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Ennead 3/10/19

r. Jupiter on IC -1*54′ r. Moon on Dsc -4*59′ r. Uranus on MC +5*32′ t. Uranus on Asc -7*37′ r. Neptune on MC -8*49′ t. Pluto, t./r./ Saturn, and r. Mercury background, similar to the Demi-SLR that is about to go live.

This one is mostly my natal planets, with t. Uranus widely squaring r. Neptune in mundo.

Enneads are still mysterious to me - but this one suggests the next 40 days have some of my better traits coming to the fore, most notably faith in myself and elevation from focusing on my roots. In general, I’m more keenly sensitive, connecting better with others due to r. Moon on Dsc (and r. Neptune more widely on MC). My Jupiter-Uranus natal aspect being foreground bodes well for work, as this is an aspect of quick learning (especially technologically), trust in my own creativity, and generally just tending towards success. I would be more worried about Neptune being present, but I’ve found 8* to be a pretty sharp drop in intensity for foreground planets in return charts.

In general, I interpret this as feeling like the better, more liberated parts of myself - a forecast I welcome and hope is right!

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Demi-SLR 3/8/19

r. Venus on WP 0*40′ (precessed, in right ascension) t. Venus on WP 2*08′ (in right ascension) t. Mars on MC -3*51′  Also, t. Saturn conj r. Mercury just about 1*, in the background. I’m not sure how heavily to weigh this at all. Regardless, that transit is impending. Moon, Saturn, Mercury all in the background.

This is much more pleasant to see, and speaks primarily to my opening up emotionally and being well-received (mostly) by others. Connection, friendship, heart-to-heart, with passion and bluntness present throughout. Striving, passionate, energized. Feeling, but not in a Moon sense - emotions I can more easily reach, sharing naturally.

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SLR update 2/15/19

I’m really noticing natal Pluto foreground in this, alongside lots of Venus.

Though I feel welcomed and included by others, internally, I am really feeling the urge to withdraw (which is one of natal Pluto’s hallmarks in any return chart). There’s a feeling of passing through inner development stages, in miniature, that there’s no going back from.

Again, very internal, at present.

Mercury-Venus-Pluto does seem to be a fair combination for driving a long distance, along, away from home, to parties, which is what I did all weekend. That is a very, very good fit. 

But still... I’m wondering what else I’m waiting for. 

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t. Saturn 45 r. Mars - 2/15/19

This transit is exact today.  Typically, I would expect heavy pressure from this - fighting passionately against restraint; heavy odds from without; poor competitive viability.

I’m scared to say this aloud (lol), but I’m not sure where this transit is. 

I’m doing fine at work (presently). 

Granted, this year, these transits do seem to have hit me hardest the day after they were exact, for whatever reason, but I expected something more overt from this.

Reading from my source, Jim E from Solunars.com: “ Potentially high accomplishments, but probably against heavy odds. The fighter in you butts heads with elements of restriction and control, both in your environment and within yourself. Your independent, spirited, creative will seeks to express itself freely and chafes at any bit placed upon it. Clear-headed evaluation works best now. Where blind struggle and impulsive action fail (thus reinforcing a sense of inadequacy), careful planning and realistic appraisal may win the day. Few competitive ventures thrive now, so work should be done for its own sake. Exercise caution regarding physical health and well-being. Endurance is considerable, but psychological pressures and the constant tendency to drive oneself may deplete physical resources. Consideration for others' rights and feelings is vitally important now, and wins you support in your battle with your own personal limits. IN BRIEF: Fighting one's limits. Struggle. Poor for competition. Industrious, accomplishment possible; but against stern odds. Possible injury, confidence loss, sexual barriers. Conflict of wills. “ I think the constant physical driving, plus the noticeable sense of endurance, is more of a thing for me right now.  Fighting my limits, and any concept of control from without, has been a theme since this Saturn Return really got underway, so that’s fair.

Maybe I’m expecting something really pronounced and external, and that’s not always necessary for transits.

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Kinetic Lunar Return 2/23/19

Transiting and progressed planets:

Transiting and natal planets:

r. Mars on IC +1*26′ t. Sun on Dsc -2*44′ --t. Sun 90 r. Mars 1*18′ in mundo t. Neptune on Dsc +7*20′

I did 2 biwheels instead of doing 1 triwheel, which is torture to read. Luckily, the progressed planets have almost nothing to say in this KLR.

