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“I’m not Resistance. I’m not a hero. I’m a stormtrooper. Like all of them, I was taken from a family I’ll never know. And raised to do one thing. But my first battle, I made a choice. I wasn’t gonna kill for them. So I ran, right into you. And you looked at me like no one ever had. I was ashamed of what I was. But I’m done with the First Order. I’m never going back. “

FINN - STAR WARS (2015-2019)

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Disney: you’re not allowed to swear in a disney film! 

Oscar: fuck off mouse

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cardinal-carvings·:

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Things had apparently gotten bad while Archex was tucked away on Cerea– healed up from his impulsive confrontation of Phasma as much as ever he’ll be and being dragged (so it felt, at least– he did want to get better) through tasks meant to help with deprogramming him. The revelation of Starkiller Base– the swift destruction of the massive weapon only after it had wiped out an entire system– the followed destruction of the Resistance base and an extreme loss in numbers that followed within mere days later…

When he was pulled off Cerea and filled in on everything that had happened he wondered if they took him back out of a desperation for numbers or if they genuinely believed their attempt at fixing him had worked. Perhaps a sum of both ideas– mixed in with a desperation and hope. He hadn’t even bothered trying to speak up against it when they decided to send him out with one of their own– paired him up and shipped him out on a mission within hours after quickly running through some questions in an attempt to see where his mindset was.

Admittedly it… wasn’t the best. He felt more tired than ever in his life. Lost, broken, confused… like he had no control over his life. Which was… true, in a way. He couldn’t even pretend otherwise. Archex could only ever strive in hopes of finding some semblance of normalcy again. Or… perhaps for the first time in decades at this point.

The ex-stormtrooper Captain had hardly conversed much with Poe on their jump. Keeping to himself, retreating into his thoughts and mulling over the reality of everything. The task set out before them felt so desperate and dangerous… infiltrating a planet the First Order had occupied to try and help those that supported their cause escape to somewhere they could be of help? Foolish. Yet he didn’t speak up against the task. Not until now, as the ship was finally nearing the point where it’d drop out of hyperspace near their targeted planet.

“Do you really think this is the best idea?” Archex hated how soft the question came out– hazel eyes locked on the viewport to watch the stars streak by. It’d been so long since he’d actually spent a moment to admire the effects of hyperspace, “I mean. It’d probably be better if they just lay low instead of risking more people to pull off a fool’s errand.”

Failure. It had not been something that followed the Commander over his many years of service. He had never failed before, not like this, not with the gravity of loss like an anchor. There wasn’t anything more Poe was willing to lose, he would hold onto those he cared about with an almost desperate intensity from this point forward. The Resistance, short lived, deteriorated over the years, war was a cruel mistress---and it seemed all she did was take.  Now, one of those that Poe cared about was stranded in a sticky situation on a planet controlled by the Order----of course, it was always the First Order, every time the Commander thought he had a break, however brief, it often came to a crashing halt. The cargo ship isn’t the best Poe had ever flown, but the model was one of the newer ones and for that the pilot was thankful, he’d spent enough time in the pilot’s chair of barely working junk for one lifetime.   He’s almost irritated by the silence that rests in the cockpit, it wasn’t like Poe to keep his mouth shut, but there was still an air of unease between him and one of their newer recruits. Poe likes to think of himself as open minded, knows everyone has a history and there are men that served the Empire that now benefit the Resistance directly----it wasn’t much different with those who defected from the Order. Finn, someone he cared about deeply was a Stormtrooper. Maybe it was just the guys attitude. Maybe it was Poe’s.  When the question comes it’s barely above the ship’s engine as he thrusts them through hyperspace. BB-8 rolls not far from his chair, a trill of beeps announcing the systems were in order, and if the Commander’s fingers hit the toggle a little too roughly, he hoped the other man wouldn’t comment.  “Fools errands can be the best ones---try to be optimistic.” He says in response, irritation in the echo of his voice. “Happy beeps.” The whispered words are dirrected at his droid, and Poe lets out a gruff breath as he pulls them out of their jump.  “Just a few parsecs, a quick pick up and it’ll be smooth sailing from there.” 

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That’s how we won.

