spacedusts

[spacedusts]

the birthdays calendar is really just a graveyard for all the friendships that have come and gone huh

[spacedusts]

02.01.25 || Happy New Year

Hello friends,

Yesterday and the day before were a bit of a slump, because I wasn't feeling well and got paralysed by fear. If you haven't noticed, anxiety is a huge problem for me (so far as almost losing a whole semester to it in 2022). I want to be proud that I even got this far, but it's hard. For today, I will simply have to ignore the exam and focus on the work.

summarise BauR and PolR

Eigentumsvorbehalt

StrafR

write/ reach 35 pages

All the best

AJ

[spacedusts]

[ 1st january, 2024 • 115/152 days ]

i think i overdid it with the parties/events these last few weeks. i'm beat hahaha,, woke up super late, but i had a great time yesterday

-> AL notes (total: 1h00)

-> journaled

-> checked up on a friend and had a very good conversation with them

[spacedusts]

rainy november mornings spent reading and working on the thesis ☁️☕️

[spacedusts]

🕰️☕️🗃️🖋

[spacedusts]

That desk + classics shelf + first snow combo

[spacedusts]

26.05.24 | Italian villages and favorite books

‘Tis the time of exploring and sightseeing! I’m so thankful to live in a country so rich with hidden but beautiful places to visit, I always have someplace to be when I’m feeling adventurous…

[spacedusts]

answering a couple questions i got on this post since i realized ppl genuinely wanna know:

tl;dr:

israel lets very, very little aid get into gaza. even the UN can't get in as much as they want to. funding individual families, gazan led initiatives, and mutual aid collectives operating out of gaza ensures gazans can provide for themselves and pay for the extremely expensive aid that is available.

with all the civil infrastructure destroyed by israel, the situation on the ground has devolved into unrestricted capitalism, driving up the price of aid (that should be free!). this makes it more urgent for people to have funding for daily survival.

the post linked above has examples of how donating to individual families can help a lot. if you want to help more than one family at a time, there are many gazan-led initiatives focusing on rebuilding their infrastructure and distributing aid fairly that are worth donating to instead of large charities that already get the majority of donations.

as i mentioned in the last post: @/careforgaza on twitter is a nonprofit started by gazans, it's been endorsed by multiple palestinian journalists.

the sameer project is a collective organized by diaspora palestinians offering emergency shelter to gazans.

ele elna elak is a project aiming to bring water, food, shelter, etc. to gazans and has been promoted by bisan owda.

and the municipality of gaza itself is fundraising to rebuild water infrastructure.

all of these organizations are active inside gaza right now and are being run by gazans. if anyone knows of other gazan-led mutual aid projects, nonprofits or charities feel free to link them in the notes! hope this helped!

long answers under the cut!

if you wanna donate to a charity that's absolutely fine, but the thing is most charities (and even the UN!) are unable to make it into gaza in the first place, leaving aid rotting at the egyptian side of the border or subject to israeli settler attacks

not to mention, charities and nonprofits also maintain a paternalistic colonial relationship with the indigenous people they are trying to help, determining what aid they need for them instead of returning power to them and letting them make their own choices

i'm not here to say that one option is better than the other, just that they achieve different things and are equally legitimate. there's an attitude among people who question the legitimacy of these gofundme campaigns that somehow the people promoting them are telling them not to donate to charities. nobody is stopping you from donating to charities. we are just asking that you do not dehumanize the very real gazans in your inbox just because their method of asking for aid is more direct and risky.

unfortunately that's exactly what has happened. because israel destroyed all of gaza's more formalized infrastructure, it seems that organized crime and rampant inflation has taken its place. aid is supposed to be free, but in order to save for evacuation or the cost of living, people have started selling them at an inflated price. and aid that is truly free attracts intense, large crowds that are dangerous to navigate.

this was posted on abc a few days ago

it's pure, unrestrained capitalism. i've had multiple palestinians describe this situation to me confidence. that's why everything's so expensive now. why people have to rent out tiny plots of land for their tents to sit on, why my friend @siraj2024 still has to buy tarps to cover the broken windows of the overpriced bombed out apartment he rented, and why a bag of flour can cost a thousand bucks in the north.

even before israel closed and then bombed the rafah crossing, the egyptian hala travel agency was only allowing people to cross the border if they paid a hefty $5000 USD per adult / $2500 USD per child bribe. it denies doing this, but the hundreds of stories from palestinians say otherwise.

with regard to the economy, here in america we saw something similar happen in the wake of hurricane helene and milton. the podcaster margaret killjoy describes how she saw dual economies rise after asheville was fully cut off from the rest of the country - some people offered each other supplies for free in a sort of mutual aid honor system, and some people required payment when they lent supplies because they themselves needed to buy stuff for their families. these dual economies exist in gaza too. and this means they all still need money to survive.

[spacedusts]

- Thursday, September 5, 2024 -

Feeling thankful for a great day today!

I was a little late to my first class this morning because I overslept, but the day got better very quickly. I went out to lunch with my good friend, and we talked about making some music together :D

The rest of my classes went smoothly, too, and I'm happy to report that my math methods course looks like it's going to be more bearable than I first thought.

So far, so good!

Tomorrow's goals:

Do at least the first problem for my math hw

Do at least one math methods problem

Get a head start on modern physics hw (if it's posted)

No working past 10 pm!

[spacedusts]

08.17.24

mental reset 💖 I just did journaling, a quick catch up with friends, and now I’ll go to the gym before my afternoon meeting. all is good.

[spacedusts]

survived my first year of grad school & I have the photos to prove it 🤞

[spacedusts]

had a little coffee (tea really) date with my friend today in between the running around and it was soooo lovely. how many times do I have to learn the lesson that isolating myself is bad and that being with my friends is the best thing in the world for me. I came home tired and overheated and with a headache but I also felt so light and happy. I need to get drunk soon and declare my love for them in a very dramatic fashion

[spacedusts]

late summer light

[spacedusts]

133 Days of Uni [11/133]

🌞16/08/24🌛

🎧song of the day: Nobody's Soldier - Hozier

The building in front of my house had construction last night so little sleep yet again 🙃. Applied to a couple jobs, I'm really excited about one of them so here's to hoping I at least get an interview.

Finished some notes for one of my classes

Had a meeting with one of my groups

Started a movie report

[spacedusts]

I had a few events today at the school I'll do my teacher training at and while it was A Lot (also bc I have a cold. yay.) it was also really great to meet my co-trainees and the other teachers in a more relaxed setting. I talked to a few of the other teachers, but mostly with my cohort and we seem like a good group! I'm very hopeful and excited for the next 18 months now!!

the monstera picture is from a class trip I co-supervised on monday. it was exhausting (especially in the heat) but a great second to last day at work. currently waiting for my cinnamon swirls to cool so I can pack them for tomorrow's goodbye breakfast with that group

[spacedusts]

19/02/24 || Monday

Posting a day late as usual. I have a quiz on a subject I understand nothing about so that is fun, and it's the worst prof of ours his question paper is literal hell. I am just hoping to get a C in his course and then I'll say goodbye and never look back.

[spacedusts]

🍓⸝⸝˚₊・september

day 3 of 30

TUESDAY, 3RD SEPTEMBER

i wasn't very productive today, but i read a lot and talked to my friends on the phone after a long time. my labs start from tomorrow and i'm a little bit nervous because my class is going to be full of strangers again and i'm so tired of socialising lol. but still looking forward to it :)

🎧: freakin' out on the interstate by briston maroney