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MOVED!

I am now @wayuptothelight !!

I decided I didn’t wanna delete my main blog right now, but I do want a fresh start. SO I made an entirely NEW ACCOUNT and my healthblr is now my main :) I’m also gonna try to like...be organized?? Maybe???????? Something like that. 

This will still stay up and everything, I’ll just pretty much be permanently logged out. It’ll also cut down on how much mindless scrolling I trap myself in since the dash will be ultra curated (where many see a dead dash I see a calm morning!) so I may just get the app back on so I can put up personal photos. We...will see. 

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Getting ready for a lil evening stretch. Are you into yoga? Aww miss my @feetuptrainer from back home. I’m finally able to do headstand- sirasana 😂✌️, thanks #feetup :). Using my trainer since 5 month now and couldn’t have more fun doing all those new and great headstand poses 😍. xX • • • • • #plantbased #yogagirl #picoftheday #blogger_de #stretching #strongnotskinny #yogaspiration #stretching #fitfam #flexibility #happy #wanderlust #yogi #passionpassport #berlin #healthyliving #goodvibes #fitfam #yogaislife #create #mobility #veganpower #healthyliving #sport #love #balance #mindfulness

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got 2 pairs of workout capris (there are 2 pairs of leggings I know I’m getting rid of off the top of my head), and two tops for work. I’m really digging short sleeve button ups, keeps me feeling fairly professional while not Dying on my afternoon walk. My office lets you wear pretty much anything as long as it isn’t revealing or smelly, so even though I’m 28 I haven’t had to really cultivate a Young Professional(tm) Aesthetique(tm). For like a year I pretty much lived in athleisure because I was doing yoga every workday except for friday (ironically on Fridays I tend to dress better than other days since we’re usually going out immediately after), to give you a sense of the chill level. So I never really needed to grow up in my wardrobe but now I’m itchy and idk how to dress like a more polished version of myself. I really like my sense of style, but I also know it makes me look approximately 5 years younger than I am. I’m still sorrrrtaaaa reeling from that conversation at a party when I was talking about work and someone asked if it was an internship >_< 

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I haven’t felt as much need to unload on here since installing Pacifica (thank you @armsintheair !!!!!) and it’s been helping me track my mood and journal more consistently. Because of my cyclothymia I end up with some pretty odd modd combinations by the end of the day. I can also keep track of my habits and set reminders which is awesome. 

I had a lot of fun at Bodyvibe! There was a huge range of ages and shape so I immediately felt comfortable. I did have some dance class flashbacks on some of the steps. I reminded myself the point is to move, not to do it perfectly, and so I just kept going. It was an hour long class I kept in peak zone for 12 minutes and pretty much all the rest (except the first couple minutes) had me in cardio. It was really fun and my quads are feeling it when I go up stairs, but other than that not much soreness. I did a short arm circuit on the weight machine while I waited for the previous class to let out, and I over did it a tiny bit so my elbows are real sore. It would have been fine, but I didn’t realize how much arm work would do with the resistance bands! I’m going back tomorrow :)

In looking for an outfit to wear (covers everything but still breatheable and yes, of course, cute. first impressions!) I realized I hate most of my workout clothes, either because they don’t fit right (so why are they still in the basket, in the way of the things that do) or aren’t seasonal. SO I;m picking up a couple of capris and some tops. Gonna take a load of stuff to Plato’s Closet and throw in the very gently used pieces and probably donate the others that I don’t like. I’m not too surprised at all this considering I am having the exact same struggle with my main wardrobe, but less about cut and more about it not being my style anymore. I’ve been adding pieces and fast and I subtract them so my next donation load will feature a bit of personal shopping as well I think.

I like keeping this blog, but I’m getting really tired of tumblr in general. I am a firm believer in curating your own experience, but I’ve been on here so long (seven years) I’ve made awesome bonds and they just really start to add up! Maybe a following purge will help. I wish I could just make this my main. I have a good deal of followers on my regular account though, so I’m not just gonna be like “surprise this is a health blog now”. I still find it fairly useful for news but not quite as much, I just visit different sites and continue to talk about it (almost ceaselessly) with friends. I deleted the app so it’s a pain in the ass to upload personal photos and fitbit screenshots. Maybe I will just remake and only follow mental/physical health blogs. It is way easier to connect with folks when the main blog isn’t so obviously non-health (I have mutuals and followers with issues about this stuff so I try really hard to keep it separate so no one feels uncomfortable). Regret over deletion probably last like, an hour? Hmm. I feel like I’m being a little dramatic, but there’s a lot of stuff on my main I really like, and I don;t wanna lose it all. Maybe just stay signed off and make a brand shiny new account with a different log in, so then I have [hannah montana voice] the bessssttt of both worlds

I’m considering doing a health ig because it is easier to switch and it is also now the only social media app I have on my phone. Unless you count Pinterest. Which I do not. (seriously, delete the fb app, your life will improve so much)(so will your data use). DO any of yall have fitness/health IG in addition to your main account? Do you think it help connect to others, or just like an additional stress? I’m not interested in followers but I also don’t want to feel like I’m shoutinginto the void. Things to mull over. 

