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mutuals what do u smell like

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unfortunately i could never be nonchalant because i am not well in the head and also my soul is on fire

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i just know when you wear shorts around the house, shouto's hands are magnetized to your bare thighs. you'll be making a quick dinner over the stove and he will immediately velcro himself to your back, taking great big appreciative handfuls of you & kneading you like a cat

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i am dumber & smarter than u think. do not estimate me

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SOS WE HAVE A CLEAR SCAN I'M LOSING MY MIND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY HANDS OR MY FACE I'M LOSING MY MINDDDDD LOOK AT HIM—

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the way i have been so inactive …. i miss da dash

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texting deku while he’s like doing an overnight shift that i’m gonna take a 2am stroll alone in the city and then silencing my notifs

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athletic trainer and godzilla fan iwaizumi hajime !!

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im going insane here but kirishima with his resting bitch face gf who turns into the cutest little doll when he’s around :( ‘let me fix your shirt for you’ ‘here, let me top up your lip gloss’ ‘want me to feed you baby? yeah, of course you do’ and it’s soo embarrassing for you because you usually like to do everything yourself, you hate being talked down to, hate to be babied but kirishima spoils you sososo much and you just let him. cause he’s kirishima and he’s the only one who’s a sturdy enough presence in your life to rein you in.

‘just let me do it for you baby, i know you want to be taken care of.’ UGH

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oliver aiku who is so desperately into you he's been unable to get it up for his other other fuck buddies and is just. so. massively upset about it. he needs to make it your problem too, especially because all there is to your dynamic is a stupid game of cat and mouse he's been unable to win so far. he shows up at your door, annoyed, irritated, aching. when his irrational rants ends, you finally kiss him for the first time and he gets so hard it hurts

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getting head from toji would be really overwhelming if you’ve never been eaten out before or nobody’s ever done it properly… like he is fully sucking on it like a grown man would and it’s not for the faint of heart

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blocked someone for having "strong opinions" on how much they hate tofu . she isnt a joke to me thats my fucking wife youre talking about

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”his hair” ”his tits” ”his capacity for manipulation” the people have lied to you. the sexiest thing about suguru geto is he will look at your face and know exactly what you’re feeling even when everyone else gets it wrong. he will see your tense jaw and furrowed brows and know it’s not anger but fatigue. and trust that he WILL take you home from that social function

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roommate!suna jerks off to your secret burner account where you just post complaints about him.

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in which mattsun's your childhood best friend.

and iwaizumi's your high school crush who came into your life when you were a teenager.

(a teenager on the cusp of the confusing, uncomfortable jealousy when your best friend suddenly started talking to girls in your class that weren't you.)

matsukawa was your first kiss when you were thirteen, in a wholly innocent, curious sort of way.

(but it still makes you feel smug when you see him kissing a girl up against her locker. even if it shouldn't. even if you don't understand why you feel that way in the first place. why it matters.)

you're seventeen and on the way home from a party in the backseat of mattsun's car when you have your second kiss. iwaizumi's mouth brushes against your lips. it's warm and his hands are gentle as he cups your cheek. you unintentionally meet issei's gaze in the rearview mirror.

(issei knows about your crush.)

you and iwaizumi don't talk about that kiss for a while.

and then you're eighteen and you graduate and matsukawa and hanamaki fuck off backpacking somewhere for the summer. and oikawa's visiting family. and it's just you and iwaizumi.

you kiss again. you kiss a lot until kissing isn't enough. you spend the summer tangled between his sheets. he's your first. and you're not sure what it says about you, that you briefly think about matsukawa afterward.

and it's great—until it's not.

until hajime leaves for california.

until the long distance thing hurts more with each week, every month, each year.

until he breaks your heart because it's what's best for you.

and matsukawa's left to pick up the pieces.

you're twenty-one when issei really kisses you for the first time. and it's all-consuming, the thing that yawns awake inside of you. the part of you that’s always loved him more than a best friend should (but you’re both drunk and issei has a girlfriend and it fucking hurts realizing how bad you want this how bad you want him how many years you've wasted—)

it’s bad timing—the way hajime comes home for the holidays. the way you’re feeling lonely enough to invite him over for dinner. the way he’s hugging you and pressing a kiss to your forehead when matsukawa lets himself into your apartment with take out food (you haven’t talked in nearly two weeks after making out and dry humping on his couch) (you don't know yet that he broke up with his girlfriend after—)

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“do you like pretending i'm him?” 

it’s a little cruel, the way matsukawa says it as he thrusts into you from behind.

(it's a mess, these tangled places where the pieces of you and issei fit together. all the parts of himself he's not ready to give you. the jagged, uneven gaps hajime left behind.)

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accepting that you’re objectively weird & owning it is infinitely better than being constantly desperate to appear normal to people who don’t even matter to you

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brand new sideblog! @ofmicendmen

anyone is free to follow !! i’ll be writing for the pitt, call of duty & dc over there, but probably more once i get up and running ! rbs appreciated <3