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Failure Recap

So Three years ago my wife and I had more or lost our jobs. I was still employed by my security company, but no post to go to get paid. We both felt a pull to head West. We were married in Vegas and our honeymoon, my birthday and just one other time for fun. We always felt like we were home when we went there for vacation. So we loaded the car with all our clothes some extra items, and our two dogs and started our quest. I have had friends that had just picked up and moved and came out on the positive side. So with little money and a lot of hope we arrived and that was when shit went south fast.

We set up shop off the strip to save money. Mind you this was early July. I found the Company that I was still employed with and the site. I went to see if they needed help. As I was talking with the sire manager he informed me of the things I would need to get to work there. So get this, to work as a security guard I would need to get a Nevada guard card. Would take two to three weeks to get and would cost $230 out of pocket. They would not pay it for me. Also I would have to pay for my own background check at $80 to $130. I never need to any of this at my first site. No card needed to work in my home state. We had no money for any of this. Not to mention the time as money kept getting smaller.

Before we started we felt drown to move here. We spent a lot of time in prayer. Moved all our big items and couch and such into a storage garage at no cost with an attempt to come back for it all at some point. We talked to our pastor and friends asking if they supported us in this venture. 

As I realized that we were starting to drown I had no idea of what to do. Through out my life if I had ever fallen i had people to fall back on that would help me out. this was all gone now. we severed all ties. I had my faith but that was failing too. My wife went as far as to change her religion while we were falling. I would not and will never change. That is in another post out there. We tried to make it and failed at every turn. I truly felt that God had pulled us there. Money ran our and we had no where to go.

I tried something huge with no out. I was all in with no pairs. We trough around options for us to do. ways we could go, but nothing there for us either. Out next trek would be our last as money would totally run out from gas. Wife convinced me to drive back West on a whim. 

I had nothing to go to and no doors that were open. Those people that used to have were gone. I had failed at life. That feeling of complete failure never goes away. Major depression sets in and you feel worthless. 

So that was three years ago. We were able to stay in a few places that some people that my wife reached out to and were able to get jobs again. My wife did well first and has worked steady all this time. The pandemic did not affect us as our fobs worked through it. Some may think that we have recovered, but that one failure has stopped us from trying anything like that again or even close. Even the small things scar us if there is an unknown. 

I have failed at life. We have lived in two different places in these these last three years. My wife has not shared a marriage bed with me in two years. It just makes me feel more like a failure. The dogs love me no matter what but I am a man with some needs that i cant get met. FAILURE AT LIFE.

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Failure at Life

To my followers you have seen my journey about an attempt at a major life change. Those who are new, i will recap to bring you up to speed. 

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Yesterday I started with nothing. By the end of the day I still had most of it left.

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Miserable

After 16 years she says she is miserable. I tried to a good man and an even better husband. There seems to be something missing. Sure I know im not perfect, and I know I made some mistakes along the way, but to just flat say that you are miserable. Can I make it better? Should we just get divorced and cut our losses. I know that at my age starting over is not an option. I would not remarry. We never had children together, so that is not an issue. I just don't see an option that comes out with a win. Can always fall on my religion for answers, but I feel like that's not moving me in any one direction. Today is a day of figuring out where I need to be.

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Sleeping Alone

Many people sleep alone as it is. Some have pets that are allowed to share the bed with them. Others likw in my care hace a special someone to share that space with. However what if every changed and that person no longer sleeping the same bed as you?

Back before the pandemic everything was fine. I slept with my wife and dogs on a nightly basis. Then she got temp laid off. She will return to work but not yet. In this time she decided to make her office. Lived her for a year and now shes doing it. The room is complete.

Now it also serves as a guest room. There is a bed and tv in the room with nice lighting. She has spent more time in that room for the last three months than she spends in any other room. She eats in there, watches tv in there, and now sleeps in there.

She has gone to a point to have the dogs sleep with her. I have no one to be with me at night. I work really early in the morning and never disturbed her while she sleeps, so what the hell is going on?

Is she turned off by me now? is she discusseded by me somehow? Or does she just not care about our marraige and live together. Maybe divorce is the answer. I mean I feel like we already are. What would be the difference?

I know my folloers can not respond to thiis but I do hope that you see my point of view and can send me possitive prayers.

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Love vs Affection

To my readers I am back. I am sorry to have been long for so long and hope to gain back your continued support.

Love is strange a word that gets thrown around a lot without a whole lot of meaning anymore. We say it at the end of a conversation or maybe a letter, but somehow the feeling is lost. You may mean what you are saying but in the reality is it just a way to end it on a somewhat possitive note. I mayself had it said to me and I did not feel the person (my sister) was being real with me. The dictionary says love is an intense feeling of deep affection.

The dictionary says alomst the same thing for affection but I feel their is more to it than that. I believe affection is an act of love filled with emotion. I well know singer once said " I said I loved you, but I never showed you." Kissing, hugging, or just some sort of physical connection is affection. No words need to be said as the action is self explanitory.

Like I have always said, What is understood never needs to be discussed. I believe as a people so hooked into media devices that we are missind the affection that I feel everyone longs for. Love is there but lets not just say the words, lets express them as well. We all want to feel loved not just told.

I hope I hope i have presented a valid point today and will be back soon with another. If you enjoyed this post, please look back at some of my more powerful submissions.

Thanks for reading...

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Without music, life would be a mistake.

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Depression Demon

What is the tell sign of someone attacked by a demon that causes major depression? I have emotional attachments to a few dogs that i have. If they were taken away from me I might do something to harm myself. I understand that have to move in two weeks and a lot of places dont accept dogs. They are small ones. Torn between my needs and what me wife wants.

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Homeless

Yes, I'm back and back to the realm of becoming homeless. Why is it when you rent a house they sobt just let you live. They want to always inspect the house without notice. They also have the option to sell the home outright to someone else. Giving you very little time to find suitable housing. I am married with a child, three small dogs, and a very young cat. Options are not just breaking down my front door. Just want to live free without anyone getting into my business.

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₍₍ (ง ˘ω˘ )ว ⁾⁾₍₍ (ง ˘ω˘ )ว ⁾⁾ We dance better than humans

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There's a man on the wing of this plane

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Cat & Dog Snaps

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No Sesame. All Street. #HappyTimeMuders is coming to theaters this summer.

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