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i will not add eloise bridgerton i will not. i won’t. (im going to)

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when i’ve been gone awhile it is so hard to start writing and talking to people again. who is alive. who want me fr

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hello!!!! my name is gabi, i'm a fresh graduate from college (yay me!) but i'm also currently unemployed with loans + bills i need to pay (not so yay me!) so i'm opening rpc commissions for the time being! i have 3 spots open and the list of things i'm willing to make are:

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dash icons

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psd creation

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thank you for reading this and i hope you have a lovely day!

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challengers spoilers

when art is like im asking that you’ll love me no matter what and tashi says what am i jesus and then art says yeah and then they circle back and she tells him if he doesn’t win, she’ll leave him. the unanswered question. bc actually she will love him no matter what (her face when she goes and sees him sleeping after returning from patrick) but she will put tennis first. but what art and patrick don’t fucking GET is that tennis is a relationship and tashi is putting their stupid ass wasted potential and also their relationship ahead of whatever she feels. because whatever she feels about everything emotional and beyond tennis matters only to art and patrick. she always cares about tennis and them reaching their potential as first competitors and second, as people in a relationship. people painting her as the villain and the only selfish one is so crazy are yall HEARING her

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CHALLENGERS (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino

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@fospherus, jem to tessa: BUT I'M ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU.

the door to her room closed behind her, his door ajar and flooding warm light into the hall. the woman looks down to her feet, face breaking into an unarmed smile, easily allowing herself to be swept away in the current of his charm. " good things, i hope. " jem has a way about him, an ability to needle at the core of one's self. she's seen him use this innate talent, some sort of innermost magic, on everyone she's had the fortune of watching him speak with. he inspires good behavior in the hardest of nuts to crack, his good nature whittling down even the will herondale's of the world. light splashes across his shoulders, backlit and beautiful, the hallway's darkness unable to hide the delicate twist of his facial features. tessa's fingers twitch at her side, eager to make contact. " though, i would imagine i have done enough foolish things since coming to london to sustain days worth of thinking. "

it is easier this way, to distance herself from the weight of her want with humor. there is nothing good she could possibly have to say to him in the dead of night, when insomnia has carved out a space and time for only them. he haunts her thoughts, a silvery specter lingering in the peripheral of her consciousness. she has no choice in the situation. to her dismay, tessa often finds herself turning to tell him things even if he isn't there with her. his smile is the first thing she seeks out in every room, the ring of his laughter a means of orienting her in every situation. she's tempted to confess this, her damning conundrum, to bare herself before him. her tongue to her bottom lip, twisting her hands together. too much time has passed, adding that much more gravity to her admission. " i think of you as well, jem. "

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prompts:　ttpd, the anthology by taylor swift.

your location, you forgot to turn it off.

the only thing that's left is the manuscript, one last souvenir from my trip to your shores

could it be enough to just float in your orbit?

quick, quick, tell me something awful, like you are a poet trapped inside the body of a finance guy.

i just don't understand how you don't miss me.

now and then she rereads the manuscriptof the entire torrid affair.

if you wanna tear my world apart, just say you've always wondered.

if comfort is a construct, i don't believe in good luck.

i move through the world with a broken heart.

they killed cassandra first, 'cause she feared the worst.

don't want money, just someone who wants my company.

say it once again with feeling.

even statues crumble if they're made to wait.

we here-by conduct the post portem.

what doesn't kill you makes you awake.

they tried to warn you about me.

i'm not a doner, but i'd give you my heart if you wanted.

i got cursed like eve got bitten.

i hate it here so i will go to secret gardens in my mind.

i feel so high school every time i look at you.