Episode IX: The Rise of Skywalker

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𝙱𝙴𝙲𝙰𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝚄𝚃𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙵𝙻𝚈'𝚂 𝚈𝙴𝙻𝙻𝙾𝚆 𝚆𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙵𝙻𝙸𝙲𝙺𝙴𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙺 𝙼𝚄𝙳 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙰 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙳𝙴𝙳 𝙱𝚈 𝙸𝚃𝚂 𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙶𝚄𝙰𝙶𝙴.   𝙱𝙴𝙲𝙰𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝙽𝙾 𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙴𝙻𝚂𝙴 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙸𝙽𝙶   —   &   𝙸 𝚁𝙰𝙽 𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝚁𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙾𝙽𝚂.   𝚂𝙾 𝙸 𝙶𝙰𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴𝙳 𝙵𝙸𝚂𝚃𝙵𝚄𝙻𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙰𝚂𝙷,  𝙳𝙰𝚁𝙺 𝙰𝚂 𝙸𝙽𝙺,  𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙼𝙴𝚁𝙴𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙾 𝙼𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙾𝚆,  𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙾 𝙰 𝚂𝙺𝚄𝙻𝙻 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙲𝙺 𝙴𝙽𝙾𝚄𝙶𝙷 𝚃𝙾 𝙺𝙴𝙴𝙿 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙶𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙻𝙴 𝙲𝚄𝚁𝚂𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝙳𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙼𝚂.   𝚈𝙴𝚂,  𝙸 𝙰𝙸𝙼𝙴𝙳 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝙼𝙴𝚁𝙲𝚈   —    𝙱𝚄𝚃 𝙲𝙰𝙼𝙴 𝙾𝙽𝙻𝚈 𝙲𝙻𝙾𝚂𝙴 𝙰𝚂 𝙱𝚄𝙸𝙻𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙰 𝙲𝙰𝙶𝙴 𝙰𝚁𝙾𝚄𝙽𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚁𝚃.   𝚂𝙷𝚄𝚃𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝙾𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙴𝚈𝙴𝚂.   𝚈𝙴𝚂,  𝙸 𝙶𝙰𝚅𝙴 𝙸𝚃 𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙳𝚂 𝙳𝙴𝚂𝙿𝙸𝚃𝙴 𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚃𝙾 𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙴𝚃𝙲𝙷 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝙲𝙻𝙰𝚈 𝚂𝙻𝙰𝙱 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙾 𝙵𝙸𝚅𝙴 𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙳𝙴𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃,  𝙸 𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳 𝙶𝙾 𝚃𝙾𝙾 𝙵𝙰𝚁.   𝙱𝙴𝙲𝙰𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝙸,  𝚃𝙾𝙾,  𝙽𝙴𝙴𝙳𝙴𝙳 𝙰 𝙿𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙳 𝙼𝙴.   𝚂𝙾 𝙸 𝙳𝙸𝙿𝙿𝙴𝙳 𝙼𝚈 𝙵𝙸𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝙱𝙰𝙲𝙺 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙾 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙵𝙸𝚁𝙴,  𝙿𝚁𝙸𝙴𝙳 𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙻𝙾𝚆𝙴𝚁 𝙵𝙰𝙲𝙴 𝚄𝙽𝚃𝙸𝙻 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙽𝙳 𝚆𝙸𝙳𝙴𝙽𝙴𝙳 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙾 𝙰 𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙾𝙰𝚃,  𝚄𝙽𝚃𝙸𝙻 𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚈 𝙻𝙴𝙰𝙵 𝚂𝙷𝙾𝙾𝙺 𝚂𝙸𝙻𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝚆𝙸𝚃𝙷 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝙶𝙾𝙳  -   𝙰𝚆𝙵𝚄𝙻 𝚂𝙲𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙼   &   𝙸 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙳𝙾𝙽𝙴.   &   𝙸𝚃 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙷𝚄𝙼𝙰𝙽.          —  𝙾.𝚅.

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Rebel Scum!

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(   *   & .   𝐘𝐎𝐔  𝐀𝐑𝐄  𝐎𝐊  𝐋𝐘𝐑𝐈𝐂  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 .

*   taken  from  the  maine’s  new  album  you  are  ok .

SLIP  THE  NOOSE .

