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It all happened in the blink of an eye. Truth be told, Ryo had almost expected to be turned down immediately. Nothing wrong with that: her request had no relationship to school and it would be very bothersome to actually listen to every student’s silly petitions, she could easily understand as much.

What she wasn’t expecting was an invitation. To his home, nonetheless. Alone.

The surprise probably showed on her face. Whatever trouble she had been carefully trying to avoid by not calling out someone too popular like Kou had been amped by at least ten times. Trouble for Kuron himself, most definitely, because he was actively offering some of his own free time to help out in a rather unusual request he hadn’t even heard a thing about. 

But more importantly, it was troublesome for her. For a variety of reasons… six of which had sharp fangs, an attitude and she had been forced to live with, so they would surely take things the wrong way if she went to someone’s house on her own.

Unconsciously, she rubbed an old wound close to her shoulder, strategically hidden under her uniform’s shirt. Not like they wouldn’t find a way to get her in trouble even without a proper reason.

And so, Ryo stared. Maybe a little too long, lost in thought while trying to process the unexpected invitation and the reasons behind it, so by the time she snapped back, Kuron's figure was already out and halfway through the hallway.

Unusual as it already was, she went after him. With a quick jog, fast enough to catch up to his pace and stand closer to him while still keeping a respectful distance, the answer came in a voice just ever so slightly louder than usual:

“I’ll do it! This weekend.” A pause, like she needed to catch her breath. And then a quick bow. “I don’t often find people willing to help out with my music, so I really appreciate it.”

Ryo wasn’t “desperate for advice”. Not at all. The idea that she even looked like that was irritating to say the least, but she couldn’t go arguing with everyone that disagreed with her, as much as she sometimes wanted to. And she didn’t want to press the issue any further either, fearing she might start looking actually desperate if she did.

If Ryo put her mind to it, she could definitely find someone else to ask about the song, pull a few all-nighters and turn in a piece that was good enough. But good enough wasn’t good enough, not for her. It had to be perfect or else the weight of her own lack of skills would come crashing her down.

Then, a rather stupid realization passed her mind as she looked up again. Kuron was tall. Way taller than she had guessed at first, not like she saw herself as short either. But maybe they hadn’t stood as close before, so she simply hadn’t looked into it. 

For some reason, she found something as simple as the height difference to be ever so slightly annoying too.

★ [ rp / kuron ]

featuring: @theshiningidols-koukuron ( @mukami-kuron-mrsadisticcat ) about: after reading through kuron's profile i confirmed they do have a few things in common: cats and music ! so i had to use at least part of it ^^

If one asked Ryo, she wouldn’t really call herself shy. An introvert? Maybe. But she wasn’t shy: she simply liked to consciously avoid interactions that wouldn’t lead anywhere, which in a school setting meant most of the small talk students could ever bring themselves to start with her was often met with strong disinterest.

However, there were exactly two exceptions to where she would definitely show interest: either they talked about something she cared about (most of the time, that meant music) or she started the conversation herself.

In the current case, a wonderful combination of both exceptions at the same time, said interest wasn’t necessarily all pure hearted…

It had all started with a stupid proposition from one of her contacts at a certain agency she often did freelance work for. “Make an idol song”, swiftly followed by “you’re good at making music, right? It can’t be too hard but if you can’t do it, we’ll find someone else.” And for some reason, that little jab at her skills as a composer was all it had taken for her to accept jumping head on into a genre she didn’t even have the first clue about. No. Was “idol music” even a genre…?

Prideful as she was, Ryo couldn’t accept the possibility that she had bit off more than she could chew and was dangerously determined to perfectly fulfill that request no matter what. Trying to tackle the situation in the most reasonable way she could come up with, research felt like the natural first step.

And what better way to research than asking someone who worked in that exact same industry? A certain someone with pink hair and an addiction to fashion magazines and social media had been quick to point out to Kou, but Ryo had almost immediately turned down the suggestion. They weren’t even in the same class (not to mention, even the same school year) and she really didn’t want to deal with the swarm of girls that often surrounded him during break.

It was actually a teacher who came to mind after that. Once again, if Mizuki’s suggestions were worth something, Kuron was also an idol. And he looked fairly reasonable and quite capable, from what she could tell from a student’s perspective and a handful of glances in the halls, so he definitely seemed like the best candidate for her little predicament.

