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gonna try to get this blog going again so pls like and/or reblog this post if you'd be interested in interacting with an AZA HOLMES from the novel TURTLES ALL THE WAY DOWN by john green !! I draw from both the book and film for my portrayal and adore this girlie with a passion.

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Turtles All The Way Down (2024)

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ISABELA MERCED as AZA HOLMES TURTLES ALL THE WAY DOWN (2024)

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after rewatching/reading tatwd...I miss this blog. might be time for a triumphant return 🤔

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sorry for being dead on here y'all, I'm gonna get to drafts and stuff soon I prommy

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If Aza was honest, she already wasn't a fan of being in close proximity to strangers. So when the woman and her dog, both caked in mud and grime enter the elevator, she has to do her best to grit her teeth and act normal. She offers her most polite smile towards the other, and tries not to think of all the bacteria fresh dirt and mud can easily be teeming with. She's quickly jolted from her thoughts by the excitable dog, and while he seemed friendly enough, she still can't help but to retreat further back into her own little corner just a little bit in response.

Even still, she tries to keep her expression friendly and neutral. You're fine, she tells herself, taking a deep breath. Soon you'll reach your floor and you'll be fine. Then her thoughts continue to argue: as if it takes that long for something to spread in a small metal box.

She shakes her head, glancing up as the woman speaks, once again loosely snapped from her thoughts. But before she can even truly process the question or respond -- the elevator is creaking and faltering. When it completely comes to a halt, Aza feels the anxiety further building in her chest.

Eyes widen, "you've got to be joking," she mutters. She looks over at the stranger, almost sure her expression is now too panicked to be neutral. "I can handle dogs," she says. "Mostly." She breathes in and out softly, "you don't think it'll take for long for them to fix this...right?"

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Lira trudged toward the elevator with the enthusiasm of someone visiting a dentist—or, in this case, a dealer on the seventh floor of a building that smelled faintly of cabbage and regret. Her fingers clutched the baggie in her pocket like it might make a break for it, and as the elevator groaned open, she muttered, “Get in, Pontus,” to her mud-splattered dog. Inside stood a girl. Nice, normal, clean. Too clean. Like she was just peeled out of her packaging. Lira threw her a quick smile before stepping in and catching her reflection in the scratched elevator walls: stained jacket, muddy boots, and a faint dog-scented aura. Perfect. She scooted to the far corner while Pontus, ever the diplomat, wagged his way toward the girl, tail thumping against the wall. "Pontus, leave her...'scuse me..." the drifter kept murmuring, giving the other another annoyed smile. Her mind wandered inside her pocket, longing for a place to finally smoke her joint for the day. She sighed. Try to be nice! "So, are you afraid of dogs-?" but just as she spoke her last word, a jolt shook the elevator and the lights flickered. Thinking quick, Lira crouched down, grabbing Pontus. The movement kept going fow a few seconds. Then, silence. No movement. Not of the elevator nor its doors. "Fuck..." she stated, making it sound like a fact. "...now I really hope you're not afraid of dogs..."

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HURT / COMFORT : STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings for when your muse needs a little TLC. change & alter as needed.

THE HURT:

“Nah, it’s not that bad. I’ve had worse.”

“I don’t think I can walk that far… or at all.”

“I’m fine. I don’t need your help.”

“Will you stay with me? Just until I fall asleep?”

“I’m sorry, I’m just—I’m just really tired.”

“I don’t need a break. I’m okay.”

“It was my fault. It was all my fault.”

“I think I need help.”

“So, I don’t think I’m dying, or anything, and it’s probably not that serious, but… I’m kinda bleeding. A lot.”

“Is the room spinning right now, or is that just me?”

“No, I’m okay, I just… I hit my head. Really hard. I’ll be okay, just give me a second.”

“I’m not sick! I’m fine!”

“No, I don’t think any of my bones are broken, or anything like that. Just bad bruises.”

“Yeah, but you should see the other guy.”

“I’m fine. This just happens sometimes. It’s normal for me.”

“I’ve got a headache.”

“Seriously, though, I’m fine! Stop making such a big deal out of it!”

“I’ve been taking care of myself for a long time. I don’t need your help, and I definitely don’t need your pity. Fuck off.”

“Please tell me I don’t look as bad as I feel.”

