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stabmeirl · 8 years ago

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Perfection

An anon requested that I do a fic where Stan has OCD that eventually turns into an eating disorder and Bill is the one to help him when things get bad. It’s a tiny bit angsty but if I do a part two I promise it will get fluffier! It’s short like everything I write but I hope you enjoy.

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Stanley Uris has gotten in the habit of going to the library for lunch instead of the cafeteria. He insists it’s because it’s quieter and he wants to focus more on his grades. He’ll never admit that he goes there because you can’t bring food into the library so it’s the perfect way to skip a meal without anyone getting suspicious.

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Stan’s parents are extremely strict. They don’t accept anything less than perfection and lately, neither does Stan. Since the beginning of his last year of highschool, Stan’s OCD symptoms have worsened. In each class he lines up his pens and pencils at the top of his desk. Two black pens, two blues, two reds, two identical pencils and an eraser. He tries not to let his OCD bother him, but it does. It bothers him when he’s late to class because he had to go back and lock his house seven times, it bothers him that he skips meals to be perfect, and it bothers him that Bill, the person he cares most about has noticed how bad it’s gotten.

Last week, as Bill and Stan walked side by side to school, Bill noticed how Stan’s sweater hung loosely from his shoulders for the first time. He noticed how the bone in his wrist seemed to stick out of his skin. He knew Stan has OCD but he was becoming afraid that he was dealing with a bigger issue.

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It was on a windy day in October that Bill decided to ask Stan what was going on. Everyday on his way to school Bill passed by Stan’s house and they walked together the rest of the way. When Bill saw the smaller boy bundled in a winter coat and scarf, he knew something was wrong. After locking his door over and over, Stan jogged down his driveway to where Bill was standing on the sidewalk.

“Hey Bill, nice day today isn’t it?” Stan said, sounding overly exited.

“I-I guess so,” Bill stammered, “but why are you wearing so many layers of c-c-clothes.”

“Well it’s always a little chilly in the morning, I’ll obviously take it off when we get to school.”

“It’s just that lately y-you’ve seemed a little stressed. You’re OCD seems a bit worse. I j-ju-just want to make sure you’re okay.”

Stan pulled his coat tightly over his bony figure. He hated that Bill could tell he was getting bad again. The last thing he ever wanted was someone to worry about him.

“Thanks Bill, I really appreciate the concern, but I’m fine, just a bit stressed from school, it’s no big deal.”

“Okay, well how ‘bout we go out for lunch today, t-to get your mind off things. There’s a n-ne-new cafe near the school, we could go there if y-you want.”

Stan’s heart started to race and his hands started shaking. The thought of eating scared him enough, but eating in front of someone, especially someone who means so much to him was terrifying.

“I don’t-I don’t know Bill, I have a ton of work to catch up on, I really should just go to the library or something.”

“So it’s s-settled then, come to my locker after English and we’ll go for lunch. Oh, and it’s my treat.”

Stan forced a smile and a nod, but Bill saw the fear in his eyes. He just hoped he was doing what was right for his best friend.

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Risking it all in a glance

“Draco… Draco.”

His father’s voice sounded strained, almost like a scared whisper. He hesitantly stretched out his arm, his hand balled into a fist. Draco swallowed hard as several heads turned towards him, watched him. He was sure they all expected him to walk across the courtyard without hesitation. It was where he belonged after all.

All these years he had done as his father had said. He hadn’t defied him once. But now, everything in him screamed to stay where he was, not to go to his father. It came too late. What was the point in defying him now?

Harry Potter was dead. There was no hope left.

“Draco.”

Draco’s eyes darted to his mother. Her voice rang through him and immediately found its way to his heart, squeezing it violently. She took a step forward, smiling at him almost sadly.

“Come.”

Hesitating only a second longer, Draco started moving, his head bowed. He didn’t dare to look anyone in the eye.

Harry Potter was dead. What was the point in fighting?

Draco’s body went rigid when the Dark Lord enveloped him in his arms.

