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Ichigo and Orihime are so precious to me. Babies are the most adorable, purest, fluffiest. I LOVE MY BABIES SO MUCH and thank the god everyday for returning them to me 😭😭😭😭😭

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Cabin Eren's voice being all gentle, tender and full of love and sadness. SEDATE ME RIGHT NOW IT HURTS

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🌺 When a girl insists her grumpy space daddy MUST wear the flower she found…

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when the entire family is autistic 👌

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𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 𝐱 𝐂𝐨𝐜𝐚 𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

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when did Ichigo fall in love?

Some self-indulgent meta on Ichigo coming to terms with his feelings for Orihime because fic writing… Relating a lot to this poor boy’s intimacy struggles, I figured Ichigo’s falling in love could be expressed through taking steps towards this particular relationship, little by little.

And that starts with the ground he stands on: empathy

the basis of their relationship is empathy. The series start with him noticing her, worrying for her because he knows her pain.

step 1: he acknowledges that she notices him, too

And that is literall because he says “i had no idea you could see us”, referring to Orihime seeing his shinigami form. But he also had no idea that she noticed him, paid attention to him and thought of him to such high standards. Seeing himself through Orihime’s eyes surprised him at first, but it also helped steel his resolve. She gently holds a mirror to him and says “see, you are a kind, brave person”, and he sees that. He sees his own qualities through her eyes - and this is a big deal.

step 2: he lets her in

now, once again, her display of affection surprises him… and he welcomes it.  He is yelling to the world “I won!”, exhausted, and is (literally) hit with this genuine, tender sentiment that she has for him… and he is grateful for it. In her crying for him, he sees his own desire to see his friends safe, he sees the same level of care that he displays - but he’s also taking in the more intimate concern that she is showing for him. This is another big deal, because allowing someone in like that opens the vulnerability gates, which leads to

step 3: dealing with vulnerability

… and now, he is confronted with facing the consequences: he let her in, now it can get under his skin. Now it can hurt him.

And it does. He sees his own personal failure in her injuries, but the apex here is the fight with Grimmjow: when he sees her frightened eyes, he doesn’t see the kind, brave man he saw before, he sees his own fear. Orihime says: “i can’t see my own reflection/ i don’t recognize him”… and neither does Ichigo. Her not recognizing him is mirroring his own personal fear of losing himself to his hollow.

… but right after, when her loving feelings get to him, he is empowered. She is not just saying “look, you are still a wonderful person”. She is saying “look, this is my heart: it is scared for you, it hurts because I can’t bear to see you get hurt, just like you can’t stand to watch me or anyone else get hurt”. He sees care, he sees love, he sees acceptance and empathy, he sees his old self, and he takes that to heart.

And now, she reaches even deeper…. which brings him to extreme places

And yet he does not fall back on his decision to let her in. It takes him a while, and quite the pain during FB Arc, too, but finally, TYBW comes and we see that he finally took the next step.

step 4: rely on her and their bond.

Ichigo finally takes the leap of faith and trusts in their intimacy. He is trusting eye contact to pull a master move to use his hollow - the power that has made them both so afraid before, the extreme place he went within himself, with her. He is confident in himself, confident in her, confident in their relationship, confident that with her by his side, he can do this. He moves past his fear of being vulnerable, he moves past his fear of failing her. He still worries about her, he always will, but now, he is ready to embrace their bond as it is, trusting that the intimacy they built so far will come through - and it does.

This is love.

… and all he needs now is time and encouragement to reassure himself and take the final step.

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Some works that I never published here ヾ(•ω•`)o

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It's gonna be December 20... which means I am gonna rewatch the sequels and reenter my reylo depression and ao3 era

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This will always be my favourite romantic scene in a shounen series. The crescent moon, the farewell, orihime professing her love for ichigo, the intimacy, her claiming to love the same man in 5 different lifetimes with soundscape to ardor in the bg.... this scene being the big precursor to ichigo rescuing her. I knew they would be endgame right here 😭🤍

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my brain has never recovered from the damage of reading chapter 283 of bleach. what do you mean ichigo was losing the fight because he didn't want to scare orihime and he started to win when she reassured him she just wanted him to be safe. what do you mean he said he's "not ALLOWED to get hurt" just because she asked. what do you mean he stopped grimmjow's attacks without taking his eyes off her. HOW DO I MOVE ON FROM THIS.

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The way I love ichigo and orihime plz 😭😭😭 Can't wait till their scenes are animated soon

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safe and sound

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Sasusaku fandom rise and shine yall!