‘  you  sent  my  pain  into  oblivion .  ’

‘  i  was  on  the  verge  of  breaking  down .   ’

‘  then  you  came  around  and  not  a  second  too  late .  ’

‘  i  was  on  the  verge  of  breaking  down  then  you  came  around .  ’

‘  you  shook  the  noose ,  slipped  my  head  loose ,  and  now  that  boy  is  history .  ’

‘  you  rescued  me  from  myself .  ’

‘  i  was  about  to  let  go  till  i  knew  you  existed .  ’

‘  loneliness  is  hell  and  you’re  alone .  ’

‘  i  knew  better  than  to  refuse  your  hand .  ’

MY  BEST  HABIT .

‘  i’m  not  sorry  for  myself  or  any  part  of  me .  ’

‘  i  am  not  human ,  one  part  anxiety  using  two  parts  nativity  just  to  keep  sane .  ’

‘  i’m  a  bitter  little  pill  to  swallow .  ’

‘  i’m  a  little  bit  of  a  let  down .  ’

‘  my  best  habit’s  letting  you  down .  ’

‘  to  you  i  don’t  exist ,   ain’t  what  you’re  looking  for .  ’

‘  good  thing  i  don’t  exist  for  you  at  all  anymore .  ’

‘  if  it’s  average  you’re  after  or  ordinary ,  you’ll  have  to  move  on .  ’

‘  if  i’m  not  me  then  i  am  everyone  else .  ’

‘  if  you’re  not  you ,  you’re  everyone  else .  ’

NUMB  WITHOUT  YOU .

‘  you  are  a  panic  in  the  bloodstream .  ’

‘  you  bring  me  peace .  ’

‘  you  kill  me  for  the  better .  ’

‘  you’re  every  fucking  thing  inside  me  now .  ’

‘  you  are  my  glitter  and  my  gloom .  ’

‘  i  am  so  numb  without  you .  ’

‘  i  won’t  leave ,   i  won’t  surrender .  ’

‘  i’ll  wait  till  the  end  of  time .  ’

I  FEEL  IT  ALL  OVER .

‘  i  feel  everything  tonight  with  you .  ’

‘  but  there’s  nothing  left  to  lose  when  there’s  nothing  to  hide .  ’

‘  tonight  i  feel  so  make-believe .  ’

‘  do  you believe  what  you  can’t  see ?  ’

‘  we’re  made  up  of  a  thousand  scars .  ’

‘  go  and  cry  your  heart  out .  ’

‘  this  is  what  it  says  to  do .  ’

‘  tomorrow’s  gone ,  tonight  is  ours .  ’

HEAVEN ,  WE’RE  ALREADY  THERE .

‘  blessed  be  the  night  we’re  breathing  in .  ’

‘  the  closest  that  we’ll  get  to  heaven  sent  for  all  of  us  darling  aliens .  ’

‘  we  will  never  be  this  young  again .  ’

‘  we  all  will  be  born  again .  ’

‘  this  is  everything  you  pray  for .  ’

‘  this  is  everything  i  need .  ’

‘  life  is  crazy ,  don’t  forget  the  seatbelt .  ’

‘  shut  the  goddamn  doors .  ’

‘  daylight  isn’t  far  away  my  fiend .  ’

‘  everything  i  love  is  right  here  tonight .  ’

‘  is  what  you’re  living  for  worth  dying  for ?   ’

FOREVERMORE .

‘  i  never  really  felt  so  at  home  before .  ’

‘  i  wanna  feel  this  forever  even  if  forever’s  just  for  now .  ’

‘  we  are  here  and  alive  in  our  corner  of  time .  ’

‘  i  never  really  ever  felt  so  adored  before .  ’

‘  i  never  really  felt  this  type  of  vulnerable .  ’

‘  all  you  have  to  be  is  here .  ’

TEARS  WON’T  CRY  (  SHINJŪ  ) .

‘  dream  with  both  eyes  open .  ’

‘  save  your  tears  for  something  worth  crying  over .  ’

‘  save  your  tears  for  something  worth  crying  over ,  don’t  waste  them  on  misfortune .  ’

‘  baby ,  they  won’t  cry  today .  ’

‘  we’ll  borrow  happiness  just  for  the  night .  ’

‘  nothing  can  hurt  you .  ’

‘  tell  me  what  you  think  about  me  and  you .  ’

ONE  SUNSET .