“Well done, Draco,” he whispered into his ear. Draco thought he was going to be sick. Silently, he made his way to his parents, avoiding his father’s waiting arms and grasping his mother’s hand instead.

He tried to suppress a sob when his eyes fell on Potter’s lifeless body, held tight by the half-giant. It made him want to scream, to sink to his knees and beg the heavens to return him. What were they supposed to do without Potter now? What was Draco supposed to do without him?

For the rest of his life, he would be haunted by the knowledge that the last time he had seen Harry Potter alive, the Gryffindor had saved his life, had saved him from the Fiendfyre. And what had Draco done? He had simply grabbed his wand when it had fallen out of Potter’s hand and had made a run for it.

His hand tightened around the wood, making his knuckles go white. It didn’t even feel like his wand anymore. It only reminded him of what he had done. It disgusted him.

He could barely listen as Longbottom stepped forward and told them it didn’t matter that Potter was dead. His heart gave another violent squeeze. He wished he could go back in time. Draco doubted it was in his power to save Potter, but he should have at least told him that he… that he…

Draco saw something sparkly out of the corner of his eyes when suddenly chaos erupted. Longbottom was holding something; it looked like a sword. Draco looked around, taking in the shocked faces of the Death Eaters. That’s when he finally saw it; Potter, jumping out of the half-giant’s arms. In this mere second, Draco’s whole world shifted. It was as if time was standing still. Potter was crouching on the ground, his face full of determination.

Draco’s mind was completely blank. He didn’t think, he didn’t question it when his feet started moving of their own accord.

“Potter!” His voice was choked, desperate. The feeling only intensified when their eyes met. Draco hadn’t thought he’d ever see those eyes again. It made him shiver. He didn’t think about repercussions, about what his parents would say, what the Dark Lord might do to him. How could he, when Harry Potter was alive?

Without a moment’s hesitation, he lifted his arm above his head and threw his wand with all his might. His heart hammered wildly against his chest as he watched Potter catch it mid-air.

They were saved. He was saved.

Even though relief flooded through him, at this point, Draco really didn’t care what happened to him anymore. He had experienced what it meant to lose nearly everything.

Harry Potter was alive and that was all that mattered.

So, quick intermission because there’s this song you could listen to real quick. Yes, this was indeed inspired by a song originally sung by the Backstreet Boys lol. BUT can you honestly listen to it and tell me this is not one of the most drarry songs you’ve ever heard? I can’t believe I hadn’t noticed before! So, with that in mind, the story continues…

It was quick, fleeting, but it made Harry stop dead, the air completely knocked out of his lungs. Grey eyes, hesitant, sad, locked with his.

Someone bumped into him, breaking the eye contact. Harry whirled around, the shopping bag in his hand hitting the wizard beside him in the back.

“Sorry,” Harry mumbled. He quickly turned his head back down Diagon Alley, searching for grey eyes but there were just too many people.

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Drarry Fic Rec Masterlist

I’ve been meaning to put this together properly for some time now, so finally, here is a list of my top Drarry fics. Definitely read through all the other works of these amazing writers. These are just my personal favourites. Enjoy! Hahahahah good luck ever doing anything else ever again.

First and foremost comes Saras_Girl like, I CAN’T EVEN. So, my top favourites of theirs:

Turn (E) The Foundations series GUHHH: Part 1: Reparations (E) Part 2: Foundations (E) Helix (E) Catfished (T) It Takes a Village (M) Salt on the Western Wind (M) All Life is Yours to Miss (M) (I don’t need to say anymore to pitch these. They are your bread and butter. READ THEM.)

Tales From the Special Branch by femmequixotic (E) When Gawain Robards asks him to form Special Branch seven-four-alpha, Harry Potter knows they’ll have to work outside the confines of the law–even though they are the law.

(Aurors!Harry and Draco, forbidden fruit, case fic, lots of excellent smut, incredibly complex and well-written plot. I can’t even with this fic it’s so freaking good. Most recent in the series has just started posting but each individual fic is brilliant stand-alone. MASTERFUL. And so satisfyingly long. They have so many great fics, go read them allllll!)

