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❛  i’m not quite sure what it means to mourn.  /  art by yoshitaka amano.

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* character headcanons

clothing style.

before - bed routine. 

eating habits.

concept of home and family. 

hobbies. 

fighting style.

what calms your muse down after a bad day?

talk about one person your muse loves.

ways your muse says i love you.

describe your muse’s laugh. 

what items can be found in your muse’s pockets? 

talk about your muse’s most prized possession(s).

describe your muse’s walk. 

talk about your muse’s accent.

describe your muse’s smile. 

how often does your muse get sick?

does your muse know when to rest, or do they push themselves?

does your muse snore? sleeptalk? sleepwalk?

the thing(s) your muse thinks about before falling asleep.

is your muse a fitful or a quiet sleeper?

your muse’s thoughts on cops and other authority figures.

skills and special talents. 

disabilities or illnesses. 

habits and mannerisms.

introvert or extrovert.

religious or non - religious.

verbal or non - verbal communication.

something your muse could never forgive.

something that makes your muse smile.

something that scares your muse.

something that gives your muse hope.

how your muse responds to being helped / taken care of.

how your muse responds to unconditional love.

how your muse responds to danger.

how your muse responds to stress.  

how your muse responds to anger.

did your muse grow up too fast?

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@squcll​ // ”Can I trust you?”            

Tsk, tsk, tsk…

“Come now, Squall… You already know the answer to that question…” It’s been a while since they’ve squared off one another. They were overdue for a spar, truly. Where one might’ve been met with intimidation, Seifer welcomed the challenge– resting Hyperion’s length on his shoulder as agile feet pace in a half-crescent around his rival.

Gripping the hilt, Seifer‘s moving into position–  “Now you wanna stand here and chit-chat or are you makin’ the first move?”

     ... as grudging as he initially is to consider it: seifer’s got a point. it is kind of a redundant question, after so many years spent  passively  monitoring one another’s behaviours.  (   i’ve got things to do. things far more important than ... )  his thoughts say one thing,  &  his body another. hit with a familiar  ITCH, squall’s body betrays him;  one step ahead of his ordinarily practical brain, it wills him to lift revolver and take a defensive stance.

    “ too coward to strike first ? ”  he taunts, a subtle lull in the tone of his voice. it’s something uncommon, bordering on playful. or, well ... by his own, comparative standards.

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tacticalgunner‌:

@squcll​ said  ❝ i can’t feel nothing at all . ❞

          “ I never said anything like that, you know … “ 

talk about assumptions  –  as if he’d ask anyone to do something even he wouldn’t or couldn’t rightfully do himself under certain circumstances. naturally, this didn’t include the occasional thing or two on expertise but that’s neither here nor there. the point is that laguna wouldn’t expect anyone to suck up their feelings into a vacuum and let them sit there. “ Don’t worry, okay? It’s not like that at all … I guess the wording was bad … “  with a small sigh, laguna stands up straight instead of sitting on the edge of his desk with a forward slouch.

now that he’s upright, he puts his hands on his own hips. “ What I meant to say was:  You shouldn’t put your feelings on the back burner. You get real put out if you do things like that. “ there’s a nod of his head as he knocks around his words on what to say next. it’s with a hum that he continues. “ Yeah, that’s it. You lose a lot of steam when you’ve got too much on your mind .. or something like that. It’s better to let things happen and feel what you feel so you aren’t trying to figure it all out later. “ there’s another nod that follows before he crosses his arms. it’s like he’s trying so hard not to say more than he has to but being a man that loves to give his helpful opinion … turns out it’s extremely difficult to shut up. 