‘  you  wait  for  me  in  the  rain  as  i  patiently  try  to  pass  the  time .  ’

‘  the  day  is  done ,  now  all  i  want  is  to  get  out .  ’

‘  one  sunset  till  i  see  you .  ’

‘  my  love ,  you  wait ,  so  long  overdue .  ’

‘  it’s  been  two  weeks  in  the  rain  and  it’s  hazy  in  my  head .  ’

BROKEN  PARTS .

‘  it  isn’t  getting  easier .  ’

‘  we  are  shattered  everywhere .  ’

‘  it  isn’t  getting  easier  now ,  but  we’re  not  beyond  repair .  ’

‘  we  are  brittle ,  beware .  ’

‘  us  fragile  things ,  falling  to  pieces .  ’

‘  we’re  all  the  same  broken  fractions  and  halves  of  some  greater  thing .  ’

‘  you  can’t  fall  any  further .  ’

‘  gather  yourself  up  now ,  just  as  you  were  before .  ’

‘  we’re  all  the  same  broken  parts .  ’

FLOWERS  ON  THE  GRAVE .

‘  the  time  you  have  is  sacred ,  don’t  wait  around  and  waste  it .  ’

‘  everything  is  temporary ,  even  the  sorrow  that  you  carry .  ’

‘  so  tell  me ,  are  you  okay ?  ’

‘  i’m  okay  now  i’m  with  you .  ’

‘  you  don’t  plan  life ,  you  live  it .  ’

‘  you  don’t  take  love ,  you  give  it . ’

‘  there  are  flowers  on  the  grave  of  the  child  that  i  used  to  be .  ’

‘  it  was  summer  when  you  told  me  that  you  loved  me .  ’

‘  everything  is  temporary .  ’

‘  you  can’t  change  what  is  written .  ’

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Oscar Isaac | Rise of Skywalker interview

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I live in the worst time zone and it’s facts

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I feel

the CONFLICT

in you

ᴄᴀɴᴏɴ ᴅɪᴠᴇʀɢᴇɴᴛ ʙᴇɴ sᴏʟᴏ // Kʏʟᴏ Rᴇɴ

Sᴇᴍɪ Sᴇʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ

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it’s really a tragedy that i don’t have more ships for poe 

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Can I just say that I live for subtle touches….hands swiping against each other, arms grazing, knees press against each other, cheeks brushing, “accidental” thigh swipes.  I just love the subtlety behind pushing comfort boundaries while both of yall pretend like you don’t notice. It’s really the simple things in life.

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@solosboy said: "Did you know that I think about you every moment of every single day, Poe Dameron?"

“Every single one?” He parrots back smile radiant in his voice as he cocks his head to the side, ego successfully stroked. “I must be a lucky guy then.” He says, his hands unable to remain idle find their place on his partner’s hips, their shape their constant.  His full name was used so that must mean it was serious, that the devotion in Ben Solo’s face was not to be taken lightly, and Poe understood it’s gravity. The soft expression his partner wore suited him far better than all of the darkness that had obscured it for so long. Poe is inclined to kiss the full lips that said his name with the weight of ownership.  And if he leans forward to do just that, Poe is at least certain he will not be denied. 

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ship with me you cowards

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but he’s a hero, you know. the strong kind, the hold-up-the-sky kind, the too-good-for-this-world kind. he’s a hero, and he doesn’t deserve this. 

because he is kind, too-good-for-this-world kind, and i think that’s what makes him a hero. his heart is too big, and he carries it in his hands and i think it’s as heavy as the sky anyway and even if atlas was never a hero, he is. 

and he’s a hero, and he doesn’t deserve this, but we all know how this story ends and even if you rip out the last page it doesn’t stop the story from ending. 

he’s a hero, he is, and one day it’s going to kill him. because his heart is too big, and he carries it in his hands, and no one can hold up the sky forever.

— heroes are only heroes until it takes its toll // p.s.

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                              shinra employee   AVALANCHE OPERATIVE   spy                                       angry little boy , RIOT against the masters.                                            rise and become A REVOLUTION.

                                                written by sencha:  CRED