Temptation on the Warfront by alizarincrimson (E) Draco Malfoy is forced into hiding with the Golden Trio and dragged into their search for horcruxes. What ensues is a journey of redemption, unexpected friendships and an unwanted, turbulent romance with Harry Potter. Warnings for swearing, sexual content, and dark themes.

(7th year AU. Really well developed and reworked to include Draco. One of my drarry firsts and an all-time love.)

Running on Air by eleventy7 (T) Draco Malfoy has been missing for three years. Harry is assigned the cold case and finds himself slowly falling in love with the memories he collects.

(So, I’m not great at reading T-rated fics… I actually read this one by accident. I am so glad I did. Beautiful fic. Melancholy and lovely and just yes.)

Against All Odds by momatu (E) Beauxbatons is hosting the first ever Quidditch Summer School for children from all over Europe, and Harry has promised to enroll Teddy as his birthday present. Meanwhile, Draco is stuck in his office, putting together the first ever Quidditch Summer School for children from all over Europe during, when he should be enjoying summer holidays.

(Momatu really does their research and creates a vivid world with great development between Harry and Draco. Highly recommend trawling through their work and reading it all. Massive thanks to @siriusly-not-over-remus for reccing this to me!)

One Touch by Fleetofshippyships (M) An unexpected incident late one night sets off a series of events that could save one young man in desperate need of help, even if doing so may destroy the other.Harry commits an act of great violence, but doesn’t remember why. Malfoy urges him to run, and takes the blame instead. The most obvious explanation makes no sense, and it only gets more complicated from there.What follows is their struggle to trust and open up to one another while dealing with dangerous and invasive magic; when stepping wrong and losing control, even if only for a few moments, could have severe consequences for them both.

(8th year AU. Fantastic concept for plot and really well developed idea. Another one to absolutely check out a load of their work. I also highly recommend by them:

Restraint (E) Someone casts the Imperius curse on Draco Malfoy, and whatever the instructions may be, Harry finds himself an unwilling target. The encounter leaves him torn between pleasure and revulsion. As they fight in the aftermath, a tense game begins. Harry fights to convince Malfoy, and himself, that he was not affected by that initial encounter, or any of those following it. Faced with a series of escalating encounters, Harry must come to terms with desiring things he never thought he could, things he wishes he didn’t respond to. They each use signs of arousal as weapons against each other in a mad struggle to finally shame the other into backing down for good. But it’s only after the game is over that Harry starts to understand.

(8th year AU. Great angst and enemies to lovers progression. Drinking. Games. A hella lot of rough sex. This is a smuuuuut fic. I also helped beta this fic because it was so good and I couldn’t wait for updates.)

Balance, Imperfect by bixgirl1 (E) When Harry sustains an injury in the line of work, he no longer knows how to navigate the life he loved, and finds help and solace from the most unexpected source.

(Auror!Harry, Physiotherapist!Draco. I totally got @sirussly to read this and she loved it, closet hardcore Drarry shipper right there. I LOVE @bixgirl1 I cannot explain. All the stuff by them is just fantastic. Especially: The Shape of the World (E) and: In Evidence of Magical Theory (E)

They are also in the middle of a collab with the wonderful @l0vegl0wsinthedark on a super cute and super smutty Virgin!Draco series on here (search either of their blogs under the ‘virgin draco’ tag.)

Speaking of! l0vegl0wsinthedark has a whole load of great fics (all the good smut). Absolutely worth working your way through it all!)

Draco Sodding Malfoy by Shewhxmustnxtbenamed (M) Harry finds Draco outside a pub and takes him back to his place, only to find out that Draco is in an abusive relationship. Harry invites Draco to stay until he can get back on his feet. They go to Draco’s ex-boyfriends house, and come back with more than they bargained for.

