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29% of Life Expectancy

HI!!! Welcome to my blog! Don’t go away because I know that you can’t guess what am i about to write here~~~ 29% of Life Expectancy HMMM no no its not about a social research or something hard hahahaa

bahasa nya campur saja lah ya karena my english masih belum begitu bagus soooooo bahasa indo nya ku pake juga.

YAK jadi mulai dari life expectancy dulu.. apasih itu?? itu adalah prediksi angka/umur yang dimiliki oleh seseorang yang tinggal di suatu daerah (sumber: wikipedia. iyaiya tau wikipedia gak bisa dijadikan referensi! tapi yang aku paham juga definisi nya itu!) jadi setelah aku searching di google ternyata angka harapan hidup orang Indonesia itu adalahhhhh kurang lebih 69..... jeng jeng.... sumpah ya I thought it was 100! aku pun was was... karena im just turning to 20 about 3 weeks ago! like O M G TIME FLIES SO FAST!? kayak aku baru lulus smp woy kemaren?????? dan sekarang aku sudah kepala dua ;( udah 20 tahun! umur ku udah 29%-nya angka harapan hidup..... DUA PULUH SEMBILAN BESAR LOH. like i may say that hidup aku tinggal 71% lagi T-T itupun kalo sesuai sama angka harapan... KALAU EARLIER?? hah............................

intinya i feel so weird nowadays.... kinda gloomy, sad, confused, etc... I actually had a life crisis when i was 19 aku merasa i dont know myself enough and i just cant find my identity... but right after im turning 20 i kinda understand that in our life we dont find identity, but we make our own character and we just have to accept what we are. BUT there is another problem, now i feel sad because there are so many things that have changed! im missing my childhood. i miss my grandma. i miss my grandpa’s old house. i miss those moment in junior highschool... i even think that i just wanna go back to my mom’s womb....................i know it sounds ridiculous.but i dont think my mental is ready for all of the adults responsibility..... I DONT WANNA BE AN ADULT.

tapi aku masih mau jadi emak-emak! mau banget malah punya anak :( tapi kayak i dont know... im not sure if im good enough. i cant even decide what my dreams are. Well i have some dreams, but i dont know.. whether its only a bullshit and a fantasy. I dont have amazing skills, my communication skill is no good, I hate meeting people. im not a good person... i only have principle. I know its not good to focus only to my flaw.. but those things that i dont have, are those things that people wants in the future. I really want to be the women version of Fahri. Wealthy, kind, a very great moslem, generous, etc. But its just too much for me.. hah... anyway i know i know that I cant be like this.. because i have to be grateful an always try my best. i know. but sometimes my mind just wont help me.. i dont have any idea its like im useless..... GAHHH I HATE IT. i hope i can fix things up and just do well on my life.

thats it for now. bye.

-fk-

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