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Feel like a lot of people somehow missed the fact Melissa, Gen and Akilah were all collectively trying to isolate and kill Shauna, Tai and Lottie, its just none of them managed to actually go through with it. Van interrupts before Gen can even try, Akilah picks up a rock but can't make herself strike Lottie with it, Melissa gets the furthest but looking in Shauna's eyes as she struggles to breathe she just cant quite finish the job. Effectively the three of them and Mari orcestrated the hunt because they thought the chaos of it would be the best way to isolate and kill the people they see as causing the violence and stopping them from going home. The irony being that this means they instigated the violence this time, and, to be clear, this is all without even knowing about Nat, Van, and Misty's plan with the satellite phone. So they can try to say this was all Shauna and Lottie's doing but it wasn't, not when the others deliberately used what they knew of Shauna and Lottie's tendencies to try and benefit themselves, and isnt that what they've done all along really? Used Shauna and Lottie to assuage their own guilt and complicity in the violence.

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It’s mentioned a fair amount that Yellowjackets was inspired by Twin Peaks but I just want to talk about what that might actually mean.

I once saw someone say about that show, "Twin Peaks tells you exactly what it's about every three episodes but people don't see it because there's a horse in the living room." And that's so true for Yellowjackets too. Picture it like a nesting doll. If Twin Peaks was a show about male violence wrapped up in a crime drama wrapped up in comedy wrapped up in a psychological horror, then Yellowjackets is a show about loss wrapped up in a survival drama wrapped up in a comedy wrapped up in a psychological horror. And it's loss in so many forms; loss of the self, loss of innocence, and most of all loss of community.

Yellowjackets, like Twin Peaks, is just a commentary on society but once again "people don't see it because there's a horse in the living room". Or in this case, because theres a schizophrenic teenage prophet who may or may not be communicating with some wild, bloodthirsty, nature god. When the truth is, the horse isn't important. Whether the Wilderness is or isn't real, isn't important.

It's about ego vs id, civilisation vs the wilderness, and innocence vs brutality. The other, "bad" side is always waiting, like Mari talked about, and its something that both exists within us and in our society. Like with Tai, the other side isn't innately bad but if we let it rule things it can become incredibly destructive. There has to be a balance. That's why they're a soccer team. It's a sport that is all about balance. You can split a soccer field in half 8 different ways but you will still always get a full set of 11 players who hold 11 different positions. It's a perfectly balanced, symbiotic community that is built on trust and understanding. The brutality is part of the game too, but theres a balance that comes with the rules and the way the game is moderated and consented to. The message of the whole thing being that community, love, friendship is what saves you. Its when the characters lose these things that they lose themselves, become vulnerable, die. It's why everyone in this show is complicit in the death of their best friend. The writers set the stage with Allie's treatment in the pilot. The whole story in contained within that first episode and ultimately her not being able to come results in a lack of balance within the team. It's why as the show goes on the girls become less and unified in both timelines. Now they've got to the point where they're splitting into factions in one, and talking about having to kill each other to be "safe" in the other.

Shauna's right, it wasn't the wilderness that killed anyone, it was always only them. All of them. When Shauna says "You know there's no 'it', right? It was just us.", its a very similar outburst to the one Laura Palmer's boyfriend has at her funeral in Twin Peaks, saying "All you ‘good’ people – you wanna know who killed Laura? You did! We all did.”, making a point about how the enviroment the town created resulted in her death more than anything else. The person who murdered her was just hand of that enviroment, the way Shauna always seems to be too. She holds the knife, but they all put it in her hand. Every single "sacrifice" to the Wilderness so far has resulted from a group decision to push someone from the team, an idea that started back with Allie before the plane even crashed. And this same attitude immediately doomed them again, because it was Misty’s desperation to hold onto her newfound sense of community and belonging after being ostracised for so long that had her destroying the transponder. “He’s not one of us” about Ben, and “They don’t belong” about the research group. The idea of "the other" used as justification for violence.

Jackie’s death was the most pivotal because she was the death of community. She was the first to be ostracised, the figure that once represented unity between the girls. As we saw at the party, she was the only one who could reestablish balance between them, and they killed her first.

This show is about a lot of things, guilt, grief, sanity, etc, but I do think that actual main commentary is on our current society. Twin Peaks was so fantastical but at its core it was only ever really about the evil that men do and a society that fascilitates it. Yellowjackets in its turn is about the ostracisation of the "other" and how this only hurts us. Weakens our communities. It's not lost on me that at least half the known survivors are able-bodied queer women, and this is a womens soccer team. In the world of womens soccer I would say that's the majority class. I don't think that's necessarily a mistake. The Yellowjackets ostracise people who aren't like them, aren't "useful", don't abide by their religion, and who push back against the status quo. Doesn't that sound familar?