(So. Cute. Domestic bfs. Also very worth checking out @shewhomustnotbenamed and their drarry videos hallooooooo)

Azoth by zeitgeistic (E) Now that Harry is back at Hogwarts with Hermione for eighth year, he realises that something’s missing from his life, and it either has to do with Ron, his boggart, Snape, or Malfoy. Furthermore, what, exactly, does it mean when one’s life is defined by the desire to simultaneously impress and annoy a portrait? Harry has no idea; he’s too busy trying not to be in love with Malfoy to care. (Hogwarts Apprentices!Drarry. Animagus magic. SO GOOD GUH. I really love the idea for Harry’s animagus and the progress is so excellent.)

Any Instrument by dicta_contrion (E) Draco Malfoy wouldn’t go back to England for anything less than an exceptional case. Being asked to figure out why Harry Potter can’t control his magic might be exceptional enough to qualify.

(MindHealer!Draco. THE BIG LEAGUES SO GOOD YES. Excuse me while I go read this again. OKAY BUT LOADS OF THEIR OTHER STUFF TOO ESPECIALLY:

The Vanishing Department (E) The things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end, even if that involves a lot more form-filling, bickering, covert glancing, miscommunication, and flying furniture than we might expect.

(Brilliant characterisation of Draco and really interesting idea. YES.)

House Proud by astolat (E) His house liked Draco Malfoy more than him.

(OKAY, I LOVE THIS. WIZARD HOUSES ARE THE SHIT AND THIS IS SO CLEVER YES. REALLY FREAKING GOOD BANTER BETWEEN HARRY AND DRACO. Also other stuff by them like:

NEWTS

“I’m twenty-eight!” Harry said. “I’ve been an Auror for ten years! You want me to go back to Hogwarts now?“ (Harry has to go back to Hogwarts before he can be promoted, Professor!Draco. Yisssssss.)

- Timeshare (BONDING FIC YES)

Eclipse by Mijan (T) Draco swore his revenge on Harry for Lucius’s imprisonment, and Harry all but laughed at him. But Draco is planning more than schoolyard pranks this time. The old rivalry turns deadly when Draco abducts Harry for Voldemort. It’s the perfect plan, guaranteeing revenge, power, and prestige, all in one blow. But when Draco’s world turns upside down, the fight to save himself and Harry begins, and the battle will take them both through hell and back. If they come back. (6th year AU. Pre-HBP. Another accidental T read with 0 regrets. I LOVED this, SO MUCH.)

A Year In Training by Omi_Ohmy (M) Harry is finally living his dream and training as an Auror, but nothing seems to be going right: he’s just so angry all the time. And Draco Malfoy’s presence on the programme really isn’t helping with that, either.

(Aurors!Drarry: Harry’s pissed off Draco is better than him. I’m sure you can see where this goes…)

Eternally Consistent by kitsunealyc (E) Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter assumed they would never be anything but civil enemies, until Potter lands on Malfoy’s doorstep, bleeding, covered in curses, and acting very strangely indeed.

(Unspeakables!Harry&Draco: Nice swift enemies to lovers progression, goooood!)

Tea and No Sympathy by who_la_hoop (E) It’s Potter’s fault, of course, that Draco finds himself trapped in the same twenty-four-hour period, repeating itself over and over again. It’s been nearly a year since the unpleasant business at Hogwarts, and Draco’s getting on with his life quite nicely, thank you, until Harry sodding Potter steps in and ruins it all, just like always. At first, though, the time loop seems liberating. For the first time in his life, he can do anything, say anything, be anything, without consequence. But the more Draco repeats the day, the more he realises the uncomfortable truth: he’s falling head over heels for the speccy git. And suddenly, the time loop feels like a trap. For how can he ever get Harry to love him back when time is, quite literally, against him?

(Really nice development of Draco, and fun plot! Definitely worth going through their other works too, some really great stuff!)

Strangeness and Charm by FeelsForBreakfast (E) One November night during his eighth year at Hogwarts, Draco ends up in the forbidden forest. That’s how it starts. or: If two boys fall in love in a magical forest, does it still make a sound?

