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i’m just not entirely sure where the burning came from — from firework ashes. from the hands prying mine open. from freezing in the basement. from having air pumped into my dying lungs. from behind the alleyway in front of the broken tv. from gravel roads and hornets nests.

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what will it be, boss? the comfort of misery or the pain of change?

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I'm going to *remembers suicide is often not a desire for death itself but rather an attempt to radically change one's life because the current state of being has become unbearable but the person can't think of any way to change it other than death* kill myself

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i was put on this earth to romanticize things, wear cute clothes, knowing a bunch of weird stuff, being flirty, saying unpleasant things, eating fruit, having great tits and the best taste in music

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shout out to everyone who participated in the january-february mass depressive episode

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lore dropping is kinda crazy because sometimes when I’m mid conversation I realize that actually did happen to me

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lore dropping is kinda crazy because sometimes when I’m mid conversation I realize that actually did happen to me

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I made this and genuinely it’s so me

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growing pains

don't ever look up what your childhood friends are up to now!!!!!!!!!! like girl you're a nuclear safety engineer. i put on matching socks today. we played tag a thousand years ago.

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don't ever look up what your childhood friends are up to now!!!!!!!!!! like girl you're a nuclear safety engineer. i put on matching socks today. we played tag a thousand years ago.

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THIS!!! EXACTLY THIS

it's not that I need a quiet day or a day off exactly; it's that I need a pocket of time that exists entirely outside of linear time as we know it that would allow me to get things done without time passing in the real world, and frankly, I don't think that's too much to ask.

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shoutout to earth tones. shoutout to vegetable soup. shoutout to music drifting in through an open window

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IT WASNT A PHASE!!!!!! IT HASNT EVEN PASSED!!!!

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It's going to get so much better.

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Reaaaally fucked up how you need to do more than one thing a day

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YOU HAVE TO WALK THROUGH THE DOORS YOU BEG TO HAVE OPEN!!!!! THE CHANGE CANNOT HAPPEN SIMPLY BY THE OPPORTUNITY PRESENTING ITSELF!!!! YOU NEED TO BE OPEN TO SEE IT, CHOOSE IT, AND ACTUALLY MOVE!!!!!