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Frank ❤️

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She’s dope...Check her out..JustKila #Soundcloud #StarDust #CosmicVibesForMartians

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Check it out, check it out, check it out...Another one from "Space" by JustKila @fearless_intellectual on IG#InterpretiveArt #ArtistOnTheRise #SupportIsLove #Black #FemaleArtist

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Yooo go check out JustKila @fearless_intellectual on Instagram she has a very unique sound...definitely cosmic vibes. So if you're down for something that doesn't sound like nothing else you've heard I recommend you check her out. #ArtistOnTheRise

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don’t announce things. don’t share your plans. show your progress. prove your growth. let them see your prosperity, not what steps it took to get there.

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A1

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Nabil new new

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Exonerate my existence With purity Streaking before me Dance to my temperament While you hold me Tighten your grip To fix your lips To tell me all things unholy Exaggerate my mind Break me down And expose me To the Vulnerability Left to console me Dive in Moistening my skin With the world’s secretions Begging for forgiveness Lead me not where my Spirit is weakened Dimming false intentions Support me as the lily pad Lift me up When slight instability May fix me to drown Flow along with the songs of the wind Tune into the sultry sound of the underground Avoiding temptations seeking to pull us down Let my mind race with the heartbeat of this river Remove boundaries that Desiccate my fertile loins With timber So that I may fall into the scopes of ember Lord, bless me with Your silent cries Quivering along my body If the angels are watching Keep me full of your Therapy and knowledge. If I fail to call out Keep my whole Stead fast Follow my plunge into this river To remain unharmed To change me from my past Pacing with my head held high The holes in my memory Dissipate like desert illusions Filling the holes in my body With piercings to sustain All that I am to succumb Envy is not within me But sometimes it was the envious who have won. Treat my words like Lace Tasteful Applied on top of my grace Hiding the elegance from my face, Show me There’s more to you than life That every origin embedded Within you Has too endured my strife. Show me the ways in which To be whole. Grace me with a beautiful soul That will dive in too And kiss me.

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Flow

So, my ex hit me right. I haven't been thinking abt December's past at all really and I'm kool with that but this instance all of a sudden instance outta fucking nowhere instance revealed some shit to me. Shit like...do you still care type shit...I realized a lot of my old problems or what have you have only been stored away with a key embedded inside me and I was suffering by allowing it to stay there instead of digging for it. People tell me all the time you're so fuckin sexy Meagan, I want someone like you Meagan, to raise a family with and shit. You're words are so captivating they leave more than a single pair of my lips quivering...and damn...your voice. You see I find it quite entertaining to know all these things about myself and someone still had the audacity to cheat on a nigga. Best believe that was the first and the last as she was the first and not the last for me. Do you see...2 plus 1 could have easily just been 3 but some people don't know how to share...or the other bitch just wasn't worthy and she wasn't. Numbers in my phone said call me when all I saw was don't answer. But that's changed now. My mind and my body and my spirit are open to so much more now. Making love means so much more now. Fucking has become a compulsion...as hypnotic as my strokes over and over and over again. My shit means so much more now. My kisses, the sex appeal in my eyes, the way I'm wanted, the intensity at which I desire. My touch... With our misfortunate ending a blessing and a curse

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December's Past

A blast from my past appeared in my inbox today. My emotions threw me front back side to side. This is not the first time I’ve been this emotionally unstable and implosive but I’m sure it won’t be the last just maybe for awhile. It’s like all the pain I left in a file cabinet stored in the dungeon of my soul’s black bottomless pit resurfaced by one text message and I realized how HURT I still was about everything…my family…her absence..the lack thereof. Honestly I’m tired of people resurfacing in my life as if they damage they’d done before was to be redone. Those around me tell me give them another chance or another shot but how many times do I have to put bandages on the same fucking wounds. I got into it wit my chick that day because she saw what that one text did to me and I was unsure of responding and she didn’t give me advice and I just snapped. Of course I apologized abt an hour later but idk man. I associated you with the words "Love & Spirit". The two things I valued the most in someone...the capability of giving and providing that positivity that was so hard to find. This person that sent me that one text still has a hold on me and I was afraid of realizing what I already knew. I wanted her to move on and let me go like I believed she had. I wanted her to be happy without me like I knew she was. She may say I helped in the process but our current connection makes me feel otherwise. I wanted to yell I hate you but I could never fix my lips to say that to or about her. A part of me still loved her and even more so now I wish I hadn’t. You have a fucking family man go be happy and if I’m so fortunate maybe I’ll fill in these holes just to get a taste of what you’re experiencing. I’m sorry I don’t know how to talk to u anymore. I’m sorry I closed that chapter in the 23rd novel I’ve written but about 4 novels ago. You could never love me the way I love you or need you to so why are u here. I’ve cut off so many thoughts abt you…there was a point where I was crazy in love with you and I think that’s why everything makes me feel the way I do when it comes to you. You could here my love for you in my conversation about you. So let me go man is what I keep thinking but I haven’t even let you go. I remember the time u told me u had first gotten with him and how he made u think of me..young, intriguing conversation, and mature…I never told u I despised u for it only because It was like an unintentional slap the face because u knew how I felt about you. I understood your choice of course and for that I chose to be selfless about the situation and congratulate you. Maaan so many things running through my head that I can’t even pick out the voices individually. You say you want to be a friend to me and someone might tell u that’s great but know that u are the one person that can hurt me the way u do so before you talk to me again make sure it’s better for u to be here than not…Cuz I’m done fighting that war. You could never be the person u were to me but I'm sure you're thinking maybe you can be someone new. I can only let time tell.

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You Belong to the World

I snapped on the homie S today. She post some half naked shit on snapchat and I kno I really shouldn't care but my ass got slightly offended. I told her I didn't feel as special as I did before seeing that shit. Long story short she would send me pics like that and more so when I saw her post it for like 20 other ppl (ppl that are always tryna get at her type people) I felt some kinda way. I told her she belonged to the the world and some other shit. I will admit I was tripping but I also meant what I said. I told her to do her and tht I was just expressing my emotions. She's bipolar (as I might also be) but yeaaa just imagine how that ended. Who knows man she may wanna talk to me after their or she may not...Ima charmer so I'm betting she will but if so it'll have to come from me so I'm also betting she won't. I guess only time will tell.

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Love of my Life

Sup, So I've been avoiding you and I know I have but mainly to keep from being as honest as I'm use to being with you. Sometimes I have my moments where I just wanna tell u everything and sometimes I don't be ready to face my own truths. You know me better than any love I could ever have and I think the fact that u can't reciprocate those feelings and emotions back to me is what I like the most. You just listen. You don't judge me you don't envy me you don't get jealous of me you're just you. So, you deserve more and u deserve for me to give u more and trust...there's soooo much more. Feeling like xoxo Gossip Girl (lol). I been watching that shit too much haha.

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