          “ Does that make more sense? … if it does, then you can just take it or leave it. I’m … “ not your dad, he was about to say before the realization that the estrangement is already as terrible as it can possibly be … there’s a weird second pause in between when he finally finds a word to substitute his previous response. “ .. not your boss. “

    from the very moment the president rose to his feet, squall’s posture crumpled forward subtly with dread. ordinarily he would’ve kept to himself;  refrained from even letting a conversation like this stem from  HIS OWN  words, but as laguna talks  &  talks about feelings, or perhaps more-so ... his very own repression of them, squall comes to the wordless conclusion that it’s too late. it’s naturally preferable to believe the words  don’t faze  him but...

    it’s difficult to shake the awkward tension. maybe it’s because most people around him retort to comments like that with full intent to tease him, or maybe it’s because he never really  LETS  words like those slip to begin with. (  —— not my ... )  what a pain.  “ ... that’s right, ”  he starts. starts, and isn’t sure  how to  finish. he tries to shake it;  the unspoken words,  &  the unfamiliar, uncomfortable feeling swirling about in his gut.

    squall does consider that there is  SOME  truth to his rambling, but addressing that is a whole other story. besides ...  “ i’m too busy. ”   —— and what he doesn’t consider, is that it shows. his uniform might be tidy, but the bags under his eyes are dark and unmistakable.  ( keeping busy is more productive than letting myself... feel what i feel.  whatever that means. )  pondering on it wouldn’t do him any good, anyway ... right ?  not him or garden.

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…feeling like your chest is going to burn out from longing.

Arkady Martine, from “All The Colors You Thought Were Kings,” c. 2016 (via violentwavesofemotion)

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K N I G H T S

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‘ rule of rose ’ memes.  |  @instructortrepe​ asked  “ I’m fine; really. I’m not upset at all. ” 

    “ ... ”  once again, he finds himself at a loss. with his newfound position, squall assumed that others would come  TO RELY  upon him;  for better or for worse, that’s just the way of things now. even so ...  ( this isn’t what i signed up for ... )  the many mountains of paperwork  &  the most gruesome of battles couldn’t ever have  PREPARED  him for something as daunting as providing unwarranted emotional support. 

    —— at least, not when he’s only just coming to grips with his own feelings. somehow, it’s all the more worse that he can recognise  she isn’t  telling the truth. idly interlacing his fingers, squall looks over to her a moment.  ( if quistis wants to talk about her feelings so bad ...  she’ll say so. right ? )  addressing her words with a shrug, he decides, “ If you say so. ”

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‘ rule of rose ’ memes.  |  @sunny-explosions​ asked  “ We’re still friends, aren’t we ? ”

    ... friends ? figures, he supposes, that selphie would be the one confident enough to ask him something like that; something so indifferent to his  INFAMOUS,  standoffish approach toward emotional confrontation. but how is he ... supposed to respond ?  her happy-go-lucky attitude  &  clumsy behaviours might  CLASH  with his own from time to time, but to assume he would think her anything less than a friend is, well ...

    with a passive shrug, he peers to the side of her. it’s times like this squall  ALMOST  wishes he inherited some emotional know-how.  ( this really isn’t my strong suit ... )  it takes him a moment, lips curved into something thoughtful  &  demeanour characteristically unreadable. no minor slip-up is going to frustrate him into saying anything else.  “  of course we are. ”

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lines taken from various characters and events found in  punchline’s  game  ,  rule of rose  ( 2006 ) .  feel free to change pronouns   ( he , she , they , i , etc )   &  tenses as you feel necessary .

“ it wasn’t me  ,  honest ! ”

“ i’ll never let myself be tied up again ”

“ only you greeted me warmly ”

“ i’ll never break a promise again ”

“ what has happened can never be undone ”

“ you don’t deserve to be forgotten ”

“ i never want to lose you again ”

“ you’re filthy ! ”

“ she follows me everywhere  ;  it’s pathetic ”

“ you deserve to be gobbled up ”

“ get lost before i smack you ”

“ it was your fault that i got into trouble ! ”

“ let’s have a little talk ”

“ i’ll never get along with her ”

“ i know what you’re doing ”

“ she was writing you a love letter ”

“ have you found what you’re looking for ? ”

“ please lead us ”

“ i won’t lose to you ”

“ i didn’t want to do that  ,  i was just so scared ”

“ we’re still friends  ,  aren’t we ? ”

“ we make a great team ”

“ we have to pray from a distance ”

“ you don’t suspect me of stealing it  ,  do you ? ”

“ i’m fine  ,  really  ;  i’m not upset at all ”

“ it’s too late now ”