(8th year AU. Dreamlike and sweet. Check out their other works too. I especially recommend ‘Like Holly or Blood’ (M) and 'Open for Repairs’ (M).)

Strange Bedfellows by hurt_mod and ravenclawsquill (E) When Harry encounters a frail and fidgety Draco Malfoy at the Ministry, he just knows something is wrong and he’s determined to get to the bottom of it. A story about Deadly Nightshade, crippling insomnia, excellent wine … and finding what you need in the strangest of circumstances. (Addict!Draco. All the good angsttttt.)

Boom Clap (The Sound of my Heart) by femmequixotic and noeon (E) Post-war Hogwarts has been energized by its new teaching fellows program. Where once bitter enmity divided the wizarding community, Malfoy and Potter chummily patrol hallways together whilst Granger and Zabini seek lost parts of the castle at McGonagall’s behest and Chang supervises Quidditch when not lecturing in Charms. It’s a veritable wizarding utopia and life is predictable for the first time in years. Which is, of course, when everything blows apart as the result of a drunken dare and Malfoy’s life is ruined beyond his capacity to repair it. Ever. In a million years.

(TeachingFellows!Harry&Draco: Drinking games wohooooo!)

Lift Your Open Hand by firethesound (M) With Draco Malfoy as his assigned partner for the next six weeks of Auror training, Harry had been prepared for things to go poorly. But getting themselves accidentally bonded to each other in the first twenty minutes of their very first assignment seemed going above and beyond, even for them.

(Aurors!Drarry. Who doesn’t love a good magical bonding fic?? Lots of great works, also recommend:

A Convenient Impracticality (E) Somehow Harry ends up agreeing to a fake relationship with his ex-nemesis-turned-friendly-acquaintance-with-benefits, except for some reason it involves an awful lot of actual dating and, sadly, not much sex. Confused? Harry is too, but when has anything with Draco Malfoy ever been as straightforward as it seems?

(Aurors!Drarry, That good fake relationship trope. *thumbs up*) The Light More Beautiful (E) Thirteen years after Draco accepts Potter’s help escaping the horror of his sixth year, he returns to England where he makes the unfortunate discovery that Potter is still as obnoxious as ever. And worse, more than a decade overseas hasn’t been enough to dim Draco’s obsession with him.

(Sort of 6th year AU, then post-war Aurors!Drarry. Really interesting speciality for Draco and great development)

I will keep updating this as I remember more/find more great fics. If you have any requests for specific types of fic, hmu and I’ll see if I can help :)

Happy reading! <3

M x

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stabmeirl · 8 years ago

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Hey l love your fic recommendations! I'm currently looking for some non magic high school drarry fics that aren't too long and also any drarry ones with daddy kinks or any kink really that aren't too long It's okay if you don't know any I'm just wondering thank you 💗

omg, i’m so so so so so sorry. please let me apologise, there was no way i could reach you to explain the situation for eg. your ask wasn’t open and i can’t message you either, so please forgive me for getting back to your request so late. i was really really busy for the whole month of august, i’m not ignoring anyone’s requests, so for those of you who have sent me ask, please please forgive me for getting back so late. i promise i’m not ignoring y’all! i just have to clear one by one whenever i have that little time!!

i’ll put your other ask in here too to answer them all together!

“Hey can you possibly recommend me some Drarry smut (possibly kinky af) please?”

Non-Magic AU High Sch!Drarry

Expensive Disaster - very classic but nice

A Long Way From Home

Keeper - quite kinky i think

Draco’s Boy - not just high school, but everything about growing up from being kids to teenagers and more, this story is very very popular if you haven’t already read it

Life, As Experienced Through Your Fingers + Sequel The Art And Practice Of Absolute Pitch - read it !!

Love Forbidden - classic too, popular!draco

Love Me Like You Meant It - popular!harry, whoooo

Chasing The Forbidden - this is like Draco being Harry’s teacher

Drarry v KINKY Smut

Perfect Fit - what else could draco possibly ride apart from horses?