This mostly seems to me to be a set of charts showing me being fiercely driven in my interactions with others to accomplish some goal, being fairly reactive, operating from my ego, and potentially with some drama. Energy is quite high, but I probably tend to overdo it and burn myself out. Conflict with others is likely, though it’s less severe than if it were t. Mars in the foreground instead of r. Mars. (t. Mars is actually background in this chart as well.) Seeing all of these charts with t. Mars in the background is comforting, as it has been tough to deal with for the past month or so. Natal and progressed Venus are both in the background.

Still, I’m not sure how much to weigh these charts. I guess I’ll have to watch and see. 

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Sidereal Lunar Return 2/22/19

r. Pluto on MC -1*06′ t. Pluto on Asc +2*56 r. Mercury on Asc +3*22′ --t. Pluto conj r. Mercury 0*26′ in mundo t. Venus on Asc +4*55′ --t. Venus conj t. Pluto 0*51′ ecliptically --t. Venus conj r. Mercury 1*33′ in mundo r. Venus on Asc -5*40′ --r. Venus sqr r. Pluto 4*34′ in mundo t. Saturn on Asc +7*15′ r. Saturn on Asc +9*00′ --t. Saturn conj r. Saturn 2*15′ in mundo, but that shouldn’t be a surprise for the next year or so! t. Mars sqr r. Venus 0*08′

Both Mars are background ~5*-7*

This is a rather dense chart, despite having clear themes that noticeably mirror my Solar Return; even many of the angles the planets are on are the same. 

Venus and Pluto, both transiting and natal, are strongly emphasized - mostly Pluto. This seems to suggest a pronounced feeling of being singled out, with major decisions being required, resulting in equally major life transformation. The context for this seems to be the Venus part of my life - friendship, love, pleasure, peace, and the authentic search for meaning (something often missed about Venus, which I find very descriptive of her nature). I likely feel an undeniable need to communicate something critically important about all of this to the world; this is shown in form by natal Mercury on Asc, and in essence by t. and r. Pluto on Asc and Midheaven respectively. I am changing; something major shifts for me, and I need to declare it, talk about it, be welcomed for it. 

The ongoing Saturn Return themes loom in the background.

The response to the communication is generally favorable (all of the Venus, and t. Venus conjunct r. Mercury specifically). Meanwhile, the emotional part of my sharing it is met with a strong, confrontational response (t. Mars sharply square r. Venus). I’ve had this type of configuration foreground before; this generally manifests for me as “friends being very blunt but pretty engaged with my emotional sharing.” Outside of that, the standard interpretation can be phrased as “trouble with the opposite sex,” pleasant or unpleasant.

This chart kicks off a period of socialization and festivities which also occur during the tail end of Jupiter’s transit to natal Venus. I’m very curious to see how all of these factors interact.

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2/19/19 - Jupiter-Venus, Uranus-SP Sun, etc

I’m past the peak of transiting Jupiter’s first square to natal Venus, and it’s been very pleasant. The weekend leading up to its peak was a breath of fresh air, relief, a natural sense of relaxation, and generally positive and cheerful mood - a pretty stark contrast to the few weeks before it. There’s a sense of undirected (or maybe omni-directed) love that was pronounced around the peak - something I’ve experienced before during very emphasized Venus periods, notably a conjunction between progressed Moon and natal Venus towards the end of 2018. Jupiter 90 Venus is in and out of 1* orb several time this year.

Transiting Uranus’s long square to progressed Sun finally reached exact 2 days ago. I’ve generally found transits to secondary progressed luminaries to be really emphasized around the time they are exact, and to feel significantly weaker outside of that range. In this case, this transit was initially a bit hard to pick out from all of the other Uranus present in my life: a partile semisquare between solar Moon and Uranus in my SSR (and Uranus’s ongoing transit to that now-fixed Moon location), and even Uranus foreground in my Demi-SLR. Even Pluto foreground in the SSR (and in the Ennead) sort of of overwhelmed this particular transit for a while. However, I can now confidently say that the urge to change - the way that I think of myself, my direction, and what I want out of life - is becoming significantly more conscious, a lot more clear, and a lot more sure than it has been ever before. I know much more who I am (and who I’m not), what I want, and what I’m planning to do about it. Surely this is fitting for the context of my Saturn Return as well. (It all has to fit together.)

