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absolutely love the cards that Angela is playing with Tim Minear… she putting pressure on that man on LIVE television, at live events 😭😭 I know he’s mad asf but that’s what he gets for playing in her and Peter’s face! 🤷🏽‍♀️

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I get that it's network tv and they need to keep things moving and keep it fresh but like... I wanted to see Athena grieve. I wanted to see her up for days, unable to sleep. Lashing out at anyone who tried to check on her. I wanted her back at work too soon, throwing herself into unsafe situations, volatile and unstable. I wanted to see her shut down, unwilling to talk to anyone. I wanted her to tell May that she's fine, that she's just focusing on work and moving on, but has dark circles under her eyes because she keeps waking up to reach out to him. I wanted to see her curse him out again and again. I wanted to see her finally accept that he was gone and forgive him at rock bottom. I wanted to see her work through her grief, not pass over it. This should have changed her entire life, not just been bump in the road.

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Now that I have had a day to sit and process the latest episode, I think I understand why Athena chose to send him home to Minnesota to be buried with Marcy, Robbie, and Brooke.

Her decision came from a place of love for Bobby and a degree of selflessness that you'd probably naturally show to your partner if they, too, carried the kind of baggage that Bobby did. In her mind, she was probably thinking that by reuniting him with his kids, she did her small part is lessening the burden he carried in his heart, and sometimes that can offer comfort in the face of overwhelming grief (which she will undoubtedly be experiencing in many shapes and form for a long time to come). So, I get it, I really do.

Am I personally happy about it? No. To me, Bobby and Athena were the last great loves of each other's lives. They found each other after surviving horrible tragedies in their own lives, and their relationship was so full of love and life. So I think they should have been buried side by side in LA, the place where Bobby got a second lease in life. But, I get why he was buried in Minnesota and I've made peace with it.

I am done with the show for good because it no longer really provides comfort, but I am grateful I got to at least go through this whole brainrot — the tremendous love I have for Bobby and Athena, as well as for Peter and Angela — with my friend (whom I dragged into the trenches with that one quintessential Bathena scene, you know the one 😏), and this comfort show, comfort ship, and comfort characters have provided me a distraction every time real life became too difficult to deal with. With Bobby gone, that comfort is also gone, and seeing Athena suffer so much in the aftermath doesn't really bring me any peace.

In another life, maybe Tim Minear would've allowed them to grow old doing laundry and taxes together 💁🏾‍♀️

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I understand the sentiment of taking Bobby back to Minnesota and burying him next to his kids and Marcy, but my heart hurts so bad for Athena right now. This is a woman who already knew she’d never be able to fill the void of his lost family. She knew there would always be a part of him she could never touch, that hoped that as long as she was there and loving him as much as she could; that it would be enough.

I feel like, saying he’s ‘home now’ negates everything they’ve been through together and the love they shared. It feels like they’re saying Athena was just a placeholder on his journey back to his true family. And as a Bathena shipper that really tears my heart to bits.💔💔💔

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sorry for not wanting to watch yet another series where even when the black woman lives she’s still “sacrificial” in her love.

i’ll never believe that anyone should come before one’s own kids.

however,

i feel sorry for season 2 athena who watched her involuntarily-high-on-LSD boyfriend stand on the ledge of a firehouse in hopes to be reunited with his family if he just stepped off and died. i feel sorry that athena offered to shoulder the burden with him.

i feel sorry for season 2 athena who was so excited about may’s homecoming dress but once she realized how uncomfortable her boyfriend was, dialed back because she always cautious of the sensitivity surrounding his lost children.

i feel sorry for season 2 athena who asked bobby to move in to her house because she knew that the idea of another family, an instant family scared him but took that leap of faith anyway.

i feel sorry for season 5 athena who noticed her husband had the weight of the world in his shoulders so she decided to hesitantly offer up the idea for them to take the honeymoon they never had only for him to not say yes.

i feel sorry for season 7 athena who had to hear her husband say in what they both thought were their last minutes together on earth that he never deserved her, but he kept building a life with her anyway.

i feel sorry for season 7 athena who verbally expressed to her husband that she was concerned about his odd behavior and how she continues to fear his actions but stays anyway because she hoped she could love him enough to make him want to stay.

i feel sorry for season 8 athena, clueless to the fact that her husband has been dying for hours, would not have gotten a chance to say goodbye to her husband had his firefighter not called her to walk down that tunnel. i feel sorry that athena begged him to stay with her i feel sorry that athena had to be blindsided then watch him die in agony.

bobby’s mental health struggles over the course of the series are understood and are at zero fault of his. and we know that athena never held that against him. she herself has referred to him as perfect.

