.

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I love this fucking movie, man

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Something I really loved in the new Superman that I haven’t seen anyone mention:

When that building is falling down over the bridge, Superman is saving one woman in a car. Usually in superhero movies or TV procedurals with emergency services, if it’s a woman in a car she also has a child or a crying baby to “raise the stakes” and make you care. But for this Superman, and in the context of this movie, it’s enough to just be a woman alone in a shitty car that won’t start right. She doesn’t need to be a mother for the stakes to be high enough that Superman uses his body to stop an entire skyscraper.

It was small, but it felt really powerful to me the moment I saw it.

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i could write an essay of all the things i loved about the new superman movie but him saving that squirrel was such a highlight to me. it stands out because it’s just proving the point that to clark all life is valuable. that squirrel wasn’t anyone’s pet. and clark certainly didn’t save it for any attention. he saved a small helpless animal because life is precious.

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imagine youve had superpowers since you were a kid which make you nearly indestructible so that only giant alien monsters or special rocks could cause you pain until you meet this fucking dog with the same powers as you and hes cute but hes rowdy and he loves to jump on you and push you and drag you around and it hurts so bad but you cant get rid of him because he belongs to your cousin who grew up on a planet with a red sun so shes used to feeling pain and loves it when the dog gets rowdy with her so you have to put up with this fucking dog who keeps jumping at you and ow ow ow krypto stop ow krypto please ow krypto

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okay but like?? the first normal human genius inventor hyper-competent hero in this dc movieverse is Not batman? and is instead a black man who knows how to work with a team and at the same time takes no shit and will do what he thinks is right no matter what?? who’s sassy and funny and so incredibly fucking smart??? who absolutely scoffed at the idea that he would ever consider using a grapple to accomplish fucking anything???? who got more character moments than guy and kendra combined????

michael holt I am so in love with you oml

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Just so we are all on the same page, Being kind IS in FACT punk rock

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Noah Wyle Details Magazine 1996

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and if I only could I'd make a deal with God and I'd get him to swap our places

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Gang of Youths - Achilles Come Down