Saturn entered 1* orb to semisquare natal Mars a few days ago. This one hasn’t been detectable yet, but it portends a seriously uphill struggle. This too is unfortunately in and out of 1* orb nearly all year.

I can’t tell if I’ve gotten used to this current Demi-SLR - with transiting Mars and Uranus along with natal Saturn strongly empasized - but I’ve really balanced out a lot recently (though I have been fairly assertive in general the last 2 weeks - much like I was for the entirety of last year). This is one of those ongoing questions I have regarding these charts - are they just operative continuously, or do they have a “payload to deliver” and once that event happens, they sort of ease off? Perhaps it’s a lack of close attention, but currently, it kind of seems that way.

Or maybe I’m expecting fireworks and in reality, a challenging and surprising environment, one that challenges my sense of control and authority, is enough to fit this chart. (And that’s all been true.)

A new SLR as well as Kinetic Lunar Return (KLR) click into place in a few days. I’ll post those charts and analyze them later.

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Sidereal Demi-Lunar Return 2/9/19

t. Mars on Asc +0*11′ (yes, it’s actually above Asc in prime vertical longitude) r. Saturn on MC -1*00′ --t. Mars 90 r. Saturn 0*49′ t. Uranus on Asc -1*48′ --t. Uranus 90 r. Saturn 0*48′ t. Moon on Asc +1*50′

t. Saturn on MC -3*28′ --t. Saturn 90 t. Uranus 2*40′ r. Neptune on MC +5*03′

Honestly, this lunar return scared me a lot when I saw it, given how intense the past one (which is still active) has been alongside this Ennead. My heart sank. My SLR and Ennead share a lot with this chart - lots of Mars and Saturn presence, this time adding in transiting Moon (but not natal Moon, apparently) and and Uranus, all incredibly close to their angles. 

This chart is aggressive, surprising, explosive, and my natal planets here are Saturn-Neptune (with t. Moon being related) - the weakest area of my personality, or so it feels like. My sense of control, which I fight to exert, is being challenged in all areas, and I feel driven to step up and defend it. I know what t. Mars, especially on Ascendant, feels like, given my SSR last year was driven very much by that planet in that place, alongside involvement from t. Uranus. But the context is very different here - what’s at stake, and how emotionally open I have had to be with all of this.

I have since learned much about how to approach all of this - most importantly, remembering humor, remembering what my goals really are, and being more open to guidance and less prone to acquiesce in my first reaction. But this chart shows an enormous challenge to my resolve.

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Astrological factors 2/10/19: SLR wrap-up, Ennead, transits, etc

My lunar return with just natal Mars foreground has been really profoundly strong - I’ve been unusually fired up, reactive, and generally stressed lately. In fact, it has been so powerful that I think that the Ennead is to blame for some of this.

My currently-active Ennead has transiting Mars foreground alongside t. Pluto, that Saturn-Saturn conjunction, and r. Sun. It has really been a doozy. Others have been confrontational, harsh, and generally distant towards me. As mentioned, I’ve been fired up, feeling the need to be in control of myself, and passionately resisting being under the control of others. Yes, this is part of my SSR, and the Saturn Return itself, and yes, r. Moon foreground on IC in the SLR is a solid hit for “fired up and reactive,” but I can’t help but think that the Ennead summarizes all of this quite pointedly and also does a fantastic job at timing it out.

So I’m left tentatively excited by the Ennead - if you removed it, you could explain everything pretty well with other factors - but it’s just a solid gold chart for what’s been going on. Transiting Mars on MC, plus Saturn-Saturn on Descendant, is amazing symbolism (although you could’ve flipped them between those angles and it would’ve worked quite well too). The real question is - will this continue to be descriptive for another month or so? I think it’s very likely.

Onto transits and progressions:

t. Uranus recently reached exact semisquare to s. Moon - an aspect that was present in the SSR that finally peaked. These vibes have been quite descriptive - restless, being yanked around by the rest of the world, but also being driven to escape from the confines of control, to revitalize my whole way of life.