“ we need you  ,  we don’t know what to do ! ”

“ oh  ,  why can’t they all just go to hell ? ”

“ you will be duly punished ”

“ how very delightful life is ”

“ i don’t want to touch him ”

“ why does it have to be you ? ”

“ i’ll do anything for you ”

“ let’s run away together ”

“ this is your life  ,  but you’ll play by my rules ”

“ there are really only two kinds of people in the world  :  those who take orders  ,  and those who give them ”

“ no one wants to be alone ”

“ where are you going ? ”

“ please don’t leave me ”

“ who wants to be buried alive ? ”

“ today is the day of your funeral ”

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Make Me Choose @spathicbastard asked: Squall Leonhart or Cloud Strife?

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I say, you do have a heart!’ ‘Sometimes,’ he replied. ‘When I have the time.

Jules Verne, Around the World in Eighty Days (via wordsnquotes)

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   ✦    END    OF    THE    F***ING   WORLD    PROMPTS    !

S1 : E1  /   Episode   One  .

“  i was eight when i realized i didn’t have a sense of humor.  ”

“  i always wanted to punch my dad in the face.  ”

“  after that, i killed more animals and i remember every single one. ”

“  school was beneath me.  ”

“  i had a plan, i was going to kill something bigger. much bigger.  ”

“  seen you skating, you’re pretty shit. ”

“  i haven’t seen my dad since i was eight.  ”

“  i understand actually, i don’t trust people who fit in.  ”

“  is this from you? what the fuck? i’m here. i’m literally here. ”

“  i’m not saying he’s the answer but he’s something. ”

“  i thought she could be interesting to kill. ”

“  i pretended to fall in love with her. ”

“  i haven’t got a phone, i smashed it. ”

“  i knew that people in love went out on dates.  ”

“  i think we live in the most boring town on the planet. ”

“  they have money so they feel safe.  ”

“  why do you live in such a weird house? ”

“  this is pretty retro. ”

“  i actually masturbated once a week for medical purposes. ”

“  maybe i’m gay. maybe he’s asexual. we do have a really board spectrum these days. ”

“  you’re dad’s a prick. ”

“  have you ever eaten a pussy before?  ”

S1 : E2  /   Episode   Two  .

“  things didn’t always entirely go as planned.  ”

“  do you think it’s going to explode?  ”

“  this isn’t a film. if this was a film, we’d probably be american. ”

“  i kept wondering what sort of sound she’d make when i killed her.  ”

“  guess what freedom smells like? cow shit.  ”

“  we can literally do anything. anything we want. ”

“  ironically, i was not in my element.  ”

“  sometimes i look at him and wonder, are you a bit dead?  ”

“  put your tongue in my ear. ”

“  how long until your dad calls the police? ”

“  he’s a prick and everything but he’s pretty optimistic. ”

“  i like food.  ”

“  did you bring money with you?  ”

“  what are we going to do?  ”

“  i had her right where i wanted her. ”

“  we should have sex.  ”

“  why are you laughing?  ”

“  what should we do? do you want to go to home? ”

“  i don’t want to go to home. ”

“  why do you think of something for once? ”

“  i couldn’t of done it there, the car would link me to the crime. ”

“  why is no one stopping?   ”

S1 : E3  /   Episode   Three  .

“  sometimes [ name ] feels like a boy/girl i could love.  ”

“  that’s a lot of cash.  ”

“  we could get a train to your dad’s. ”

“  why are you so obsessed with my dad?  ”

“  is breaking and entering the best way of laying low?  ”

“  whatever. it’s fucking weird, having a photo of yourself. ”

“  i sometimes wonder if i should just become an alcoholic.  ”

“  i’m just to think of what adults do in situations like this.  ”

“  well, that wasn’t as shit as i expected. ”

“  how’d you know how to cook? ”

“  we should do the washing up. ”

“  some people get embarrassed dancing, i don’t. ”

“  i get embarrassed talking, well, when i’ve realized i said something stupid.  ”

“  we should do this naked.  ”

“  as a rule, i didn’t dance but it was hard to say no to [ name ]. ”

“  hey, close your eyes. close your eyes, i promise i won’t look.  ”

“  i think he is properly beautiful. ”

“  whoever says all boys are obsessed with sex hasn’t met [ name ].  ”

“  i really hope i’m not bad at this. ”

“  i thought you said that you wanted me. ”

“  i tended to not feel things, for a long time i was good at it. ”

“  you look better in person.  ”

S1 : E4  /   Episode   Four  .