I look in people's windows like i'm some deranged weirdo.

there wouldn't be this if there hadn't been you.

she wrotе headlines in the local paper, laughing at each baby step i'd take.

one bad seed kills the garden.

when the truth comes out, it's quiet.

you see, i was a debutante in another life.

you have a favorite spot on the swing set.

the empathetic hunger descends.

i'm addicted to the 'if only'.

he said that if the sex was half as good as the conversation was, soon they'd be pushin' strollers. soon it was over.

oh, we must stop meeting like this.

way to go, tiger.

i built a legacy that you can't undo.

you said some things that i can't unabsorb, you turned me into an idea of sorts.

i may never open up the way i did for you.

he was a cad, wanted her bad just like any good trophy hunter.

tell me about the first time you saw me.

they knew, they knew, they knew the whole time.

i don't think you've changed much.

you have no room in your dreams for regrets.

they set my life in flames.

i thought it was just goodbye for now.

i loved you the way that you were.

you're a just ruler covered in mud, you look ridiculous.

i'm there most of the year, 'cause i hate it here.

you saw my bones out with somebody new who seemed like he would've bullied you in school.

how did it end? i can't pretend like i understand.

this place made me feel worthless.

i wanna find you in a crowd, just to hide from you.

quick, quick. tell me something awful.

i won't confess that i waited, but i let the lamp burn.

i can't forgive the way you made me feel.

Buried down deep

out of your reach the secret we all vowed to keep it from you in sweetness.

splendidly selfish, charmingly helpless.

old habits die screaming.

i'm lonely, but i'm good.

in my fantasies, i rise about it.

forgive me, [name], please know that i tried.

if i sell my apartment and you have some kids with an internet starlet. will that make your memory fade from this scarlet maroon?

behind her back, her best mates laughed.

you needed me, but you needed drugs more, and i can't watch it happen.

she's the albatross, she is here to destroy you.

i'll tell you one thing, honey. i can tell when somebody still wants me.

were you makin' fun of me?

nostalgia is a mind's trick.

i read about it in a book when I was a precocious child.

does it feel alright to now know me?

excellent fun 'til you get to know her.

life was always easier on you.

tell me all your secrets, all you'll ever be.

it wasn't a fair fight.

if i die screaming, i hope you hear it.

i can confirm she made a curious child, ever reviled by everyone except her own father.

are you gonna marry, kiss or kill me?

i'm bitter, but i swear i'm fine.

all that time you were throwin' punches, i was buildin' somethin'.

one less temptress, one less dagger to sharpen.

i'm hearing voices like a madman.

you said you were gonna grow up, then you were gonna come find me.

but i can't forget the way you made me heal.

they nicknamed her 'the bolter'.

wise men once said 'wild winds are death to the candle'.

now i wanna sell my house and set fire to all my clothes.

i'm gonna get you back.

push the reset button, we're becomin' something new.

i'm watchin' american pie with you on a saturday night.

i'm an aston martin that you steered straight into the ditch.

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shoutout nora for creating the worlds craziest guy

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            — SOME RANDOM POSTCARD FOUND IN THE GLOWING SEA.

#glowingsea: indie fallout multimuse featuring characters from both the video games and television show. mutuals only, 21+, mature themes. written by sean.

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I watched Lisa Frankenstein 6 times in the last 48 hours. This movie...

Pose ref under cut

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@suhspiria, carmy & sugar: ❛you remember telling me that you thought you were cursed? ❜

" yeah, " a lie, the conversation does not stick out in the flurry of moments between this second and birth, but it sounds like something he would say.   " yeah." carmy’s eyes graze his shoes, half-smile self deprecating down to the last molecule, hand brushing his lower lip only to end up enveloping his face. he always does this shit. says something to somebody about the high speed trainwreck that is his life and regrets it later. " maybe i am. i mean, look at this shit. " the kitchen reeks of something truly fresh, fresh washed greens, and a nauseating splash of bleach. sweat soaks into his shirt, his untamed curls, the back pocket where his phone lives. the air conditioning is busted, and is only a couple thousand more on money poured into this piece of shit, and every inch of the floors are covered in a powdered sugar dusting of asbestos. time is running out, eyes are on the back of his head. (what would mikey say? what would he think? he can't fucking ask, but maybe he never could.) carmy doesn’t have the time or energy or the emotional intelligence to deal with whatever sermon his sister is working towards. his fingers twitch, pavlov’d into longing for a chemical distraction. " you mind if we take this outside? " the chef pats his jeans, front pockets, back pockets, until he finds a worse-for-wear pack. he shows it off to sugar, giving it a shake in his hand, and sticks a cigarette in between his teeth.

