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Well I had another dream. This time I was in a town similar to Idyllwild. I was with this one guy and he was a bigger guy like a bear. He was sweet and wanted to get to know me more. He was in Cs friend group. I saw him there and he saw me talking to the guy. The guy we'll just call him bear. He was super persistent and at one point I was just trying to get away from him. He got mad that I kept glancing at C and C was looking at me. So he strommed off. I was sitting on the ground nexr to his other friend. I said "I guess I still need a tour guide." I was hoping c would say something but his other punk friend did. "I could take you." (We'll call him travis) "oh?" "Yea no biggie" he was hella cute too. "Okay" then I remember us walking around the town and c following. Then he got me alone and said "so you followed me here huh?" "What? As if. No I didn't even know you would be here. I just came up here on vacation to get away from the world and get back to nature." -continues to stare at me- "what?" "Did you dress up for me too?" -I blush- "no I just wanted to look good." ..."Well you do look good." Then I woke up.

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Ksenija (@curly.perkele)

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Need someone to be obsessed with me and kiss the ground I walk on so I can give them everything in return

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I just miss having someone to talk to. I miss the connection that a relationship has. I used to talk to someone throughout the day. I haven't had that in years. I miss having a best friend like that.

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i love the sound of heavy rain and thunder on a dark night. i find it so peaceful

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Virginia Woolf, A Writer’s Diary, August 1921

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Well fuck I had a dream about him again. My ex that I didn't have enough flings with. Well call him C for this.I don't remember all of the dream but some of it. I'm not sure if he was married still or separated in the dream. It seems like he was separated. His kid seemed like 8 or 9. And mine would be a teen. They were on a bus together, idk why. But I remember seeing him with his best friend saying goodbye to his kid when I was doing the same with mine. He noticed me and sorta ran into me. I said, oof, excuse me. I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention" then I looked up into his pools of blue ocean eyes staring into me. My eyes went wide. "Hi loser, been a long time" (he said hi loser because that's the last interacting I had with him) "Hi C , I didn't know you would be here, yea it's been a while. How are you?" His friends seemed to be more impatient. He waved them off. He held up his left hand to reveal no ring. "I've been better" "oh I'm sorry" "it wasn't your fault things just kinda fell apart. And you?" I held up my left hand reveling no ring, "still just me 😅" he looks up and his friends are starting to leave. "Hey I gotta go but before I do you gotta phone" "uh sure -hands him cell phone-" -he types in his info, looks up and smirks- "text me later today okay?" "..okay" "see ya later" -runs to catch up either friends- "see ya" ... "what just happened? Should I tell veronica? Hm no I'll just see what happens I guess" -goes to car-

Cs POV

I was dropping my kid off for this field trip thing since it was my time to have her and I see this mom in the crowd. She seems familiar... just a little different maybe because of time. I'm wracking my brain trying to figure out who it is. Someone from my past maybe? I snap put of my thoughts when my shin was in pain. My kid kicked me into reality. " daddddd, you're not even listening! Stop looking at that lady" -A looks at the lady- "hm sorry boo, dad kinda thought he knew her..." I smile down at her, and give her a hug. -A looks up at me and continues to talk- "She's a parent, I think the boys name is J. She's silly. Sometimes she goes on the trips with us. Umm her name issss Ms L!"

Then it hit me. L. I was with her before my ex. Woah.. she looks good. I wonder if she remembers me. -All the memories of her flood back- she was so shy and wow..

I said bye to A and they all went on the bus. I walked over to her and she wasn't paying attention so I kinda walked into her on purpose. She was looking down profusely apologizing. When will this girl look at me? ... then she looked up, our eyes met. ...coffee stained eyes... puddles of espresso. In that moment I wish we spend more time together. "Hi loser, been a long time" her expression changed so much in a matter of seconds. "Hi C, I didn't know you would be here, yea it has been a while. How are you?" I looked up to see Jes and the rest impatient. I waved them away. Then I held up my left hand to show her me and my ex weren't married anymore. "I've been better" "oh im sorry" she responded so fast. "It wasn't your fault things just kinda fell apart and you?" She held up the same hand and it was bare. "still just me ^^; " I smiled at her awkwardness. I looked up and saw Jes and them getting peeved and leaving me. "Hey I gotta go but before I do you gotta phone?" "uh sure" -she hands me her cell- I began to enter my info, I put my name in with a black heart beside it. _i smirk and hand back the phone- "text me later okay?" "..okay" "see ya later" -I run to catch up with the guys-

"You shitheads think you can leave me?" Jes looks behind then at me .."who was that? ...you finally gonna see someone after her? It took you long enough" "actually Jes she's a ghost from the past... remember L the goth girl with the glasses? " Jes stared at me .." I think so.. no" "It docent matter you can't remember shit anyway." "fuck off!, she's hot though ... a milf too" The other agreed. " well this time I'm saying fuck it so I'll be MIA later."

My POV

After errands I decided to text him.

L: Hey it's L

C: Hey cutie

L: so I know this happened ages ago but I just want to say that I didn't mean to upset you the last time we spoke. I kinda knew M and I wanted to know where you guys met and if you were serious so I could back off. I didn't want to get in the way if you found your person. I just think it got misunderstood.

C: that's the past. It's fine. We have a beautiful girl together and a civil separation. That's it. We just co parent now. Ao you seeing anyone?

L: atm not really

C: Do you want to?

L: like get caught up?

C: yea. Want to hang later before the monsters return?

L: okay

C: btw you boy is huge now.

L: yea he likes to remind me of him not being a kid anymore.

C: haha well let's met up at __ place and __ time

L: okay see you there :)

C: 🖤

- end text-

Some time later we meet up.

(The details were fuzzy here ... I have to skip to the last part. )

We were chatting for a while then he moves closer and I just let my guard down. I wrap my arms around his neck and his wraps his arms around my waist. He pulls me close and kisses me passionately and slowly. Jes and the boys were at the top of the hill seeing everything. Waiting for C to be done and for him to pick up A from the bus. When we kiss I felt like I was 21 again ... I was melting I felt high.

The bus pulled up. We slowly pulled apart. Look into each others eyes and breathe. "we better go get them before they see"

"yea" he says back. I walk down to the bus smiling all the way..blushing ... We get our kids and then I woke up.

I really hate dreams.

While writing I had The Used Album In Love and Death ❤️ playing

Another Album that reminds me of him is Pierce the Veils Misadventures ❤️

and another song is Damn Girl by The All American Rejects.

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to love someone is firstly to confess: i'm prepared to be devastated by you.

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: ̗̀➛ uni is starting again, so here's a little more “motivational” moodboard for all of us struggling students <3

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GILMORE GIRLS (2000-2007) I 4.14

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I can’t wait for autumn!

PSA: These pictures do not belong to me!

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💗📑STUDY LIKE YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER💗📃

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