Secondary progressed Moon trined s.p. Jupiter about a week ago, and during the week last week, t. Jupiter semisquared s.p. Moon. I initially expected these to indicate relief, and they have after a fashion. First, though, they roused up so much emotion. Corresponding with all of the Mars and Pluto symbolism, this was hard-to-bear, explosive emotion, panic attacks, etc. Now, finally, I have settled down into a much greater calm and peace, and I suppose I needed that emotion to come through first.

Aside from that, I have very opposite-feeling transits clicking into place in the next few days: Jupiter squares natal Venus, a transit which I am really looking forward to (and one which comes in and out most of the year), and Saturn semisquares natal Mars, which I can’t say I’m looking forward to, but is also going to be in and out all year.

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Ennead 1/29/19

Enneads are 40-day solar cycles, or 9th harmonic aspects between transiting and natal Sun. (If you look at the above chart, transiting Sun is exactly 40* away from natal Sun - one ninth of a full circle.)

Me paying attention to Enneads is a new development. This is my first one that I will actually be paying attention to. They apparently score well for major events in statistical studies, but I have no idea how to weigh them in relation to the solar return, lunar returns, and major ongoing transits.

This one has a lot to say, in comparison to the lunar return, so I’m going to be paying that much more attention to this. It’s the first one this year, and will be active for more than a full lunar cycle, so there will be at least 3 lunar return charts (lunar-demi-lunar) active while this Ennead is live.

t. Mars on Zenith -0*16′ r. Sun on Westpoint (square MC in longitude 0*41′, in RA 1*15′) r. Mercury on Dsc -1*34′ ---t. Mars 90 r. Mercury 0*03′ t. Pluto on Dsc +1*37′ ---t. Pluto/r. Mercury midpoint is a few minutes away from Dsc t. Saturn on Dsc -4*11′ r. Saturn on Dsc -4*15′ ---Obviously these are conjunct; it’s the Saturn return, and it’s exact in eclipto r. Neptune on Dsc -6*13′ Also, t. Moon 90 r. Mars 0*38′. I have no idea if t. Moon carries as much weight in the Ennead as it does in the SSR, but with t. Mars foreground, I think it’ll be hard to call anyway.

I can’t make extremely strong statements about the intensity here relative to other charts, but here’s what the chart says by itself:

The strongest factors are t. Mars, r. Sun, and the t. Pluto/r.Mercury foreground conjunction (and their midpoint). Driving for accomplishment, pursuing my own goals (and recognition for them) at any cost. Not holding back for others. Ongoing transformation of the way that I mentally frame my relationship to others, as those relationships change and I tend to take firm stances and communicate honestly in those relationships (decisions called due). 

The Saturn Return being foreground is an intensifier for that actual event during these 40 days. My boundaries in relation to others (coworkers, friends, family) get challenged and need to get redefined. Others are perceived as harsh, combative. I have low tolerance for it and will probably lose my cool more than usual.

...In any case, a very interesting chart to watch over the next 40 days!

A new Kinetic Lunar Return (KLR) came in the past 2 days, but it has nothing foreground between natal, progressed, and transiting planets. Fine by me; too much to pay attention to!

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New SLR 1/25/19

Oops! I’m posting this late!

There isn’t much to say about it, actually.

Natal Mars is 2*27′ before IC in mundo. Venus is in the immediate background, as in my natal, along with t. Mercury and Sun, which I would consider pretty minor factors. t. Saturn is square t./r. Moon a bit over 2*. Venus is transiting Venus, and Mars to Mars, within a degree each.

This looks reactive, if anything. Energetic, pushing for progress. Kind of dark, heavy, and harsh if we count Saturn aspecting Moon, but I think that that’s too far out of range to count since Moon isn’t foreground, and with me still being well within the 1* zone in my Saturn return, I don’t think I would notice either way.

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First exact pass of Saturn Return 1/29/19

This was very surprising, actually. The exact moment of the return occurred at work, and I was troubleshooting something with a coworker. If there’s deep symbolism there, I’m not sure.