Obsession - kinky af

99 Problems But A Snitch Ain’t One - hate sex

Winners Never Quit

As The CatBoy Purrs

Confection (A Little BDSM)

I’ll Show You More - very kinky

Envy - passionate hate sex

Bollocks

Freaky Lynx - !!

i hope you’ll enjoy reading!! i don’t like daddy kinks so i’ve never read anything of that sort sorry!! and yes, once again pls forgive me for the extremely late reply!!

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You And Me: 27k. When Harry sits down with Malfoy, he’s really only looking for a reprieve from the constant stares and whispers. (Mostly.) What he gets instead are a series of strange events that lead to a friendship that is something else, questions that nobody knows how to answer, and the realisation that the person that Harry doesn’t know how to hate, anymore, seems to be the person who knows exactly what he needs. A story in which everything is complicated. And yet, somehow, none of it is.

beautiful. heart clenching. harry and draco work out things. the tension and the anticipation will slowly kill you, probably, but it’s going to be worth it because this story is e v e r y t h i n g. so pure. so beautifully written. draco and harry’s relationship is mended in an original way, and it’s portrayed so that the reader can deeply understand the love beneath. i’m so overwhelmed by this story.

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Any good drarry fics where there is vulnerable!draco and protective!Harry ?

This has been on my mind for a while and I realize that I haven’t read a lot of books where draco is just so broken and vulnerable, but Harry is there to help him and protect him (whether from bullies at school, or death eater threats).

Let me know if you know any good ones. ❤️❤️❤️

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Lost Children

The game progressed from there with everyone gradually getting more and more drunk as the questions became more and more provocative, as well as sometimes simply ridiculous.

At one point, Draco had wrapped his pink lips around the bottle, holding Harry’s eyes the entire time as his Adam’s apple bobbed, and Harry had thought he was going to explode. He’d received a particularly hard elbow to the ribs from Ron for that one.

“Never have I ever fancied Harry Potter,” Seamus said, drawing Harry from his slightly perverse Draco fantasies and causing him to splutter. “Sorry mate, you’re just not my type.”

Ginny laughed and held up the bottle, “Guilty.” He grinned at her before forgetting how to breathe when Hermione took an awkward sip from her drink, causing Ron to squawk indignantly.

“What?” Ron demanded, folding his arms over his chest.

“Well, first year Harry was so nice and-” Hermione trailed off blushing.

Pansy sighed, “For Merlin’s sake Weasley, we’ve all had a bit of a crush on Potter at one point.” Harry’s eyes bulged, and he stared at Pansy as if she’d grown a second head. Actually, he would have been less shocked if she’d grown a second head than hearing that confession. “Mine was sixth year about the time the whole Chosen One thing came out. You’d gotten less—” she waved her hand at him, a slight wrinkle to her brow, “how did Draco always describe him, Blaise?”

“Specky and scrawny,” Zabini offered, and she nodded with satisfaction.

Harry, who had been so shocked by this entire turn of events, swung his head around at the mention of Draco’s name to see him sitting there perfectly still, fingers tapping away at his bottle. “What?” Draco snapped, clearly sensing everyone’s eyes on him. “Yes, I am stung by Pansy’s betrayal, but I hardly see why you all find my reaction so fascinating.”

Draco Malfoy was many things, but stupid wasn’t one of them. Harry knew Draco knew that that wasn’t why everyone was staring at him. However, Harry also knew he wasn’t getting the reaction he wanted out of Draco, not in a situation like this. So Harry did the only thing he could think of: he evened the playing field.

“Never have I ever fancied Draco Malfoy,” he blurted out, biting down on his lip hard as Draco’s grey eyes darted to his.

Pansy sighed and took a sip of her drink. “Here we fucking go.”

http://archiveofourown.org/works/11640861/chapters/26966451

Chapters 8 and 9 are now up

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