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Going to preface this with a trigger warning for spiders.

So I have been absolutely terrified of spiders my whole life. Like, can't even look at where one once was without getting immediately anxious and feeling ill. Because of complicated reasons I'll not get into, I currently sleep in a shed in my parents garden. Have done for 5 years. As I'm sure you can imagine, I get a lot of spiders in there. But somehow my broken brain has figured, because Crowley would probably tease me for being afraid of them that they're silly to be afraid of. And so, I'm happy to announce that after 30 years of life on planet Earth, I just removed a spider the size of my hand (alive) from about 6 inches above where I lay my head to sleep, to the outdoors, without a care in the world. So I guess in a very weird way, thank you.

P. S. Aren't brains marvellous things?

They are. My small son is not scared at all of spiders. I have low-key arachnophobia. When we were last in Florida we went behind the scenes at Gatorland and Ash, delighted, got to have a tarantula walk on his hands. And then, politely, they asked me if I would like to hold the tarantula too. And I realised I couldn’t say no to something my seven year old son had just done. So I said yes. And enjoyed it. Brains are wonderful.

I do worry about you sleeping in the shed, though.

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Do you like cheese?

Too much. Yes.

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my aunt gave me a snack bar when i had a long train ride home, and she pressed it into my hands and said “i spent ages finding one dairy free, now you won’t be hungry”.

I think about this often. this is love too.

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One way or another, I will survive this book.

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look at you, you're gorgeous!

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I think being in love is sort of like slowly falling asleep and closing your eyes and suddenly they’re just everywhere, like breathing, and you’re running and you’re free, and everything falls into place and suddenly your lungs are full of oxygen and your feet are at one with the Earth, and you understand everything every love song has been about.