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[spookydamaen]

Well, hell...

I'm trying to not be disappointed that I'm not starting off strong with WW since it was a bit of an impulsive decision I made last night. I still have a ton of food at home that needs to be eaten before I can really engulf myself into the ZeroPoint foods, which is A LOT now compared to how it was years, if not about a decade ago when I last tried it.

I'm going to try to be smart about it and pair up the high point meals like Indonesian rendang. I love that dish and I make it frequently. I'll have to reduce the amount of rice I use and try some other ZeroPoint foods.

Though I'm disappointed I already used up a lot of points today and it's still the AM, I am happy that I joined WW and I look forward to reaping the benefits once I can truly focus my new meal ideas.

[spookydamaen]

Joined Weight Watchers

In all honesty, trying to lose weight on my own isn't easy or productive because I have a lot of vices and I'm fighting against myself.

Clearly the algorithms knew of my struggles so after seeing an ad for Weight Watchers (WW) I decided to join again. I'm not doing the in-person meetings, which for me is great because, let's be honest, I hate people for the most part :D

I'm excited to try this new resource and see how I do in the first month :)

Start weight: 214.2 lbs.

Let us begin.

[spookydamaen]

As I get older, my laziness is becoming more difficult to fight against. Physical movement is not the enemy, but it definitely doesn't feel like a friend to my body.

For the last couple of decades I've tried to lose weight, but I think the problem is that I don't establish a foundation to build from. Why now? Why is this something important to me? These are questions I need to ask myself.

One thing I know for sure, is that I need to enjoy the journey and love myself through the whole process. Looking back at photos where I'm thinner, "healthier," I remember not liking myself and criticizing how I look instead of enjoying the process and appreciating my successes.

1. Why do I want to lose weight?

I want movement to become easier. I want to fit back into my clothes. I want to be able to sit in my bed without feeling like a stuffed sausage.

2. What are my specific goals?

Move. It doesn't matter what it is, just move thy body! Another goal is to pay attention to my body when I eat and to not overeat.

3. How do I define success?

Increase of my energy levels and the ease of movement.

4. Am I ready to make lifestyle changes?

If I don't do this now then when? I'm tired of my weight always holding me back and me not putting in the effort to make any type of significant change. So far my mindset this year is focused on just doing something even if it's just for 10 minutes and I have been successful thus far. I just need to keep doing it.

5. What obstacles might I face, and how can I overcome them?

My laziness might win as I've already been fighting it. I tell myself just 3 minutes of doing something and usually by then I want to keep going. So hopefully that will continue to work out. The other obstacle is comparing myself to others. In terms of how to overcome it, I'm doing a whole "peace of mind" type of new year's resolution that involves a lot of mindfulness, gratitudes, meditations, etc. So I think as I continue with that practice, it will help me overcome toxic comparisons.

6. What habits or behaviors need to change?

I am still working on establishing a morning and night routine, which I think will help me build healthy habits and behaviors. I am also putting effort to do long walks at work when I have someone else to walk with. I started off at only .25 miles and just today I did almost 1.5 miles!

Another habit is my eating. I want to avoid eating before going to bed as I have a terrible habit of eating a full meal before going to sleep. I bought bananas and bok choy to snack on in the evenings when hunger strikes again. Or, at least what I think I think is hunger.

7. How will I track my progress?

The plan is to use this blog to track my progress, but as far as specific numbers I'll be using Fitbit.

8. How will I celebrate milestones?

I don't want food to be the only type of celebration so perhaps mini trips! Something to pamper myself for the hard work I've put into myself.

So, let us begin.