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Another year

Another year has passed. I dyed my hair mourning black a day or so ago. I don’t always keep it black anymore, but at the end of every April, I can’t seem to help myself. Grief is such a strange thing. Coming and going like the tides. But don’t worry, Spider, I keep house casually in the recesses of my mind. And there your webs remain. Still untouched.

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8,765 days

It’s that time of year againWhere tears flow like riversThe wound deep like a canyonSometimes feeling the pain is better than nothing at allSometimes it crushes me under the weightIf I could only sleep in the void of nothingness Instead of the cloud of nightmare fuelFeelings of emptiness that wane and wax like the moonWaves of grief sorrow terror and panic wash over meA promised spring that never…

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The girl

What do you think you’re doing?Wipe those tears from your eyesSuck it up princessSoldiers don’t cryYou’ve got to be strongGot to be fireceDo not show loveDo not show fearBottle your rage Bottle your painShut your damn mouthI won’t tell you againStay on high alertWatch listen and learnLock up your heartOr else you will burnWe’ll tare up your mindAll in good timeDestroy who you are Pretend it’s all…

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The stars fall from the sky (Geminids 12.13.2021)

The stars fall from the sky (Geminids 12.13.2021)

Another day has gone by and you are on my mindSo tonight I sit in the cold staring up at the skyIt’s fitting that it would be tonight of all nights, because today was your dayAnd tonight the stars fall from the sky I slept all day, in and out of a haze from foggy memory to dream I even baptized my self in the heat trying to drown away the painRemove the zombie staring back at me in the mirror…

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Walk with me

Walk with me through a garden in the moonlightHand in hand, sweet smells, soft smiles Eyes drinking in beautyJasmine perfumes, rose scented loveFireflies and and warm embraces Walk with me through a garden in the moonlight Bare your soul and I shall bare mineLove deeply surrounded by nature Nurture the seed to full bloom No words are needed to connect us Walk with me through a garden in the…

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Pas de deux

In my dreaming I see youKeeping time pas de deuxA sad smile upon your faceYour heart in some secret place You walk alone stained in deep redMemories swarm through your headYou can not hide nor fight destiny For you are linked by heart to me Find meaning and me find meaning in youIn the moonlight, pas de deuxFind what was lost in loneliness longingTo find the souls true belonging I see through the…

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In silence

She learned at a young age to cry in silence As to not draw attention or disturb those around herTo hide her pain behind smiles and hugsTo hide her fear behind “I love yous”To hide her bruises behind long sleeves year round Walking on eggshells never making eye contact Moving as silent as a ghost As invisible as the windHaving seen things that would drive anyone madHaving felt pain that would…

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The end

Sweet angel come back to meIn a bed of roses blue and red lie with meWipe my tears and drink of my sarrows While the pain engulfs my heart Oh my angel your light is brilliantCan it take away my painCan it reorder time back to when I felt human again Roses and loneliness Drink deep of my grief Gorge yourself on my darkness and longing Wrap sad wings around me Would you shelter me from the incoming…

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When I was sleeping

I fell asleep today…I Dreamed of you and a boy with your nameDefiantly stating that you shouldn’t be named the same, lest people get confused In reality I didn’t want to think of you when I thought of this boyI did not want him to be confused in my mind with the monster that you could sometimes be.. The boy sang and had a voice like an angelWhen he smiled at me, you looked on with jealousy and…

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Some cheery moments :')

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YOSHIKI for SHOCKwave No.4 (SHOXX) ©

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Made some GIFs from the Bacteria MV, I might make more from this video tbh 👀 🥰🥰🥰

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🦋Hideto Matsumoto (1964-1998)

23 years ago, we have lost this beautiful soul. Rest in peace, you marvelous human. Your presence and charm will never be forgotten. You have inspired so many and helped everyone through your music, we are grateful for everything.

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Have some GIFs from the Pink Spider music video. 💗🕷

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X Japan

Toshi, hide, Pata, Heath and Yoshiki and their animated counterparts from the Rusty Nail music video