it doesn’t make sense that them both being first responders that either would leave the decision of their final resting places up to their significant other. i feel sorry that athena had to carry that burden of looking/thinking of something in the first place.

after 8 seasons of this, we know the seasons (er, episodes) are written in a vacuum. but i do wish if we were doing the whole “full-circle moment” we should’ve never been witness to bobby and athena as not only a couple but THE flagship couple of the series.

season 1 deeply anguished suicidal bobby nash who found a new home at the 118, then curated an A1 firehouse, then eventually went out a valiant hero being shipped back to minnesota to be buried with his family would be beautiful. he could’ve even had a new wife in L.A. who was more of a supporting character and was just an extension of the bobby character. it’s not the best writing to make a woman’s character just about a man but in this scenario it would’ve been palatable.

but that’s not what this series has been. we’ve seen athena pick herself up and put herself back together after divorcing michael. we then learn the backstory of her tragically losing her fiancé in her early-mid 20’s. we see her take leap after leap after leap of faith with bobby, and joyfully so. athena is played by NUMBER ONE on the call sheet. she’s not just a supporting character or an extension of bobby. she’s her own character. her sending him back home doesn’t elicit any positive feelings for me. it makes it feel like athena (and her kids) were just a mere pit stop, a rehabilitation, something to bid his time, until he could get back home to his “real” family. not full-circle at all. something geometric, but i’m not sure what. i don’t know what the proper solution would be as for bobby’s final resting place, and i do wish we never had to find out canonically. but seeing that plane and the headstones did not fill me with peace or closure or any warm and cozy feelings.

if anyone is upset by….*gestures around* all of it that’s totally valid. and if it just specifically the handling of the death and the (lack of) funeral it’s also completely valid and not hysterical at all.

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listen. i know we’re all sad and upset but when can we start talking about how Athena literally served that entire episode??? The outfits??? I was gagged. First the leather jacket in the opening scene and then her trench coat when Hen was at the house and then her actual funeral outfit… absolutely ateeee!!! I just feel like we cannot ignore that, sorry😭🙏🏽

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Honestly i have to give it to 911, i don't think they could fumble that hard if they tried to fumble. They actually managed to ruin all arcs for all characters. Like damn.

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Everytime i look at May and Harry crying while Athena hugs the casket i start to sob, that will forever haunt me, and hate that i'm now questioning the entire point of bathena arc because that is how bad this show fumbled. They makde their two main leads arc and growth completely pointless

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I've never actually gone out of my way to like, actually watch 9-1-1 myself, and thus just about everything I know about the show comes from twitter discourse, gay fanfiction, and random clips and edits that i come across on tiktok, and yet I have decided that ABC desperately needs to let me become the new showrunner, and thus;

Things I would do if I suddenly got to replace Tim Minear as showrunner (even though I'm not 100% sure what exactly his job is past deciding on storylines):

The first episode is the entirety of the opening emergency - doesn't totally matter what specifically it is, but there are actual like serious civilian injury and casualty, Athena and Chim have to work closely together for this one and one of the larger groups of injured civilians is this group of middle schoolers and one of those kids even younger brother. it's the opening of the season so we probably shouldn't do anything too horrific to the kids, but they're hurt and it's just a little too close to being bad for for Athena or Chims comfort. At the end of the day Chim says that he's headed home to hug Jee and the baby, and Athena asks if she'd be welcome to visit as well. there's a scene of chim, Maddie, and Athena hugging jee, then chim goes to take her to bed or smth while Maddie takes Athena to see baby robert in his crib - Athena smiles down at him and says "hi bobby," and for a moment we cut down to her pov over the crib of the baby stirring, but right as his eyes open we hard cut to an overview shot of Bobby nash, alive, waking up on a table, he doesn't look particularly surprised just tired and miserable. and thats how we end the episode 🎉

jee still thinks that baby Robert is her sister. no matter how many times someone tries to correct her, no matter the fact that his name is Robert, she insists that that's her little sister. it's an unending recurring bit through the entire season

there's a whole episode where buck finally just decides to binge watch glee (possibly after getting injured and put on temp leave), and one of the characters thats only in like two episodes of the first season that looks disturbingly similar to chim. like, that's literally him. and buck goes on this whole crazy conspiracy about chim having a secret twin or clone that is also an actor, before chim finally just tells him that he was on the show bc he was friends with someone that worked on it at the time and had extra vacation time and thought "that might be fun" - buck goes slightly crazy at this information

eddie gay realization scene is something silly and dumb. like the thing that finally makes it click in his head is so small and absurd that he starts to think back on all the things that should have tipped him off and goes "Oh my god I'm a fucking idiot" –> it's something silly like,, he watches brokeback mountain for the first time bc buck wanted to see it, and while he's crying at the end he just goes "oh my god I'm gay 😭" and buck goes "what." and he goes "wha? 😥" and doesn't even realise what he'd said - or that he meant it - until like 30 minutes later while buck spirals next to him

