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"He's mine! You can't take him away! He's mine!" More kicking and now punching.

“.................”

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Puffing his cheeks, he stepped up and kicked the male's shin. "Jerk. I'll never let you take Aine away from me!"

“Like I said, keep dreaming.” 

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“Sorry. I just came home from Europe, Aine...”

He was only able to muster out those words before he collapsed against the bluenet. Overwork and lack of sleep had gotten to him from the sleepless nights he spent away, composing and working. Even only returning back yesterday, he wasn’t able to sleep yet.

He was looking for the Kei Otonami, partner of Aine Kisaragi; the true, aspiring composer he wanted to be.

And he almost found himself again, and the song he wanted to write soon for Aine.

Questions bubbled up each passing moment. The sudden disappearance of the oak-haired male left him wondering if something had happened – certainly something did, but to see him once again gave him solace and he calmed down quite a bit. Nonetheless, there was that moment of doubt.

Had Kei left him without a word? Did anyone know of his partner’s disappearance?

These were only a bit of the many doubts that circulated in his mind the past few months. Halting whatever words were going to slip out of his month, the tired look on his face flipped the words into something else.

“Are.. Are you alright, Kei? You don’t look so well…”

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"Mhm! He said he's gonna wait for new to get big!" His cheeks puffed. "He's mine!"

He would retort to him back ‘over my dead body’ but this was a child he was speaking to- a toddler no less, and that would make him a villain. Wait, why does he feel like he’s being the villain now? He felt like he was being made a fool out of and he should just leave.

“Keep dreaming.”

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"Aine said he's gonna marry me."

“I don’t have time to argue with a child- Wait, marry?”

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Oh look, a toddler is glaring at him over by the door.

“...?”

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It felt wonderful to return back to Japan from traveling abroad in Europe. Months ago, he had left without a word to anyone but Hibiki that he was going overseas to regain his passion as a composer. And yet still, he juggled work on his side despite being on ‘vacation’ to help Hibiki.

The entire trip left him exhausted, and he wasn’t sure how much passion he felt he had regained again, though he was too tired to tell.

Exceptionally tired, he couldn’t hear the voice that called out to him until it was loud enough for him to notice.

“Aine...?”

No good, he was on the verge of passing out the moment he saw blue.

He sees a certain partner of his. And he’s gonna hurry over to him with balled fists. Where the hell has he been!?

“Kei!”

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He suddenly felt a sense of dread and malice directed towards him when he thought about Aine.

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"...! Haru... Haruki-senpai?"

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"….Kei…."

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"This is the place where we wove songs together, Aine. When we weren't exactly adults yet and dreamed of the future." He spoke the last sentence quietly, but loud enough for the other to hear.

"You remember what I used to dream about, don't you, Aine? I always dreamed of being a professional composer like my grandfather. To go by his words and find the best partner to create brilliant music like the world's never seen."

"And you became my partner, Aine. My life changed a lot because of you. I was captivated by the way you sang to the world and saw the quiet kindness who wished everyone happiness. I thought... you were a beautiful person... And the dream you aimed for...I abandoned my own dream to support you. Even after you disappeared."

The oak-haired male took a deep breath, before turning to face his partner with determined eyes. Eyes that were no longer clouded with grief, but a new hope to change himself.

"And I still want to support you, Aine."

"I want to support you because I love you. I loved you since we met. And that's why I need to know... are you still dreaming, Aine?"

The message he had received worried him a bit. For the first time in years, he had returned to campus grounds and not only that, but also to the place he and his partner used to meet regularly when they still attended.

But if he asked to meet here, what could the oak-haired male want to speak to him about?

"This place?.." Of course he did… How would he have even been able to navigate himself here if he hadn’t recalled?

It had been where they’d spent quite a bit of their time studying, making music together.

The bluenet glanced up at the cherry blossom tree that already began to wither it’s petals as seasons changed, a breezing quietly passing through as he nodded in response to the composer’s question.

"I do.. We spent most of our time here together."

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The composer leans down to kiss his partner's forehead gently. He could catch a whiff of the bluenet's light fragrant scent of violets from his silky hair. After pulling away and making himself quickly out of Aine's sight... He flustered inwardly to himself that he dared to do such a thing.

"Can I kiss you?"

Send “Can I kiss you?” to see how my muse responds.

"W-Wha—?! …. I…I-I don’t…. I don’t mind, i-if you do…"

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He felt a sense of relief when the bluenet arrived. It would have wounded his heart more if he hadn't.

He needed to resolve this today before the day after tomorrow. To resolve these feelings that were hounding him and engrave his decision for the future.

It was clear since the day he had met Aine; that the composer knew he was in love with him. Aine was mysterious and distant, yet gentle and cared about others' happiness. He loved him with all his heart and aspired to write the best of music for him only.

Until he disappeared.

It made him realize how unreliable he was, something he had tried to deny and blamed Reiji until he met Ai.

And he realized, he needed to change. Change so he would stop chasing after Aine. Change so that he would move forward.

And walk side-by-side with Aine.

"Do you remember this place, Aine?"

"Did something happen?…"

To: Kei From: Aine Ah.. Alright then. I’ll be there shortly.

Shortly as in about ten minutes passing until he arrived.

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To: Aine From: Kei Please come to the old cherry blossom tree by the schoolyard. The place we used to meet up back then.

"I need to talk to him to make sure."

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ﾗﾌﾞﾚ9♪新刊サンプル || しらたま

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Imagine Aine was under you, naked, squirming, and covered in love bites you gave him. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

IF YOU’RE COOL WITH GETTING A KINDA AWKWARD ASK RIGHT THIS SECOND AND PLAN ON ANSWERING IT IN ALL HONESTY REBLOG THIS PLEASE.

"............"

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