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@spacefares, kendall & shiv: ❛you'd abandon your family to ensure your own success.❜

a cruel laugh bubbles out, tasting of mirth and with subtle notes of pity.   ❛❛ oh, ho. really? family? you want to talk to me about family?  ❜❜ shiv rolls her eyes so far back it strains them. her glass is slammed into the table, jacket creeping up her arms at the movement. she knew this was coming, the whinging. the complaining. no one ever forgot their losses as kids, they just stored it away as fuel to win the next game.  

 ❛❛ you---   ❜❜ her index finger jabs out at her brother, every muscle stiff with a righteous anger, only the righteousness is unearned. the woman was aptly named, an object turned knife, shoddily crafted to draw blood. it takes confidence to maim without reason. ❛❛ don't care about family. you just want to win. honestly, it's disgusting. and---  ❜❜ both hands fling out, palms outwards, as if she could push the thought from her.   ❛❛ it's see-through. it's crystal fucking clear.  ❜❜ said like it is the worst thing he could be, because it is. to be predictable. to be understood. roman is a pervert and their dad is an unbreachable dictator and their mother is a horror too awful to be named. no one in their family makes any fucking sense but kendall, and shiv, and their unending trade off between being cat and being mouse. she can't stand him because she knows him. something in her knows they lick their wounds in the same way.   ❛❛ you aren't a tortured genius, or a comeback story, or-or a fucking victim, ken. you're a loser. and a sore one, at that.   ❜❜

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* (  STICK SEASON FOREVER BY NOAH KAHAN /  SENTENCE PROMPTS.

These may have been edited for clarity or length or to better apply for roleplaying.

" how you been? "

" what does it mean? "

" i am stuck between my anger and the blame that i can't face "

" i miss the way you laugh "

" but you know how it gets out here "

" you got all my love "

" if you need me dear, i'm the same as i was "

" it's all okay, there ain't a drop of bad blood "

" i just hope that your scars heal "

" i was scared to death "

" i'll never let you go "

" i don't get much sleep most nights "

" i'm seeing you in every dream "

" i'll love you when the oceans dry "

" i'll love you when the rivers freeze "

" don't you know there's a coffin buried under the garden "

" i'm in the process of clearing out cobwebs "

" someday i'm gonna be somebody people want "

" it's been a long year "

" would we survive in a horror movie? "

" i wanna love you 'till we're food for the worms to eat "

" i know every route in this county "

" i'll tell you where not to speed "

" honey, come over "

" no one will tempt you, we know you got sober "

" it's yours if you want it "

" i've been ready for you to come home "

" i didn't think to ask you where you'd gone "

" why'd you go? "

" i haven't drank in six months on the dot "

" don't you find it strange that you just went ahead and carried on? "

" the last time i drank i was face down passed out there on your lawn "

" are we all just pulling you down? "

" remember telling me that you thought you were cursed? "

" love is fast asleep on a dirt road with your head on my shoulder "

" those things I miss but know are never coming back "

" if i was empty space and you were formless shape we'd fit "

" i'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them "

" i know there are worse ways to stay alive "

" why is pain so damn impatient? "

" the last that i heard you were down in new orleans "

" i worry for you. you worry for me. "

" it's fine if we know we won't change "

" i'm leaving this town "

" i know that you're fearing the end "

" i only tell truth when I'm sure that I'm lying "

" how have you been and are you bored yet? "

" time moves so damn slow "

" i stopped caring about a month ago since then it's been smooth sailing "

" i would leave if only i could find a reason "

" i got dreams but i can't make myself believe them "

" i don't want to say goodbye "

" i'm still here with you "

" for a minute the world seems so simple "

" who was i to watch you wilt? "

" i promise to be there this time "

" i'm naming the stars in the sky after you "

" i'm remembering i promised to forget you now "

