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how it feels to simultaneously read my paperback copy of the goldfinch, listen to the secret history audiobook, read the little friend on my ebook, read other donna tartt's stories (and badly print them out for me to daily look at), watch her interviews, save related pins on pinterest, write analysis on tgf and make playlists with music mentioned in tgf

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Fuck you Henry for saying Bunny was upset simply because he felt left out. I do think that was part of it (and Henry does know Bunny best), but really?? Henry, you can’t fathom that he might have something against murder morally?? At least not a little??

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Richard in California, trying too hard to be angsty in his journal: This place smells of rotting fruit I hate it I hate it someone get me out of here. Richard in Vermont, overtaken by the picturesque: The college was beautiful and the dorm was beautiful and the green lawn was SO beautiful and I loved the sweet scent of the rotting apples on the ground that was the best of all actually.

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tsh actor au where they’re filming shots of richard walking in the snow but he keeps slipping in the artificial snow material like that one benedict cumberbatch blooper

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I think he did save me, though. And someplace, if there is a place where lists are kept, and credit given,I am sure there is a gold star by his name. But I am getting sentimental. Sometimes, when I think about these things, I do.

-richard papen talking about henry winter <3

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I need everyone to know that while reading the secret history I’ve been imagining Bunny like this

This is how he looks in my minds eye and I will not be taking criticism

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i got a part time job at a grocery store and one thing that was so incredibly funny to me was when i was organising the cigarettes behind the counter and i saw the lucky strikes. my tsh fried brain went ‘oooh the secret history…’ and then saw that they were the cheapest cigarettes we sold. mr pretentious smoking them made me chuckle a little

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a secret history rant about Richard's mentality:

Richard hates anyone that is LIKE the Greek class, that thinks similarly or says similar things. We see this in Judy Poovey when she talks about Henry being so violent, because "when uptight people like that get mad, they get really mad." which is a summarised idea of Julian's earlier lecture. Another example is Richard's ex Kathy, who he thought to be a "brooding malcontent like myself" but found she only had "banal sorrows". He doesn't like Judy nor Kathy, even though they essentialy have the right ideas. One could say that he's mysogynistic (which he is) or that Judy's and Kathy's thoughts lack nuance and depth (maybe, who am i to fully trust Richard), however let me argue, ok?

I think this is connected to Richard's college transfer and to his lies about his childhood. He talks about how his medical classes were littered with dead animals, with flesh and blood and so on, so forth. He hated these and ended up in the Greek class, which is (from what we read) much about the same: beauty is terror, the four madnesses, all the descriptions of war and violence. Only this time, it's disconnected from reality. They only talk about it. Julian says it himself "are you ready to enter the sublime?". And I think that's why Richard so hates Judy and Kathy, and partly Bunny, and so adores the Greek class. The Greeks are something above this world, something not rooted in reality, something in the sublime. They don't do basic human things, they are all somehow live in a different realm. And Richard, who CRAVES escapism, as we know from the beggining, when he talks about his childhood, is attracted to them for this quality. But Judy, Kathy, and partly Bunny, are more connected to the real world, which Richard has intertwined with his childhood, with the life he hated, because it was so simple and real.

Thank you for coming to my ted tsh talk

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"Is this a the secret history refrence?" Everything is a TSH refrence of you're insane enough

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rereading the secret history is realising it's literally a comedy of errors disguised as a literary masterpiece. richard, oh my god you're such a snotty wannabe bastard. if he was a real person and i ever got the chance to meet him id have bullied him so badly 😭

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i was so fucking salty. yes, richard! give me absolutely fracking nothing.

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henry doesnt google. he consults an obscure 14th-century manuscript no ones heard of and then judges you for not doing the same.

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Why does she look like she's about to get scolded here

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Every time I see Get Lost by The Magnetic Fields I can't help but see the Greek class... it's too perfect

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Me when my friends say I'm too obsessed with the secret history but it's better to know one book intimately than a hundred superficially

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henry spent the majority of his time in high school hiding from the basketball coach who kept trying to make him join the team for his height

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me for the past 2 weeks