no matter how terrible my day is. i can always end my day in bed imagining fictional characters making out sloppy style and fucking raw. and that's beautiful. there's some good in this world mister frodo and it's worth fighting for
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It puzzles me when people cite LOTR as the standard ofĀ āsimpleā orĀ āpredictableā orĀ āblack and whiteā fantasy. Because in my copy, the hero fails. Frodo chooses the Ring, and itās only Gollumās own desperation for it that inadvertently saves the day. The fate of the world, this whole blood-soaked war, all the millennia-old machinations of elves and gods, comes down to two addicts squabbling over their Precious, and that is precisely and powerfully Tolkienās point.Ā
And then the hero goes home, and finds home a smoking desolation, his neighbors turned on one another, that secondary villain no one finished off having destroyed Frodoās last oasis not even out of evil so much as spite, and then that villain dies pointlessly, and then his killer dies pointlessly. The hero is left not with a cathartic homecoming, the story come full circle in another party; he is left to pick up the pieces of what was and what shall never be again.Ā
And itās not enough. The hero cannot heal, and so departs for the fabled western shores in what remains a blunt and bracing metaphor for death (especially given his aged companions). When Sam tells his family,Ā āWell, Iām backā at the very end, it is an earned triumph, but the very fact that someoneĀ making it back qualifies as a triumph tells you what kind of story this is: one that is too honest to allow its characters to claim a clean victory over entropy, let alone evil.Ā
āI canāt recall the taste of food, nor the sound of water, nor the touch of grass. Iām naked in the dark. Thereās nothingāno veil between me and the wheel of fire. I can see him with my waking eyes.ā
So whereās this silly shallow hippie fever-dream Iāve heard so much about? It sounds like a much lesser story than the one that actually exists.
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START vs END
Happy Birthday, Bilbo and Frodo Baggins!
09.22.17
Please, please do not repost on this site or other sites, print with the intent of profit or distribute these illustrations without the explicit consent of myself, the artist. Wallpaper can be found here and here.
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Nanami <3
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This was truly our jujutsu kaisen
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Overcoming the slightest challenge of my day: āThis is just like the Odyssey.ā
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I am a child
Rain covered highways and smoke filled bars
I allow myself to get lost in their rhythmāentrapped by their familiarity
I am a child
Except that I am not
From infant to adultā I've only known pain and confusion
Things are because they must be
Who am I to deny my purpose?
Dad is inconsistent
Frantic and hazy
The smell of whiskey and bourbon follow himācling to his skin as his harsh words ring in my ears
I have a duty
To him
To my brother
To my mother
One is dead
One is dead inside
One tries so hard to survive me, us
And I?
I've been dead since I was four
Cultivating the perfect mask of swagger and mirth to hide the black hole that rests beneath my chest
I am pain and beauty
He told me I had to so I must
I hate who I am
I despise who he has become
My mother left us in bright orange flames
My soul rests with her remains
I am an adult
I bask in the glow of red traffic lights and for once I am still
I listen to the sounds that allow me to pretend thatājust for a moment
I am a child
4 years old and hugging my mother
Dad smiles at me and we all gaze down upon my brotherābassinet of white lace
I am a child and I am happy
-AM
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From Perdition
Deserving is not a word I ever associated with myself
I begged for a saviorāsobbed for an end
I did not think anyone was listening
I am a manāan instrument of destruction
I've only known wrath, duty, and decay
I was impure and you saved me
I am sin incarnate and you raised me
I push aside the dirt from my grave and I stare at the motionless sky
I am alive
But I don't deserve it
Who are you?
My savior
Who are you to decide I am worthy?
These hands that tortured and maimed now grasp desperately at my body risenāshaking in their disbelief
I am forgiven
-AM
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15 years ago today, my life forever changed for reasons I canāt talk about due to the SAG-AFTRA strike. I donāt miss the squibs or the sparks sizzling in my hair as they rained down on me, but I miss looking into the mirror and seeing that guy looking back.
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so whatd you think šļøšļø
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ppl in the age of cell phones: fucking up their necks
ppl in the age of books: fucking up their necks
ppl in the age of textile art: fucking up their necks
ppl in the age of picking lice: fucking up their necks
ppl in the age of cooking: fucking up their necks
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