She didn’t like asking for help or advice in the slightest, but desperate situations called for desperate measures. Having decided to wait until the very end of the day, a little after the bell rang and most people had already fled their classrooms, Ryo made a beeline to his desk and finally posed the question, extremely mindful of keeping the right level of politeness while making her point as clear as possible.

“Sensei. If you have some free time, may I ask for some advice? It’s about my job. Or rather, about a song I’m currently working on. I could really use a professional’s opinion on it.”

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[ psa ]

hi! i'm unsure as to who's still active ish now but just in case: i'm officially back at my rp/interaction era! ♪(´▽｀) as long as you're willing to deal with slow responses i'm here with my two girls looking for trouble or whatever so drop an ask, a dm or whatever works best for you! mutuals... this is your once in a blue moon chance...

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★ [ rp / kuron ]

featuring: @theshiningidols-koukuron ( @mukami-kuron-mrsadisticcat ) about: after reading through kuron's profile i confirmed they do have a few things in common: cats and music ! so i had to use at least part of it ^^

If one asked Ryo, she wouldn’t really call herself shy. An introvert? Maybe. But she wasn’t shy: she simply liked to consciously avoid interactions that wouldn’t lead anywhere, which in a school setting meant most of the small talk students could ever bring themselves to start with her was often met with strong disinterest.

However, there were exactly two exceptions to where she would definitely show interest: either they talked about something she cared about (most of the time, that meant music) or she started the conversation herself.

In the current case, a wonderful combination of both exceptions at the same time, said interest wasn’t necessarily all pure hearted…

It had all started with a stupid proposition from one of her contacts at a certain agency she often did freelance work for. “Make an idol song”, swiftly followed by “you’re good at making music, right? It can’t be too hard but if you can’t do it, we’ll find someone else.” And for some reason, that little jab at her skills as a composer was all it had taken for her to accept jumping head on into a genre she didn’t even have the first clue about. No. Was “idol music” even a genre…?

Prideful as she was, Ryo couldn’t accept the possibility that she had bit off more than she could chew and was dangerously determined to perfectly fulfill that request no matter what. Trying to tackle the situation in the most reasonable way she could come up with, research felt like the natural first step.

And what better way to research than asking someone who worked in that exact same industry? A certain someone with pink hair and an addiction to fashion magazines and social media had been quick to point out to Kou, but Ryo had almost immediately turned down the suggestion. They weren’t even in the same class (not to mention, even the same school year) and she really didn’t want to deal with the swarm of girls that often surrounded him during break.

It was actually a teacher who came to mind after that. Once again, if Mizuki’s suggestions were worth something, Kuron was also an idol. And he looked fairly reasonable and quite capable, from what she could tell from a student’s perspective and a handful of glances in the halls, so he definitely seemed like the best candidate for her little predicament.

She didn’t like asking for help or advice in the slightest, but desperate situations called for desperate measures. Having decided to wait until the very end of the day, a little after the bell rang and most people had already fled their classrooms, Ryo made a beeline to his desk and finally posed the question, extremely mindful of keeping the right level of politeness while making her point as clear as possible.

“Sensei. If you have some free time, may I ask for some advice? It’s about my job. Or rather, about a song I’m currently working on. I could really use a professional’s opinion on it.”

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Do you have any ibuprofen?

tw: gore under the cut

that's not her arm 🫀

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THE SILLIES

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“𝑰’𝒎 𝒃𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒅, 𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒅, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒑𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆.

𝑵𝒐𝒘, 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝔤𝔦𝔣𝔱 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔱𝔞𝔦𝔫 𝒎𝒆.”

—ℋ𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 ℬ𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝒹𝒶𝓎 ℳ𝓊𝓀𝒶𝓂𝒾 𝒦𝓊𝓇ℴ𝓃🎂 (²⁰/⁶)

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“𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒇𝒖𝒍—

𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝔰𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔱 𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝔣𝔢𝔞𝔯 𝒃𝒆𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒔𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒆.”

—ℋ𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 ℬ𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝒹𝒶𝓎 ℳ𝓊𝓀𝒶𝓂𝒾 𝒦𝓊𝓇ℴ𝓃🎂 (²⁰/⁶)

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"𝑨𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓, 𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝔟𝔬𝔲𝔮𝔲𝔢𝔱 𝒐𝒇 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔰 𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅.

𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆—𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆, 𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆𝒓𝒄𝒚 𝒘𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒓𝒊𝒃𝒃𝒐𝒏?”

