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[star4ever-n-ever]

thoughts today!! ^o^ (9/23/23)

my affection speaks louder than my mouth ever could, i hope that my silence as i hold your hand speaks to you.

i have never had the problem of not knowing who i am when surrounded by others - by example, i know who i am not.

to compensate for not being loved in the way that i love others, i love myself just as much, as that is the kind of love i will never regret, (which says admittedly nothing, as i regret nothing i have loved).

i cannot express enough how glad i am to be a human being. if i were born as an animal, i would live in a constant state of frustration due to not being able to express what i feel inside in a non-guttural manner.

is it better to speak or die? easy, speak. you will not die from your words, but from the materialization of the rebuttals people cannot or will not form. though, the value of some words are subjective, as are some truths; at times, it may be best to remain quiet. the words you die with might not be as valuable as the thoughts you live with.

i am a loving person in my soul, and i understand that the root of all anger i feel is sadness. sorrow is less volatile, i will gladly weep for a little while if it means that i can spare anyone of discomfort or hurt. i also consider myself to be an understanding person - i will consider the reasons behind one's actions, and though i may not agree with them, i never feel that it is my place to perform punitive acts. i will never abandon my moral values to be petty.

i entirely understand why some feel that podcasts are useless. that very well may be true, some podcasts could have realistically no use to certain people. however, i personally see it this way: this (hypothetical) speaker may have a way of seeing this world that is so very different from mine, so why should i not learn their perspective? i can easily take what resonates with me, leave the rest, and if nothing proves to be of importance to me, at the very least i will have an understanding of how someone else thinks.

there is such a massive difference between being blunt and being flat-out insensitive. if you find it fulfilling to 'humble' other people, then that reflects badly on you, not the person you are attempting to humble.

it feels so healing to have friends that understand my heart and mind. my taste in music, my values, the ways in which i show affection. i feel so grateful, and my heart feels so full in the presence of the people that my soul seems to have known for lifetimes.

i love singing, i know what i would do if i decided against becoming a child psychologist.

yeahh, that's all!! idk what to put on my blog, this'll suffice for right now :-p (can u tell i avoided contractions when drafting all of the thoughts above) (anyway if u read all of that, woahh i appreciate it!! take care, improbable audience)