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Penelope: Colin Bridgerton would never ever have feelings for me.

Also Penelope: marries Colin within the month.

Lord Debling: 🤡

Colin: ✌️

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Pen struggles to write her first column after her reveal as Lady Whistledown 🪶

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some people were saying they looked sad so heres part 2 thats just a bit sweeter

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I feel like a lot of people dont get that Colin trying to be different is not only about others liking him, it is about him trying to feel less. It is less about convincing others and more about convincing himself.

Violet tells him that she gets why he is doing it. He put on an armour because he felt too much, we have seen it over two seasons. He even goes back to Marina to check on her because he feels guilty and she insults him again, he hurts his own feelings once more. He legit uncovers a whole ass ruby scheme because his brain is constantly picking up on things. He feels so much, we never see Colin just sitting still. And then Pen stops writing to him. He states it outright that he attempted to harden himself because of it. And how do the men in the Ton do this, how has he seen his brothers do it? The same brothers who despite having this rakish behaviour got the woman they wanted or are living carefrew like Benedict? They flirt, they act mysterious, they go to brothels, etc. I get no one wanted to see Colin in that situation but they do make sense. Colin was told the notion of wanting to wait for marriage was childish and nonsensical, it is no mystery why when everyone including Pen who always believed in him leaves him, he does what all men in that time did. And, as we know, it does not work.

LW calling him out in front of everyone is not what bothers him, is that she is right. He is mad that it gets to him, so he goes to the brothel, acts like any other man. Maybe, he thinks, the more I try, the better I will get at it. That is whd there is such a difference between that scene and the mirror scene. In the first scene, it is rough and only physical. That is not Colin, we know this. In the mirror scene, that is him, it means something, it means everything to him.

It is no wonder he spirals after the kiss. He is feeling so much and for the one person he can never hide from, Pen. And then Pen tells him to keep away. He is probably thinking, what an idiot, feeling too much again. Combined with his hero complex, who wants to respect Pen‘s wishes, the man was a mess. So he tries again but now there is not even the fake it til you make it of the first brothel scene.

I get no one wanted to see Colin there but saying it ruins his character because he is being to a brothel or is not a virgin is just wrong. Colin is not a rake, he is not sharing facts about stuff with anyone, not really and he outright says that he hates that men do this instead of holding it sacred as he wants to. He claims he does not see a gentleman among them and he includes himself.

He loses the will to try cause he wants to feel the torture of loving Pen, that is why he even sleeps outside their bedroom while they are arguing. He does not sleep with her because it is sacred to him, sex for Colin is only a joyous thing. All of it is in character so people saying the brothel scenes ruin his season 1 and 2 arc is weird to me. It is a natural progression. He literally explains why he did it. Maybe they could have been shot differently, and I get people dont like seeing sex workers on screen, but yall gotta stop with the modern lense. That thing existed back then, period.

Colin is trying to numb himself but Pen is the key back to the feeling Colin. He might even be mad at her for that during the entrapment comment, he went back to feeling so much and it was all because of her and now there is no turning back again. That is why he tells Eloise that she is lucky she has never been in love because he is so mad at Pen but also loves her. It is a conundrum and it is eating him alive. It is easier to forgive someone you do not love as much.

So yeah my rant here is that, in my opinion and while I skip them, Colin going to a brothel does not ruin anything, it makes sense. It is like the kid in high school who gets recruited by the popular kids and tries to fit in. Only he cant and Colin becomes aware of it even before the kiss. Pen is the key. We all need someone who sees us and Colin only ever wanted to be seen. Pen telling him that she loves his feeling self is the best thing he could have ever heard.

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mermaid polin au that no one asked for

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penelope “if someone hurts my husband i’m burning the world down” bridgerton & colin “if someone hurts my wife im killing everyone in my vicinity then myself” bridgerton

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goodmorning 🌞

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Penelope: You look good in that hoodie.

Colin: You know where else I’d look good?

Penelope, no hesitation: In my bed.

Colin, at the same time: By your side - wait, what?

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Colin is legit the definition of "I can be mad at Penelope but if any of you is mad at Penelope you will have to deal with me" during the whole LW thing. He really meant it when he said that she is his mess.

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happy part-two-iversary 🩵💛💚

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Happy Year Anniversary to watching Polin get married, work through their issues, and having a baby!!!

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Via instagram ryan wheeler

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And happy anniversary to the day my eyes learnt to cry on cue on every single thing about Polin.

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I don't know how ethical it is to attend your crush, but I'd trust Dr. Bun with my life, she must know what she's doing

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We talk about Colin's emotional support curl but what about Penelope's emotional support bosom?

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"I think, in truth, I have been envious of you. Of your success. Of your bravery. And now I simply cannot believe that a woman with such bravery loves me. How lucky I am to stand by your side and soak up even a little bit of your light. If my only purpose in life is to love a woman as great as you then I will be a very fulfilled man, indeed." BRIDGERTON (2020–)

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Luke Newton girlies 🥰 Erika the make up artists did a podcast with Cass Moran for BGT and she said and I quote:

„the minute he walked in in that coat everyone in the make up trailer fell in love with him. He has in the most positive way a cartoon hero face, you can just see him as Clark Kent. His eyebrows are hero eyebrows and his cheekbones, you can cut yourself with them even though they are not too sharp. And his jawline is too die for, yeah, he is just perfect.“

Also his emotional curl was apparently inspired by Gone with the Wind. So there you go, it is not just us who adore him.