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as my final act of love, i will randomly burst into tears every time i even breathe a single memory of you.

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If you don't understand why somebody is grieving for so long over something, consider yourself fortunate that you do not understand.

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TAYLOR ZAKHAR PEREZ & NICHOLAS GALITZINE as Alex Claremont-Diaz & Henry Fox in Red, White & Royal Blue (2023)

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and in the next fifty years, you will ache and you will glow. you will fall in love with people who don’t stay and still carry their names like pressed flowers in the folds of your memory. you will eat meals alone and meals with people who make you laugh so hard you forget the sting of silence. there will be mornings you can’t get out of bed and nights where you walk home humming under a sky so wide it forgives you. you’ll cry in public and smile at strangers and sometimes it’ll be the same thing. you’ll hear a song that reminds you of someone you promised you’d never forget and you’ll realize you already have, a little. you’ll outgrow versions of yourself you once thought permanent and mourn them like old friends and still you will keep going. you’ll see sunsets that make your chest tighten. you’ll be held when you least expect it. you’ll feel the cold on your face and remember what it means to be alive. and it won’t always be gentle but it will be yours.

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Red, White & Royal Blue 2023・dir. Matthew Lopez

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that's the great tragedy and gift of living

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RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE 2023・dir. Matthew Lopez

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in the chillest possible way,

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NEW GIRL ( 2011 - 2018 ) ↳ season 1 episode 1

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DUA LIPA at the Schiaparelli Couture Show in Paris

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You know for the first 18-ish years of your life everyone your age is mostly doing the same things and then all of a sudden every year for the rest of your life somebody your age is getting divorced while somebody else just learned what a leaf is and you have no idea what’s going on or what you’re supposed to be doing

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Girlhood is abruptly switching from this to this and then back again

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some days, being brave just means getting up and going through the motions even when you’d rather just not do anything at all. even if you only do it because you have to, i personally still think it’s brave.

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Do you feel forever about him?

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i keep thinking about this: maybe love isn’t a destination or a possession but an influence. a force that changes your shape. that helps you become. and when it’s gone, it doesn’t mean you’ve lost it. it means you’ve absorbed it. the people who leave don’t take it with them. they leave it behind in you.