The real intense impact came after I left work, a few hours after the exact impact. I felt a body high (complete with dry mouth) coming out of nowhere - although “high” isn’t quite the right word; it was more appropriately a “low.” Not negative at all, but I felt very sensitized to my body, and also to the physical things around me and their state.  There was a perception of intense weight, weighing me down. This also was not negative, just intense, dark, slow. I meditated in it. There was a sort of “somber ecstasy” present in it as well.

The time of the exact peak is of less importance, though, than the much larger life events happening around this time.This is properly only the beginning of the peak of the return. It will peak again in retrograde sometime in August, and then go direct and make one final pass a few months later.

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Sidereal Demi-Lunar Return 1/13/19

t. Neptune on IC -4*36′ t. Venus on Asc -6*46′ r. Mars on Asc -5*21′

t. Venus 90 t. Neptune 2*10′ in mundo t. Venus 0 r. Mars 1*25′ in mundo t. Neptune 90 r. Mars 0*45′ in mundo

Also, there’s a transiting Mercury-Saturn conjunction 50′ wide that squares t. Moon around half a degree in mundo. (Moon is square their midpoint within a few minutes... whatever that means.)

Most notably, that impending Saturn Return is within 2* in this chart.

I wouldn’t say this is a particularly pleasant chart, in general. Dramatic, passionate clash of energies, I think. I’m riled up, ready to meet strange, questionable offerings from the world with force and defending myself - whether or not it’s actually necessary.

Mercury-Saturn to Moon suggests work delays, frustrations, being stuck there late, miscommunication, feeling unheard, etc.

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Jupiter transits save the day(s) - 1/9/19 - 1/11/19

As expected (and hoped for), the Jupiter transits to my Solar Return planets saved the day starting right around the middle of this past week.

Got a lot to analyze this time, since I’m doing 3-4 days in a row, but I’ll try to be concise... 1/9/19:

Transits:

t. Jupiter 180 s. Moon, 135 s. Uranus, 90 s. Neptune. The big transit to this SSR cluster that helped turn the week around for me. Not exact yet at that point.

t. Saturn 90 r. Moon, 0 r. Neptune (already past the peak) - I’ve been able to feel this since it hit really hard on 1/8 (a day “late”), but it’s been in a distant second compared to the Jupiter transits.

t. Sun 0 r. Mercury (exact) - Fitting. Very mental day, with an incredibly long and detailed series of dreams that evening. Perhaps the longest dream series I’ve ever experienced. 

t. Venus 0 r. Mars (exact) - You know, I never really know what to make of this transit. The standard interpretation is something along the lines of increased attention to appearance, increased libido, flirtatiousness; this isn’t unfitting in concept, but I also wouldn’t have really noticed much if this transit wasn’t on this list. Perhaps it helped boost my confidence right at the point when I needed it most (and I did feel a sense of relief start in the afternoon of 1/9, around the time this was exact).

t. Mercury 180 r. Jupiter (exact) - Very fitting. Things went well for me at work.

t. Sun 0 s. Asc - A minor transit fitting in alongside the other Sun-related things happening today.

Plus the stuff that I’ve mentioned before that’s slowly nearing exact.

Quotidians:

SNQ Asc 90 r. Mercury - As I bet you could guess, really accurate.

SNQ Asc 90 t. Sun - Fitting. I still have quite a lot of attention on me.

SNQ Asc 90 s.p. Saturn - A leftover from the beginning of the week.

SQ MC 0 r. Mars - Hard to tell, despite the fact that this was exact. I’m a Martial person as it is.

SQ Asc 90 s. Venus - Still on its way out. Meanwhile...

SQ Asc 90 t. Venus - Just entering orb. I’ll take that! I might’ve gotten this mixed up in previous posts, but I don’t think it’ll feel that different, s. versus t. Venus on a Q angle.

1/10/19:

Much the same. I gained a Mars transit to r. Jupiter and Uranus. While my ideas were definitely going over well, I was feeling pressured to produce them. The Jupiter transit to Solar Moon/Uranus/Neptune peaked, and I started feeling really calm, confident, and happy. 

Quotidians essentially the same.

1/11/19:

The key points are the same, though I gained a really nice Venus transit to r. Mercury. Mercury transit to s. Saturn also, which seemed to be more on the “methodical thinking” side, perhaps in deference to the other upbeat major transits.

