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Journal 4

I apologize deeply for being gone for so long. I’ve been busy and been dedicating more time to my studies.

I feel I should also share how I deal with the others I study with. its strange knowing my parentage when they all don’t. It’s not hard to guess who the parents are but everyone stares at me oddly when I bring it up. It upsets me, I'm not going to lie, how people try to avoid to talking to me or say I'm “obsessed with my mother.” or the idea of parents and such. I just want to understand her and what had happened. needless to say many people aren’t interested in me, or when they are it’s merely about my apprenticeship.

I do love my apprenticeship how ever. It’s immensely important and everyday I’m grateful that I was chosen to be a priest’s apprentice. there is nothing more I could have every wanted. What better place could I have in the world than spread the word of our Elucidis. It’s the greatest opportunity I could have ever asked for and I cherish it greatly, it’s the most important thing in my life and I must always be responsible for it.

I can’t wait until I complete my training, to be so close to our god. it’s truly a blessing I hope I could fulfill my duty well and make our lord proud.

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Journal 3

Hello there, I’ve returned with an update

I asked my father about my mother and it went... interestingly.

I was helping my father clean out dishes that were used in a sermon, the scent of incense and soap was over powering. I always hated the smell when they mixed. When I asked him about my mother he paused, like it pained him before her kept cleaning ask about the books I read. he never cares about the books I read. I persisted in asking until he eventually seemed to have had enough. he threw down the dish and turned to me and I felt my knuckles grip the sponge until it was white. “Nacht’anazire” he begun in his thick accent. “Your mother had her heart in the right place, kind and gentle. She was an Loir’mor, she broke MY heart. She was sick in the head and rejected our lord always went on with these episodes of hers, she could have hurt you when she stole you away. Your mother lied to everyone, even me, about YOU. A child of this temple. Please never ask of her again, I can’t bear to tell you more.” and that was it. we finished cleaning and he dismissed me early.

I actually remember one of these “episodes” she had begun crying in her room, and hugged me tight, telling me to always stay hidden. Always hide under the bed or in the closet. never to trust the people in the halls. People always bring it up when I'm around, it’s draining at times. But the only reason she was able to care for me was because she had gotten sick, at least she said so. she could be lying about that too.

I don’t like how my father talked about Avisake, I don’t like how she’s talked about but I know they’re all truths, it all makes sense with what I remember.

I can’t help but want to know more, I must know more. I don’t wish to upset my father though. I’ll drop it for as long as I can, maybe there’s someone else here who knew my mother.

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Journal 2

Hello again! I hope it hasn’t been too long.

I have decided to talk about my routine, in case I ever forget it I guess. I guess I do have a bad memory, sometimes i misremember conversations or moments and usually my father, a teacher, or another student has to remind me what happened. it’s strange how real false memories can feel, but it’s all a trick of the mind of course.

so to begin, I wake up in my dorm, I share it with one other from a few of my classes. I get dressed and ready before eating breakfast, possibly the greatest food to ever exist in this seed, I doubt there’s anything better.  then I head to my classes on history, literature, religious studies and so on. They’re interesting classes that I enjoy quite a lot... but the students however leave little to be desired. I’ve known them all since I was a child, I know who liked who, who hated who or what. therefor they all know me, they know my parentage, my mother, my “strange” habits. It’s not a fun experience to say the least. As I was saying, then I head off to join my father for my apprenticeship. I help him set up for sermons, clean the pews and alter, I set the herbs and incense, the candles are my favorite to set up. Then I set up my father’s tools and all he’ll need for the sermon of that day, usually it’s quite small but I must greet all the people who decide to attend. then finally I sit in one of the front pews and watch or follow along until I have to help pass things out to the attendees. Once that is completed I clean up and help my father put everything away. He may answer my questions from before the sermon at this time or we keep talking, I often enjoy these moments because I never get to talk to him outside of them. He said I must keep a clear head and preform my duties as a child of the Purple Rose because it will soon be my duty to be a priest of Elucidis and my peers will have their duties to uphold as well, so he mustn't interfere with me outside of apprenticeships. I applaud his devotion, I'm very proud to call him my father and I hope i can have that same devotion when I become a priest. after all is said and done I have free time I may usually spend up in my dorm reading Eiris books or helping where I can, I know I must indulge myself in my passions every once in a while but I can’t possibly stay still long enough to do so, I need to keep busy and help out where ever I can...

I'm sure my mother would want this, she’d be proud of me right now. I actually want to learn more about her and how she was here. who were her friends, what she liked to do in her spare time. I understand some basic things about her, her memory wasn’t the best and she often acted out, It does happen sometimes I know. I wonder what happened to make her so upset, I wonder if she tried to seek help from those higher than her.  I guess I'll ask my father, he’d surely have to know out of everyone. Yes, that’s what I’ll do, next time I'm in for my apprenticeship I’ll ask him! may  Elucidis bless you all!

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The night is truly beautiful, where you seen nothing yet see all above you at the same time. Incredible, what more can give you such emotions and thrilling vertigo. the night sky will always have my heart. 

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[Untitled, unsung] // Part 27

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[Untitled, unsung] // Part 29

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Journal 1

Hello, everyone! I am Nacht’anazire, child of Purple Rose. I’m extremely excited to start this blog, I’m practically shaking right now. where should I even start...

Well, unlike most children in the Church of the Purple rose I know my parentage, one Magna’voxus and a woman who I call, Nacht’iskae or  Avisake, if gets too confused with my own name.

Magna’voxus is a great priest of the church and I have been lucky enough to follow in his foot steps. under his guidance I am certain I will be a great priest as well, ready to Serve our lord Elucidis and spread his words! It gives me great pride as well as pleasure to be able to spend more time with my father, I hope i make him just as proud one day. oh dear I'm getting off track, anyways. I’m actually starting this blog because of Avisake. She had her own journal and so I’m making my own, to be closer to her in a strange way. I mean, why not? my father says I already look quite a lot like my mother, so I decided it’s probably time to connect more with her where I can. I hope she is doing well in the skies, I wonder which star is her. May God-Emperor Elucidis bless you all!