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100% Leather Hand That Handmade By Devoa Japanese Designer Daisuke

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me: lol. haha *swallows a bottle of estrogen* im gonna be so girl

someone: wait stop! that wasnt normal estrogen, it was age-regrestrogen! how many did you take!?

me: this many 🖐🖐🖐🖐🖐

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I hate how every single person I try to talk to and make friends with makes me put in all the effort

I don't know how to make friends! Give me something to fucking work with! I'm constantly screwing this up because I have no idea what I'm fucking doing!

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"XVI (The Tower)" 8x16", Watercolor. 2025

On view now at Vakarie Gallery, for "Arcana: Painting the Fates," a Tarot themed group show

Original Artwork available for purchase

Prints

The Tower is a notoriously negative card, but the more I learn about tarot the less I believe in starkly positive or negative meanings. The Tower symbolizes challenges, difficult ones, like....the kind of challenges that leave you back at square one. But challenges in my mind mean change. Getting knocked down means you have to do something different when you try again, whether that is putting more care and effort into the techniques used before, or trying something new entirely.

Some of you know by now that I've been having an issue with my spine/sacrum for a few years now - while I'm able to carry out my days normally-ish now it has left me with chronic pain that I'm still hoping will heal. It's affected the way I work, the way I relax, the type of exercise that I can do...Pretty much everything part of a routine that I worked hard to build has had to be altered in some way. It's a journey I'm still on and frustrated by. I'm not fully convinced that the diagnosis I received is the entirety of the issue. I also think a part of it isn't a diagnosis thing at all, I'm just getting older.

The spine is the center. It connects the brain to the body, and serves as the conduit for every message between them. It's the foundation for our anatomical hardware and software.

So, is this a personal piece?....Who's to say.

Full painting process documentation of this piece is included in this month's Artist's Notebook PDF, over on patreon.

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I think my messy bed hair is kinda cute

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Please stop putting sugar in the machinegirls' fuel tanks. I know how often they beg for "a little sweet treat" but please just ignore them they're kept on a special diet for a reason

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I FINALLY FOUND IT AGAIN

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Downfall

Mimi Staneva

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High Seamstress of the Spellweaver Guild

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I wish I could just not deal with cis people for like a week. Like, no, I don't get what you're saying. The material conditions of your life are so radically different to mine that I can't relate to you at all.

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The development of anti-satellite weapons was a mistake

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Tangled Up In You

Beth Cavener (2014)

Stoneware, ink, paint, rope

Figures: 65" x 42" x 24"  Overall height: 15'

(Japanese tattoo pattern by Alessandro Gallo)