" it's all the same, anyways "

" i ain't proud of all the punches that i've thrown "

" i gave your name as my emergency phone call "

" i'd die for you "

" why do you do this to yourself? "

" this place had a heartbeat in its day "

" it just ain't that simple, it never was "

" we'll drink to new year's "

" i'm not ready to let go yet "

" now the weight of the world ain't so bad "

" i saw the end, it looks just like the middle "

" who am I to complain? "

" now the pain's different. it still exists, it just escapes different. "

" don't you cancel any plans "

" all lights turned off can be turned on "

" i'll drive all night "

" don't be discouraged "

" i've been exactly where you are "

" if you could see yourself like this, you'd have never tried it "

" won't you stay with me? "

" i even gave up driving after nightfall "

" i'm ain't angry at you, love "

" i'll be waiting for you "

" we spent so long just getting by "

" i'm not a city girl "

" it still has a lot of meaning to me because i grew up there "

" it's a small community of people that really look out for each other "

" last time i was in the back of a cop car, i fell in love "

" it's all the same anyway "

" let's drive for no reason "

" honey, it's starting to storm "

" i won't be alone for the rest of my life "

" i broke a bone that never healed in my hand "

" so when i hold you close, i might loosen my grip. but i won't ever let you go. "

" but i won't ever let you go "

" remember when we called the cops 'cause you got too high and you got scared? "

" could you imagine that? "

" i'm running out of tears to cry "

" maybe something's changing me "

" you love me and i don't know why "

" i only call you once a week "

" does it bite at your edges? "

" do you lie awake restless? "

" this town's the same as you left it "

" your page was blank, but i read it "

" i stare out that hallowed ocean as if to pick a fight "

" for the dreams my old man dreamt for me, lay on the other side "

" we're overdue for a revival "

" we spent so long just getting by "

" who the hell likes living just to die? "

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the hole.

dialogue prompts from the hole by hye-young pyun.

the real fight starts now.

you are clearly not okay.

i didn't know what to ask.

don't feel embarrassed.

recovery takes a long time.

if there's one thing i hate, it's tales of miraculous recoveries.

how does it feel to be home again?

i'm in no shape to comfort anyone.

my father has a lot, but i'm all my mother has.

i don't mean to poke at old wounds.

i want all the gory details.

i was trying to figure out how to apologize.

you'd abandon your family to ensure your own success.

assholes like you always succeed.

you can't represent the world through maps alone.

at least maps improve with failure.

your forties are well-suited to all manner of sin.

i stopped growing a long time ago.

you know better than anyone what a hack i am.

climbing plants give me the creeps.

you'll never guess who's come to visit.

you always imagine the worst possible circumstances for yourself.

not even you could have guessed.

he's come to pray for you.

i'm sorry i drank it all.

i thought i would feel free, but i don't.

who is this?

i feel removed from the entire world.

only someone like jesus christ himself could do your job.

i'll stay with you, for the time being.

your pledges and promises are useless.

you can't choose cynicism over grief.

you're making me extremely uncomfortable.

were you cussing?

you look good.

do you like being back home?

you look just as tired as me.

there are sides of you that only family can see.

it's like being born all over again.

i wanted you to be surprised.

i've become a laughingstock.

not everyone could do what you did.

misery does love company.

once you experience loss, you find it has a good side.

a dead husband is so much better than a cheating husband.

raised with so much love and care, only to die for no reason.

you act like i'm not even here.

leaning on someone leads to hugging.

when you get old, you don't hold back. you stop watching what you say.

my world was the only one that collapsed.

i'm always thinking about you.

i didn't know you worried about me.

there are things i can only bear because of you.

you can't stay in the house forever.

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added coryo back. everyone fucking behave

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# SORDIDERY. . . a multi-muse blog. private, mutuals only, mid to low activity. expect violent content. uses beta-editor exclusively. by ripley, she/they, 21.

CARRD. MEMES. PINTEREST.

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been on a brief hiatus but im here to say i hate the percy jackson show im so sorry. its my truth