Buck actively calls himself bisexual. thats all.

tommy and gerard stay gone, DONT CAAAARE 🙂‍↕️😋

Ravi and Karen mains

a whole plot line about Karen's job - I dunno what specifically about but it be fun and I need it tyvm

more random plot lines that really skirts the line on whether supernatural elements exist or not, for funzies

Ravi centric stories - we learn more about his trauma, his relationships, his parents who are actually cool chill people (to which, the rest of the 118 are like "wtf, why doesn't he get parental issues like the rest of us???")

adhd buck canon 🙂‍↕️

once Bobby finally returns he retires and gets to have nothing but silly background plot lines - i.e. Athena shows him twitter fandom, and now that he has so much time off he gets like Way too into it, Athena thinks it's very fun until she finds out that they've blocked each other on Twitter over ship discourse

an entire episode from Chris's pov - it's majorly shot differently than the rest of the show, and has a different narration style. honestly, after the end of s8 I just think we deserve more of Chris's perspective on everything happening around him, thanks

buddie canon by the middle of the season, I dunno how specifically, but yeah - secret relationship for a few episodes which then leads to;

bottle episode in the firehouse - everyone is violently bored and causing problems about it, theyve even tried saying the q-word but it just wont work, buck and Eddie keep trying to sneak in some alone time but everyone is in such close corters and aware of everyone else that it's fucking hard, finally they get a moment but chim walks in on them and is horrified. they manage to convince him that he needs to keep it secret at least for a little while (they're guilt trippy as fuck, you'd best believe) - he's struggling the entire rest of the episode, and honestly buddies made peace with the fact that everyone's going to find out today anyways, so they're not particularly upset or surprised when he finally blurts it out infront of everyone. everyone else though goes deathly quiet, glancing between chim and buddie, and finally buck goes "... it's really quiet right now." and Then the bell finally rings for the first time in 10 hours

buck and Eddie run into father Brian while they're out (pre buddie canon, me thinks) and Eddie is kinda embarrassed while he tells him that he was totally right and blahblahblah. meanwhile, buck is right beside him about to pop from jealousy at Eddie giving some credit to this guy for his gay realization - even when he realizes he's literally a priest, he cannot stop being weird about it, and Eddie just thinks it's soo funny of him

Maddie becomes an emergency medical director for dispatch: she directs people on what they should do during medical emergencies until help arrives - she kind of already does this, but I think having her take on this particular role would be a good move forward for her character and career

hen, karen, Maddie, Eddie wine nights. they gossip and talk shit and get tipsy. plus Maddie Eddie interactions finally

and probably more things but this is long already and I need to do homework

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Listen. Captain Diaz would be a dangerous thing. That man would entertain Buck's EVERY whim.

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buddie textposts! come and get your buddie textposts in these trying times!!

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You are a villain, but you spend more time fighting other villains than fighting the heroes, since they are a bigger threat to you. Today someone has called you a hero and you are still processing that.

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When Palestinians resist, they're called "terrorists." When Israel kills tens of thousands of civilians, it's dismissed as "just war." But international law, the Geneva Conventions, and the UN are clear: occupied people have the right to resist, even with arms. Occupiers have no right to defend their occupation.

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Listen, I'm both very big on bodily autonomy and personal choices (possibly choice/girlboss feminism pilled a tad, who the fuck knows) and so do whatever the fuck you want - get the procedures you want, use the makeup you want in the way you want, wear what you want, eat what you want, fuck who you want, etc.

But:

a) remember that there are consequences or consistent outcomes based on the choices and what you do

b) don't ever fucking forget that you are influenced and shaped and act in response to (whether in tune with or opposed to) societal and cultural factors

c) at least question those factors and whether what you're doing might not actually be totally your choice but in response to pressures and influences from others

d) many things you can recover from but a lot of medical and health stuff can and will have complications and factor that in before doing anything

e) be fucking careful with your money, your body, and your well-being

also:

f) take anything any ivy leaguer tells you with a whole fucking shaker of kosher salt, especially if they're a fucking social media influencer/content creator

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I still think it’s objectively fucked how the world is built for morning people and if you wake up later than everyone else you’re seen as a malicious aberration of some sort. I am that but it’s not because I wake up at 11 fuck yourself

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God gives his hardest battles (taking decent pet pictures) to his bravest soldiers (people with black cats)

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awake but at what cost @importantcatpics