—ℋ𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 ℬ𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝒹𝒶𝓎 ℳ𝓊𝓀𝒶𝓂𝒾 𝒦𝓊𝓇ℴ𝓃🎂 (²⁰/⁶)

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if you hadn't seen him before, now you have 💖

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Lazy fuck who just sucked blood immediately takes a nap

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it's father's day in jp so i ended up drawing saori & yuu again ❤️ they undoubtedly take after their dad oops

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★ [ on ryo's own charm point ]

word count: 624 tldr: some very random musings/analysis on how ryo, while incredibly perceptive most of the time, is the most oblivious creature in the planet to her own charms... i need to see her flustered over some genuine compliments on her looks </3

Ryo not realizing her own charm is the cutest thing for everyone but her.

While she doesn’t have bad self-esteem and is quite confident in her own skills and talents that she has worked extremely hard on, her looks are an entirely different topic. Somewhere down the road, the idea that she looks "average" got ingrained in her mind and she keeps clinging to it even though it wasn’t true back then and most definitely isn’t true now, but is what comes natural to her.

During her childhood, she ran into quite a few bad experiences over looking too unusual, too foreign. Since everyone in her town and her family had dark eyes and straight, black hair and she looked nothing like them, it created an additional barrier between them as she tried to fit in, only making the differences just a little more glaring.

As time went on and she learned more about the world beside her comfort zone, she sort of gave up and accepted she couldn’t do that much about her looks and would rather make the best of what she has.

Ryo wholeheartedly believes she is pretty in the sense all girls are pretty, not having considered anything past that point because what even is past that point? She is taller than most (Japanese) girls her age, blue eyes are still considered a bit of a rarity and her hair is most definitely quite the statement piece, but who says that is necessarily prettier? Who says she should be considered prettier than, say, someone who looks the exact opposite to her?

Delving into this a little more, her personal image of beauty ties in with power. And she has absolutely none, no agency whatsoever and no way to make her own choices with her current situation as it stands, meaning even if she wanted to be beautiful she would first need to become more powerful and independent.

This is also related to her own image as perceived by other people. Ryo is confident but not necessarily arrogant, like one might guess at first glance. People simply assume that, since she is fairly quiet and good-looking, she likes to look at people over the shoulder and has this sort of ice princess image, especially at school. 

But deep down, she is surprisingly down to earth. People simply come with their own preconceptions on what she must be like so they simply stare from a distance, believing she is beautiful but in some sort of unattainable kind of way. Almost unreal, inhuman. Just like you would look at a celebrity from the sidelines: you don’t expect them to ever talk to you but just looking at them is enough.

This all creates an interesting situation when being complimented, where her first reaction is to assume the other person is straight up lying to get something from her, which will more often than not annoy her quite a bit over trying to use cheap tricks on her. Ryo will either ignore compliments or brush them off and change the topic, so you need to be just a little pushy for her to realize that this is indeed a genuine compliment.

Something special happens after passing the friendship threshold, a point where she might be (occasionally) willing to listen to those sorts of things. When realization hits her that she is seen as beautiful and might be cute after all, her gap moe shows and it is the most adorable thing, just a few seconds of quiet embarrassment and a little “Oh. Oh.” kind of situation. The dere before the tsun, because she will get frustrated and annoyed all the same. 

No one ever told her she was beautiful, so she simply never realized.

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this is what i'm currently working on ^^ ryo's hair is massive and keeps getting longer and more complicated every time i draw it....

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behold: a tomato

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i've been writing a lot (and i mean a lot) lately to let off some steam and now i've found myself with quite a few pages i want to post even if it's just to scream into the void ^^

i've been considering moving it somewhere where the reading experience might be nicer, so i'm open to ideas... idk what the stance with posting ocxcanon stuff in ao3 is sooo for now i'm keeping things in here

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♠Diabolik Lovers Evildoer ♦

I'm tooooo late with this but finally I'm posting my part of the Collab 😩 i forgor dhjsjd I'm so sorry

Thanks again to @reina.sakamaki

For organizing and providing the templates for this collab! Evildoer it's one of my favorite merch line ❤️🔥

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tell you what i've been obsessing bad over DL again (like it has ever left my mind in the past 10 ish years lol) but i very much don't have the time to do anything about it and it's eating me alive </3