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i can't believe that the adults are acting like violent irrational teenagers in my favorite show, These Women Are All Trapped As Violent Irrational Teenagers Because Of The Trauma They Suffered Together starring The Woman Whose Acting Debut Was Heavenly Creatures

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but you don’t get it. because do you mean shauna’s awfulness, her meanness, her violence doesn’t make sense? what do you mean ‘where did her softness go?’ ‘what happened her to guilt and vulnerability?’ it fucking gone! her best friend died an avoidable death. her baby didn’t even cry. her baby wasn’t even fucking hers, but a piece in the other’s wilderness cult. her teammates left her alone to butcher the body of a LITTLE BOY WEEKS AFTER SHE LOST HERS. all of their lives were turned into nothing but a sacrifice to the wilderness for the rest of them to survive. they felt entitled to the deaths she held the closest to her heart. of course she’s fucking angry and bitter and borderline psychotic. of course she’s hungry for the title of queen because what else does she have? what else, in the mind of a TEENAGE GIRL, could quell or at least mask some of the pain and make it at least seem worth something? why would she want to go home when her baby and best friend’s bones rested in the wilderness? why would she want to face a reality where she’s nothing but a tragic girl who was in a plane crash with a dead friend and dead baby that no one expect the team even knew existed? why? when she could be something that could never exist back home? fear was all she had felt for MONTHS. why should she not be entitled to be a little feared too? is it right? no. of course fucking not. it’s so unbelievably messed up. THAT’S THE POINT!

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unfortunately, I will write this fic and I am writing this fic are two very different things

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People who are not afraid to text you 40 times in a row and don’t take it personally if you haven’t replied are literally the most valuable members of our society and should be recognized as such

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"never too late to be who you might have been" by sara yukiko mon | still from i saw the tv glow, "there is still time"

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“they’re queerbait this, they’re not canon that” they’re whatever i want them to be on ao3 actually

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“they’re queerbait this, they’re not canon that” they’re whatever i want them to be on ao3 actually

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i think the main relationship conflict buddie should have once they get together, while their relationship is still fresh, is buck getting jealous again when eddie starts hanging out with another man. everyone is trying to reassure him that eddie only has eyes for him, but it's not about that. buck knows that he is eddie's boyfriend and that eddie isn't looking for another one, but now that their relationship has changed, technically the spot for 'best friend' in eddie's life is empty. eddie could meet someone and they could become his best friend, and it would be alright, because buck is his boyfriend (and hopefully will become his husband), so it should be fine for eddie to find a new best friend.

only it's not fine. it's not fine at all. buck doesn't want eddie to have a best friend that isn't him. buck is his best friend, and he wants to be his best friend forever. and not in the way some couples claim they're "marrying their best friend" in their wedding speech while their actual best friend is sitting somewhere in the crowd. he wants to be his best friend, like he's been all those years. but he can't, right? because they're a couple now, so it makes sense that they could have another person to fill that role.

he's so upset about it, and he's struggling to express that to eddie, because he doesn't want to make him feel like he can't get close to other people just because buck is selfish and he wants to take over all the important roles in eddie's life. eddie should be free to get new friends and new best friends without buck losing his mind about it.

eddie is genuinely confused about the whole situation, maybe also a little hurt about buck seemingly not trusting him, until the guy he had been befriending makes a move on him (eddie didn't see that coming), and he thinks it's best to tell that to his boyfriend, only for their conversation to go like:

-buck, visibly relieved: oh thank god he was just hitting on you

-eddie, even more confused: you are happy that he was hitting on me? i thought you were jealous

-buck: yeah, i was jealous about him becoming your new best friend

-eddie: my new best friend? but you are my best friend

-buck: I'm your boyfriend. so you could technically have a different best friend

-eddie: why would i do that? just because we are in a relationship now it doesn't mean we can't still be best friends

it takes a little more conversation, but eventually eddie manages to convince buck that no, just because their relationship has evolved into a romantic one, it doesn't mean that its foundations have changed. friendship is at the core of it, and that's not something that could ever get lost. they don't have to act all that differently now that they're a couple, they can just be themselves around each other like they've always been, only now with the added bonus of intimacy with no worries that there's a line they shouldn't cross.

they are buck and eddie. best friends and partners and family and lovers and everything in between. maybe it's not conventional, but when has their relationship ever been?

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NEVA PLAY - MEGAN THEE STALLION FT. RM

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eddie decorating his living room and trying to make things as the best he can for his kid even when they're apart and being so hopeful just for it to come falling apart and be left with the feeling that he's failed his child yet again.........i truly want to walk into the ocean and never return

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this whole scene is so funny to me and has stayed rent free in my head since I read it the first time round

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eddie begins is so insane because what do you mean eddie was stuck beneath 40 feet of dirt and buck tried to dig him out with his bare hands while screaming his name and crying?? and while he was dying eddie thought about christopher and buck and the little family they made and that gave him the strength to keep fighting?? and THEN he went and put buck in his will without telling him??? made him the legal guardian of his only son if anything happens to him?? after less than two years of knowing him?? the fact that this is all season 3 is crazy like you’ve known this man for how long and you’re giving him your child.. eddie diaz i know what you are

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Something something the visceral horror GLaDOS must feel after watching Chell for so long, only for her test subject to literally go off the rails and disappear inside of her.

It's such a fantastic reversal of power! In an instant, it changes the genre from Chell's psychological nightmare into Glados's body horror.

This whole time Glados has been creating a psychosexual connection to her lab rat, and now that rat worms its way through her body in a way she can't track.

There's almost an intimacy about the rooms Chell solves being specifically tailored for her to see. They're a dishonest facade, until Chell escapes from the predetermined path and sees what Glados truly is/looks like, and ventures all the way to the heart of her, stripping her bare.

"What if you were a massive mechanical complex and I skittered through your insides and climbed into the heart of your most private and vital organs? And we were both women?"

This too, is Yuri

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System maintenance as a love language