In the Quotidian department, I gained an SNQ Asc square to t. Pluto, and that SQ Asc square to t. Venus is still nearing exact. (I think it goes exact on a day when I have plans with friends, which is good to see.)

I think I’m beginning to understand how these factors squeeze in together. I’m going to start only posting the major charts, factor analysis for major incidents or unusual days, etc. I’m starting to get repetitive.

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Saturn transit to Moon, a day late - 1/8/19

The big deal today was this transit, and I totally felt it despite it technically peaking yesterday. I think that yesterday was just “about” other stuff than this, and so this side of the transit just wasn’t evident. I’m glad that I knew it was coming, and that lots of Jupiter transits peak later this week; it helped me deal with it and frame it appropriately. 

Other stuff going on:

t. Sun 0 r. Mercury - Just entered orb. Appropriate for this week, I am sure.

t. Mars 90 r. Uranus - Pretty close to exact, actually; I think I was off by a day with this transit in my spreadsheet. We’ll see what this becomes tomorrow, if anything. Feeling a bit more brash.

t. Mercury 0 r. Uranus - Hard to tell. Appropriate, but the week also makes sense without it.

t. Venus 0 r. Mars - Just entered orb. 

There are a bunch of Jupiter transits that are nearing exact, but I can’t really feel any of them yet.

t. Jupiter 180 s. Moon

t. Jupiter 135 s. Uranus

t Jupiter 90 s. Neptune

t. Jupiter 45 s.p. Sun

Quotidians:

SNQ Asc 90 s.p. Saturn - Very fitting, as usual.

SNQ Asc 90 r. Mercury - “Sure.”

SNQ Asc 90 t. Sun - Another marker of increased attention on me from without.

SNQ IC 0 t. Pluto - I’m not sure. I am feel rather “separated” right now. In that sense, Pluto is a very good fit, accenting Saturn.

SQ MC 0 r. Mars - I suppose. I was pretty mentally overloaded today, feeling kind of burnt and frustrated - but that sounds more like Mercury.

SQ MC 0 t. Venus - On its way out. (Unfortunately.)

As a side note... I did peek at my Kinetic Lunar Return (KLR) shortly after it occurred. I was really curious to see if it showed anything different than what was going on in my transits. It totally didn’t. It’s really similar to this SLR and these major Saturn transits. I’ll do an analysis of it before my next cyclic chart comes up (the Demi SLR on 1/13... which I’m also going to peek at. Sorry!).

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First day at new job - 1/7/19

So, in short, my transits look pretty fucking awful for today, but that wasn’t my experience at all. This is a perfect example of transits not being what you’d expect by looking at them ahead of time (although knowing that they were coming really helped me manage the myriad little frustrations and surprises). Transits:

t. Neptune 45 s.p. Sun (exact, for a few days) - This, plus the two following Saturn transits, are the big deals.

t. Saturn 90 r. Moon (exact)

t. Saturn 0 r. Neptune (approaching exact)

t. Venus 45 r. Saturn (exact) - I think this was just a supplement

t. Sun 45 r. Mars (just coming into orb) - I don’t think I’ve seen most of what this has to offer yet, but it’s fair, in a minor way.

Quotidians:

SNQ Asc 90 s.p. Saturn - Just pile on more Saturn!

SNQ IC 0 r. Mercury - Still in orb; that’s fair.

SNQ Asc 90 r. Sun - finally, this one makes sense: attention spotlighted on me on my first day

SQ MC 0 t. Venus - still, not that I mind. This actually peaked in the evening. I was invited to weekend plans, and people today were generally quite friendly. I think this just tinged all of the Saturn stuff.

The big Neptune and Saturn transits, I think, accurately describe both the tone and the extant reality of what’s going on right now, edged by Venus - but again, I didn’t expect such a mature and outward-directed manifestation of all of this.

I’m starting a brand new career. I’m confused, bewildered, excited, kind of scared, modestly overwhelmed, not exactly “insecure” but “not yet secure.” Venus to Saturn is a perfect description of how I felt. I was welcomed, but I found myself much more comfortable just attempting to work on stuff, and had a little bit of a harder time connecting on an emotional level. I felt significantly more reserved than I would have if you had picked a random month last year for this day to happen. Everyone was super nice to me, which shows up in the various Venus things as well (and Sun square a quotidian angle is right too). 

