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just occurred to us that were on hrt. god is taunting us for our strange fascinations

pine keeps thinking about omorashi. theres so much there that we havent touched and would intersect with a million things we like

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its also such a visceral feeling. we miss doing it to ourself and would probably engage with it more were it not uh. Weird to ask for

pine keeps thinking about omorashi. theres so much there that we havent touched and would intersect with a million things we like

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pine keeps thinking about omorashi. theres so much there that we havent touched and would intersect with a million things we like

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{weirdos on the internet make it seem so much more common of a freak kink than it is}

{wild to think that weve met 0 people willing to interact with nor interested in omorashi}

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{wild to think that weve met 0 people willing to interact with nor interested in omorashi}

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something we would love to engage with more but find it difficult to ask for and even more difficult to maintain the headspace of without help and we cant explain what "help" means

hm. regression

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hm. regression

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--wish i could die recreationally

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--i sure could talk about sending nudes to strangers on the internet out of a desire to be important to someone and how that fucked my brain chemistry permanently but it feels kinda pointless because the end result will be horror and then complacency from the listener

--sometimes i get a little fucked over how much it feels like suffering porn to describe our trauma. i cant really talk about being groomed in a way that doesnt feel like im saying it for someone to gawk or balk at before pretending they didnt learn anything about us

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--sometimes i get a little fucked over how much it feels like suffering porn to describe our trauma. i cant really talk about being groomed in a way that doesnt feel like im saying it for someone to gawk or balk at before pretending they didnt learn anything about us

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for some reason porn bots following this blog in particular almost feels mocking in an indescribable way

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i think it would be nice to not have to know anything anymore

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weird to think that were unsure if we could engage with the sorts of thing that resulted from that healthily. less because we inherently couldnt but more because itd be upsetting for anyone wed engage in it with

sometimes we forget how traumatized we are and then see something that Absolutely shouldnt generate feelings

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as it turns out, being groomed doesnt do normal things to your brain

sometimes we forget how traumatized we are and then see something that Absolutely shouldnt generate feelings

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sometimes we forget how traumatized we are and then see something that Absolutely shouldnt generate feelings

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i am extremely normal (is currently thinking about forms of violence as emotional symbolism, especially murder as love)

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like of course the pain is making us anxious it fucking hurts. thats what being hurt does to your brain

("juice that makes you cum really hard" voice) trauma that makes you really weirdly into being hurt