“  isn’t it a bit fucked up wearing his clothes?  ”

“  i think the fucked up bit was murdering him?  ”

“  should we go to the police? it was self defense. ”

“  we need to get rid of the body.  ”

“  [ name ] was weirdly calm.  ”

“  dead people are heavier than alive people. i read that. ”

“  we need to clean up. we need to get rid of any trace of us.  ”

“  no one can know that we’ve been here, okay.  ”

“  take your shoes off and clean up that blood. ”

“  i don’t know if this is the right thing to be doing. ”

“  i just think about what the people on tv do when they’ve done this. ”

“  if we can’t get rid of him, we have to get rid of us. ”

“  i figured if i just did what i was told then everything would be okay.  ”

“  it wasn’t how i thought it would be. not at all.  ”

“  what the fuck is he doing? ”

“  what have you done?  ”

“  okay, put those around him and then let’s get out of here. ”

“  keep it together. keep it together. ”

“  we learned much later that we really messed up. ”

“  that was the beginning of something. something massive and awful. ”

“  why didn’t you burn your jacket? ”

“  i think there’s something wrong with him. ”

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the man with the machine gun // final fantasy viii {composed by nobuo uematsu}

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duelbreak:

       Zell waits several seconds before taking his hand back. No, he wasn’t expecting Squall to take it. He never had before; so why would now be different? Of course before, it was always Zell knocking at his door, offering companionship, friendship - something. Now it was Squall. Don’t find Zell rude when he has a hard time understanding why.

….. Maybe Zell is bitter. Insecure. Whatever.

He licks his lips that suddenly feel try, crossing one leg over the other lazily and one hand resting on his hip as he waits for his Commander to speak.

      “What, is this about those missions I couldn’t go on? Told you I had a 24 hour bug. Man, you got me worried like it was something serious.” He exhales, his stance relaxing. “Didn’t think you’d mind some peace to yourself since that’s kind’a your whole thing.”

    ‘ ...like it was something serious ? ’  if it wasn’t anything serious, squall considers, zell would have no reason to lie to his face. on the off-chance he really did just have a 24 hour bug... then something else must have happened, since then. he is acutely  AWARE  of his lack of eloquence concerning anything... well, personal.  (  squall thinks himself many things, but ignorant is not  &  never has been one of them. not when he can help it, at least.  )  to always have zell pushing;  breaking down all those walls he’s spent years constructing about himself...

    now that he’s stopped, something feels amiss. his gaze remains fixed upon zell;  cold, but not unfamiliar. professionally masked,  &  he can only hope his  ‘ unprofessional ’  concern doesn’t shine through that facade  SO EASILY.  squall considers his words, at the very least.  ‘ peace to myself...  that’s not the point. ’   the point is...  “ you’re sure that’s all there is to it ? ”  it isn’t as though he can;  well, should try and force it from him. but... this lack of understanding brings about an unpleasantly familiar helplessness. god, he wants to help.

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reaches over and pinches his cheek, smiling mischievously.

random encounter.  ||  @nomdic

    his brows furrow upon fingers  MAKING CONTACT  with his cheek, body lurching away immediately. it doesn’t take him long to establish the subtle twinge of pain;  rather, the source of it, is no threat to him, but all the same…  ‘ what’s his problem ?  couldn’t just talk to try and get my attention ? ’  squall digresses.  (  albeit with his nose a little scrunched. posture still a little tense;  cautious.  )  now vigilant, he rests a hand against his hip. cocks his head some,  &  fixes his attention upon bartz.  “ do you need something ? ”  

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xiv is a deep and merciless pit

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When a person can see into your soul, it’s hard. It forces you to be open. Vulnerable.

Richelle Mead, Frostbite (via wordsnquotes)