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💗🌸 The Forger Family 🌸💗

(together in the same manga panel)

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Spy x Family Fics Recommendations

A while ago I asked for Spy x Family fics recommendations (thank you to all who answered!). Now, here are my recommendations, all of them in ao3:

Person of interest, by suchmadness: In which Twilight and Yor get to discover they are soulmates. A beautiful and exciting story!

Peace, consuming, by foxphantom: A little piece of fluff, kinda sexy too. In which Loid and Yor discuss baby names. 

Wonderland by Puolain: Everything by this author is beautiful, but this particular work is chef’s kiss! It has a little bit of everything and my favorites are her AU shots @puolain

Loid Forger is NOT a cuddler by AssassinNumber9: A super cute, fluffy, funny piece. Come on, the name says it all!

Things about you, by Tare: A super sweet story about identity reveal. Daily shenanigans is another highly recommended story by the same author @tare-anime

Until we run out of mornings by bloomdove: This one is a super exciting identity reveal, very intense too.

Saccharin, by Lacrow: Anything written by this author is simply fantastic! My personal favorite is Saccharin, in which Twilight is at home recovering from a kidnapping. It has plenty of fluff, humor, and that last chapter is incredibly hot!

All the Things We Cannot Say by nightofnyx8: This story has one of the sexiest kisses I have ever read. The plot is oh so good too. Do yourself a favor and read this! @nightofnyx8

Roses Bloom red in my Heart by deonideatta: In which Twilight develops a super cute (but deadly) disease from unrequited love and only Yor can save him. I loved this one @deonideatta

A map of every blade by nire: This one is hands down my absolute favorite. In this story, Twilight tries to seduce his wife under Wise’s orders, after they discover she’s Thorn Princess. Incredibly soft and moving, but also very, very sexy. It’s also very well-written, characters are on point, and the pace is exciting and flawless. A f*cking masterpiece if you ask me @nire-the-mithridatist

And last, but not least…

The Last Days of Operation Strix by whateversawesome (yeah, yeah, it’s me): Here, Twilight and Yor finally realize how they feel about each other. This is the story of how they get together. There��s plenty of fluff, angst, romance, and spice too. I’m having tons of fun writing it!

That’s it! If you have any recommendations, let me know. I’ll be happy to read them and add them to the list. 

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With Spy x Family anime started to air, the fandom gain more people!! I’m so happy!!

For those want to read fics, we do have lots of awesome fanfics that you can find at AO3.

As for my own works, if you adore TwiYor (LoiYor or Loid x Yor) as much as I do, and want to read them you can go to my AO3 profile. 

Please beware of Manga spoilers if you’re only watching the Anime.

Here are some of my own favorites: 

Steps of Spending The Rest of My Life With You (series)

Tales of Mr. and Mrs. Forger (drabble collections)

Daily Shenanigans of 128 Park Avenue’s Resident (Slice of Life collections)

A Flower Without Scent that Attracts The Birds (Jealous Loid!! love the trope!)

The Greatest Things Happened in My life (An AU where Yor was the one who adopted Anya first)

EDIT: whoah, never expected this post to gain this much attention. Anyway, I put several links to my all time sxf TwiYor favorite fics from my favorite authors (so I will not sound like someone who boast her own writing and have no shame, though I am 😛)

Everything written by Lacrow are amazing. These are my favorites though:

Papa’s ex Girlfriend (Loid had to deal with the sudden reapearance of Karen from chp./ep. one, and keep the Forger family intact)

Forged in Fire (Medieval RPG AU)

Under Your Spell (Witch Yor and Anya, with Knight Loid and Damian AU)

Forger’s first Halloween (series)

Mission Files: Family Forger (one shots collection)

The Wicked Tale of the Thorn Princess (a Fairy Tale AU) by JaMills

Your Sweet lips on My lips (8 kisses to fall in love) by Peachygirlie

Mission Complete (what happen at the end of Operation Strix) by Arthurthegatekeeper

Words, Scars, and Choices (Soulmate AU) by Arthurthegatekeeper

A Little Less Than Superhuman (Loid was sick, and Yor took care of him) by Cellwright

Chance Encounter (Eden AU) by smallestsenpai

May I (Loid and Yor dancing) by smallestsenpai

If Your heart was a House You’d be home (LoiYor hurt comfort) by calmthestorm

Mending what’s Broken (Identity reveal) by LittlestFallenAngel

Of Glass and Smoke (LoiYor hurt comfort/nightmare) by Pokegeek151

Keeping secrets just to keep you (Identity reveal AU) by dancingpineaples

Scared of Loosing something that I finally found (Loid saving his family) by cloesh_scribbles

I want to lean on you in drunkness (drunk Yor, Loid took care of her) by coloredice

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Okay, I’ve read tons more of fic, and this is where you can find my next fic rec