“I think I’m running a fever.”

“So, what’s the prognosis, Doc? Am I gonna live?”

“Stop fussing over me! I’m not a baby!”

“Can I stay with you tonight? I just… really don’t want to be alone right now.”

“No, I-I’m okay. It was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep.”

“I… can’t actually remember the last time I had something to eat.”

“You shouldn’t be here. You’ll get sick, too.”

THE COMFORT:

“Honey, have you been crying? What is it? What’s wrong?”

“I think you’d better take a break.”

“It’s not your fault, sweetheart. You did everything you could.”

“You don’t have to go through this alone. I’m right here for you if you’ll just let me in.”

“There’s nothing wrong with you. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Don’t ever let yourself believe that there is.”

“You really don’t realize just how many people love you, do you?”

“If you’re not going to take care of yourself, at least let me do it for you!”

“I’m sorry. I know it hurts.”

“You’re not alone, baby. You never have been.”

“Let’s get you some food.”

“You’re dead on your feet, poor thing. Come on, you need some sleep.”

“Stay where you are. I’m coming to get you.”

“Tell me where it hurts.”

“How many times have I told you to be more careful?!”

“It’s okay. It’s okay. I’m right here, okay? I’m not gonna leave you. I’m never gonna leave you.”

“Oh, honey, you’re safe now. I promise. I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”

“Go ahead and take a shower. I’ll fix you something to eat.”

“What happened to you, baby?”

“I’ll kill that bastard. I’ll kill him for what he did to you.”

“You look like shit, man.”

“Whoa, whoa, take it easy! You got pretty banged up back there, and you don’t want to go making yourself worse.”

“I’m not trying to baby you. It’s called taking care of my friends.”

“Sweetheart, you’re burning up! Why didn’t you say anything? Why didn’t you tell anyone you were sick?”

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@facepeeled said: ❝ i'm just a crazy bitch. ❞

"I don't know if you've noticed--but I'm not exactly normal either," Aza says. Neither of them were, it was an obvious fact. She knows it's why they've managed to bond, even if they were still very different. Aza was always so stuck in her head, entangled in her thoughts, it felt endless. She could tell Cricket had plenty of her own issues too, things she didn't talk about. So much was said in the unspoken, a fact that rang true for both of them. "Sometimes...I feel crazy too," she says.

She smiles slightly, "but at least we can be crazy together, right?"

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&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

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@thvnkpink said: "If a demon tried to possess me I'd just be like: ok take it from here, good luck man." ( peter, who actually IS possessed by a demon 💀 )

Aza just kind of stares at him for a moment, almost dumbfounded, but then the gears in her brain start turning. "Okay, but like, quick question--" she starts, genuinely curious and a little bit contemplative. "Would the demon have total control over your body and consciousness? Like would you be aware that you're possessed or would it be similar to...I don't know, like being in a coma?" She isn't sure she'd mind a bit of a break herself.

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@silverbullcts said: ❝ i don't care if i kill us both. ❞ (from ginger)

There was a certain recklessness to Ginger that sometimes made Aza nervous. She did like her company, she liked that the other simply never seemed phased by anything, least of all Aza. She'd often felt like she stuck out amongst most people, but if she did, Ginger didn't seem to care.

But then there were times like this, times where there seemed to be a lack of concern for consequences. Aza of all people was nearly always hyper-aware of the consequences. "That's not funny," she says, you could hear the edge to her voice, worry bleeding through. "You don't wanna maybe, I don't know--think this through a little?"

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@bettersue said: ❝ i'm no good even when i'm trying. ❞

It's a sentiment Aza understands deeply, always trying so hard. And yet she so rarely felt like she ever got anything right. She wanted to be present, to exist within the parameters of her own life, but it was just so difficult. How could you ever be good enough for anyone when you couldn't even escape the confinements of your own head? It seemed she messed things up more often than she managed to do anything else. Still, she tried.

She looks at the other, gaze gentle. "I'm sure that's not true," she says softly. She's been told more than enough that sometimes we don't see ourselves clearly, especially the good parts. It was ironic for her of all people to try to pass this sentiment along. "Everyone fails sometimes, maybe even a lot, but it doesn't stop us from trying. You're better when you try, maybe not perfect--sometimes maybe not even good. But better."