Most importantly, though, this is a huge change in what my present, immediate future, and concept of myself look like, shown by Neptune. I’m not really sure what they look like right now. The original goal - I’ve been working towards this for about 2 years - has become a reality, concretized (even though none of these programs seem to think that is a word), shown by Saturn - but the future is still foggy. I don’t have clear vision into it.

And all of this on the eve (metaphorically) of my Saturn Return. (Does that “R” get capitalized? I still don’t know.)

I can say that this is definitely the most pleasant and progressive manifestation of either Saturn or Neptune that I’ve ever had, by a huge margin. I guess all of these transits are pushed in a very particular direction by that upcoming Saturn Return reflecting what my entire life up to this point has built towards.

Update - Upon deeper reflection, the practical meaning (Saturn) behind my Moon-Neptune natal configuration opened up to me - what it’s been to me for my entire life so far. Not a small matter!

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Saturn comes exact to Moon-Neptune: 1/5/19 - 1/6/19

I was wondering where this transit was, honestly. The past week was so good to me that I couldn’t find anything defining this transit anywhere.

Really starting on 1/4, my body started dragging and I started feeling burnt out (which was reflected in some other factors). On 1/5, this turned into exhaustion, and now finally, on 1/6, this has turned into a really naturally sour mood - just being quite pissy and all of that. I expected depression, but this is more like undirected frustration, wanting to have complete control of my life and the events in it without any surprises, etc.

Anyway, let’s do this in detail:

1/5/19:

Transits:

t. Sun 0 r. Saturn (wee hours of 1/5) - Body drag, kind of sour mood.

(t. Moon to r. Moon, Saturn, Neptune ~1pm thru 7pm on 1/5) - Pretty clear.

(t. Moon 0 s. Saturn ~ 10am) - Also pretty clear.

Quotidians:

SNQ IC 0 s.p Saturn. This too is obvious.

SNQ Asc 90 r. Sun - Not sure what I think about this. I got some attention and was invited to several things I had to turn down due to timing.

SQ MC 0 t. Venus - I think this was reflected in seeing a friend I haven’t seen much of lately while I was out. I think it was mostly dominated by the presence of so much Saturn.

1/6/19:

Transits:

t. Saturn 0 r. Neptune - Pretty clear

t. Mercury 45 r. Pluto - Actually very unsure about this. I just didn’t notice anything. It’s possible this manifested yesterday alongside my communications (deep discussion, saying yes or no to invites, etc).

t. Venus 45 r. Saturn - insecurity themes blending slightly into other, stronger Saturn stuff.

t. Saturn 90 r. Moon - okay, this really peaks around 5am tomorrow, but it’s certainly being felt at full-strength now

(t. Moon 45 s. Mercury, s. Jupiter ~2:45pm) (Not entirely sure. Was casually watching instructive YouTube content during this time while I ate. I guess it’s a fit.)

(t. Moon 90/135/45 s. Uranus, s. Moon, s. Neptune ~11pm) (Not there yet, I don’t know!)

Also:

t. Jupiter just entered 1* orb to solar Moon, Uranus, Neptune, and will peak at the end of next week. I expect to feel like my first week at my new job was a success once it’s over.

t. Neptune is about a day away from exactly semisquare s.p. Sun. I think I understand what this is now - confusion about my direction and identity in the face of a lot of upcoming choices and opportunities that venture into only partially-understood territory.

Quotidians:

SNQ IC 0 r. Mercury - I mean, sure, I guess; logistical & preparatory stuff at home; it was just as good of a hit for Saturday night, being discussion on some deep stuff

Plus the Sun and Venus stuff from yesterday.

I’m going to stop noting all of the Moon transits at this point (and I didn’t note a bunch that came and went while I was sleeping, as usual). They’ve impressed me with their accuracy most of the time, but there are just too many of them, and part of what I’m doing in this project is determining what factors I can safely ignore for the “really important stuff.” I will likely eventually drop quotidians and all of the inner planet transits from my daily routine as well, though they’ve also generally been accurate.

I think that’s all I’ve got to say. The presence of Saturn really piled up for this weekend. In addition to my SLR with prominent natal Saturn, and reasonably prominent Saturn in my SSR, my actual Saturn Return is coming up pretty soon.