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steve harrington, bob reynolds and bucky barnes you all mean too much to me please dont die (im being dead serious)

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We have to bring back physical concert tickets I'm so serious

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every day feels like this

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you see this? this spot? right in the middle of my forehead.... fucking shoot me here, right here

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I miss the person I was before watching this season

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two bad bitches at the SAME damn time !!

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I need Carmy to talk to Sydney about Chef David and Donna (on purpose)

Like, not only so she can understand more where all this anxiety and anger come from, but because I don’t think Carmy has ever talked about the abuse he has endured. Even if he decides to speak to a therapist first, I need her to know. Rickie doesn’t know, nor does Nat. God, even Claire didn’t know. Carmy may have confronted Chef David, but he still carries with him the shame many abuse victims feel trapped by, and it’s an obstacle to building genuine connections and seeking help.

I will be genuinely disappointed if they bury this narrative in s4. I think Syd already knows what’s up, from the face she made while Carmy was describing Chef David. She knows he fucking him up. But I need him to tell her, looking at her face, trusting her, apologizing, and accepting her care for him.

Carmy doesn't rely on anybody for the whole of S3, not really, he always has his armor on, and the few moments of vulnerability he has end up pushing more in the chaos direction. Tina, Nat, Richie, all these people he trusted, he is keeping at a distance. He needs to let his guard down. Richie and Nat have to take responsibility. Carmy needs to come back to Syd and speak up, say what she meant to him. Syd also needs to speak up (which we know she will do).

This would allow him to realize he is not alone in his lived experiences. For someone who keeps telling people “you are not alone,” he definitely doesn’t let anybody accompany him where it matters.

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Doctor Who fans rn:

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Love the word "also". I have more things to say

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carmen berzatto + art donaldson + me

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i need these four to become besties or i’ll sue

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Did you really get over it or you dissociated and it now feels to you like it happened to someone else?

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omg YES

I desperately need the creators of The Bear to make a coffee table book full of carmy’s sketches. Like even the ones that didn’t make it onto the screen. I’m willing to pay soooo much for it.

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what will it be, boss? the comfort of misery or the pain of change?