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Credit u/Ethan-E2

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What's it called when you feel nostalgic about the present, because you won't get to live it in the future? That feeling when you know you will miss the present..

Yeah well, Bad Batch Eve is giving me that feeling right now :(

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When the Bad Batch first shows up in The Clone Wars, Kix and Jesse are discussing their success rate, and one of them says “it’s not that they win, it’s how they win that concerns me.”

At first I remember thinking he meant they did things that were morally questionable. Very shortly we find out that he actually means they’re fucking crazy

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Honestly iconic

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It took 21 years for this to become a meme. This meme is old enough to drink

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Please tell me no one’s done this yet.

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boy who's never seen a large body of water before + insane force abilities = a very tired obi-wan

(donation doodles! // tip jar)

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COMMANDER WOLFFE apprecieation

S03E07 The Bad Batch

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star wars fans who haven't watched the clone wars (the show) are missing out on a truly astronomical amount of pain and suffering and they should remedy this immediately right now

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I'LL NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT THIS

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but HE STARTED IT!!

...this is PEAK sibling behaviour I am DYING

(and Omega's eyeroll? PERFECTION, NO NOTES)

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I truly cannot do this anymore .

Im writting this here cause I know my loved ones won’t see this here . And because this way what I write Can go unnoticed and just a bump that I’ll probably delete later in an spam account dedicated to Star Wars (one of the most fun spaces in my life ! )

I am in a career I don’t want to be in . And I pursued that instead of what I wanted to do , illustration and music , because I was promised a future that was more financially stable . I could always just use that money to invest in my craft right ?

Wrong . I just got a job that pays a lot more by the hour than my field usually is paying for these days and it ain’t enough to buy stock of my art to go to fairs and markets .

Im also neurodivergent and have paranoid personality disorder so I probably will have to take into account having and paying somebody that I know to be at the fair for me because I cannot go .

And also it wouldn’t be a safe choice either . It would be like throwing my money down the drain . Because my art is failing . Nobody is buying it anymore . And it’s not like I’m starting out , I’ve been at this for like a decade and I did good at one time . It’s just not anymore .

And I feel like I’ve been scammed out of the get go because the life I wanted was never a thing I could’ve thought of reaching . And the secure career is not giving me enough to be happy doing what I truly wanna do .

And I don’t know what to do anymore , I just need help . Any help . Learning resources , community support (I am by myself most of the time because I work from home and I can’t go see my friends at university because I got harassed heavily and I’m scared to go back, and I live two hours away by car from the nearest friend ) (I don’t have a car and I don’t know how to drive ) , craft business advice , what do I do with this . Just anything u have to offer , if somebody is reading this , is more than welcome .

Everything is just so overwhelming . And I was just so attached to my dreams that realizing something inside my brain and the choices I made in the past career wise will hold me back forever is so haunting and devastating .

Im a scientist that doesn’t get paid enough to do something other than research and sleep . I am an artist who cannot go to an art fair or sell her art online or succeed at any project. I am a musician who cannot be near or on a stage . I am worthless .

It sounds stupid and it sounds awful and boring and there are a lot of things happening in the world right now that are way more important than a third world country girl realizing the dreams I wanted were not meant to be achieved by me . But it makes me sad and I’m afraid of talking about this to my loved ones because I know they don’t get it . And I feel even more alone that I am right now .

On a slightly joke-ish note , I feel like that movie where the character played by Paul Dano wanted to fly airplanes and then he learns he cannot because he is colorblind . Only I’m not colorblind , I just can’t be in crowded places without having a panic attack and my social presence is shitty even in the online world .

(Before someone thinks I’m an antisocial and maybe I should touch grass , I have friends and a boyfriend and a caring family , it’s not my choice to not be able to see them . And it’s not like they don’t wanna be with me either it’s just life always gets in the way of me seeing them . )

(So life itself not only takes from me all the dreams I once had , but also heavily isolates myself against my will. And it feels unfair I just want to be happy but it seems like I’m asking for too much )

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Echo watching Hunter and Crosshair fighting

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I’m rlly frustrated bc I’m watching return of the Jedi and I just saw the scene where they’re talking about the sarlacc and I can’t stop thinking abt this one Tumblr post that’s something about how it wouldn’t be for that long bc he’d starve to death and Luke is like “tell him that r2. Tell him that he’s a dumbass r2. Tell him” and I’ve been googling for a billion years but I can’t find it and I rlly wanna find this post so if any of u have it plsssssss add the link and I’d die for u

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Hayden Christensen for EMPIRE magazine (2024)