I thought we had a party this weekend, but it turns out we don;t, so we’re hitting a show based purely on how cool the street poster is. I can’t even make out most of the names, so you know its gonna be a good time, and we’re gonna hang with a pal I haven’t seen in a hot minute. I feel like I’m rambling? But anyway, hi, hello, how are ya

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i was gonna do solo work tonight but im gonna go to a fitness class instead :) 

it’s called Bodyvibe(tm) and my instinct is to eye roll but it’s categorized under “quality of life” (as opposed to shaping and weight loss) so it should be a good start to help me gauge how intense these classes are. It’s described as “an energizing cross training class that blends cardio, balance, strength and flexibility”. And honestly all of them have pretty silly names to me.

The gym we signed up for STILL isn’t open (was supposed to open Memorial Day Weekend) and they dont have an ETA but they sent out an e-mail that in the mean time anyone who already signed up can use the satellite locations for free. One of the big reasons we decided to sign up, other than the company discount, was that 2 of the locations (and the only oen with a pool!) are like 3 minutes from our house. Pumped!

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Let’s Stop Using Sore Muscles as a Badge of Honor

Yeah, we’ve all reveled in the “hurts so good” aches and pains that come in the hours and days following our workouts. But here’s the thing: Sore muscles aren’t necessarily a sign of a great workout. 

… if you’re constantly dealing with DOMS, it’s possible that you’re trying new and different workouts every time that you hit the gym, which, in the end, can shortchange your results. Fitness results—it doesn’t matter if we are talking increased speed, more muscle, less fat, or better heart health—need consistency.

Read the entire article here.

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My tummy doesn’t have to be cute. It holds my internal organs. My thighs don’t have to “crush men’s skulls”. I use them to carry myself. My stretch marks don’t have to be tiger stripes I earned. They came when I grew.

Stop.

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Alia Shawkat photographed by Carlotta Guerrero for Nylon Magazine, December/January 2017.

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how insidious to make young girls buy hundreds of dollars worth of makeup, to force them to read up on its theory, to make them practice it for hours in order to escape mockery, to make them feel safe only when performing this hyper femininity, and then to even have the audacity to package it in feminist language so that they firmly believe it sets them free.

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i uninstalled my tumblr app and the ONLY downside is not being able to upload things as easily. i’m glad it’s off my phone, but there are gonna be EVEN FEWER personal photos on here

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i really wish you could turn off calories and still track food on fitbit. i guess i could just do a paper jurnal but having it all in one thing to be able to see “this day I ate like this, and had this kind of energy” in one app. 

Anyway, back to food tracking for the next week because alcohol and junk food have been sneaking up again, and I don’t snack or drink nearly as much when I log. Obviously if I am (actually hungry and experiencing negative side effects like brain fog or headache) hungry between meals I’ll have something to tide me over, but when I make my meals big and nutritionally competent enough I don’t need between meal supplementation. Everyone is different, so if 4-6 small meals or between meal snacks are for you, that’s awesome! But my intuitive eating is best when I’m fully satiated by a meal. We don’t have too too much in July (2, possibly 3 shows and only one party) so I can really dedicate to my energy to being active. The gym we signed up for STILL isn’t open, but we’re allowed to use another location until it does, so we’re checking it out tomorrow! Tonight we’re watering on the farm, possibly swinging by that park we like, and then I’m cooking up a storm.

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Plan 6/26-6/30

Breakfasts: Omurice bowl (1/2 c rice, 2 eggs)

Lunches: ~4 oz. oven roasted turkey, 1c baby romaine, 1 c broccoli slaw, 1 tbsp. Tessamae’s green goddess, 1 pink lady apple

Dinner: Monday & Tuesday: Chicken satay lettuce cups (chicken breast and thigh, onion, collards, peanut sauce, romaine hearts

Wednesday & Thursday: Shakshouka with cauliflower rice

Friday: Homemade pizza with lots of veggies

Exercise: M/W: Ab and legs T/H: 60 min cardio, 30 min weight circuit (arms) F: Community yoga

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i went to an amazing wedding on Saturday and got to see one of my college besties marry the love of his life! Caught up with people I haven’t seen in a while, met some cool new folks, and even though there was a good deal of dri nking I kept good composure and don’t have any cringe moments. Like I rarely if ever full on embarrass myself, but because of my anxiety it’s hard for me to walk away from conversations feeling 100% confident or not second guessing everything. I’ve noticed that it’s really starting to subside in general, but I’m especially proud of Saturday because strangers and alcohol tend to exacerbate that nagging feeling.

Two usually very stressful things happened in the last week--my debit card and phone were lost on separate occasions. That would usually result in panic, or at the very least anxiety, but both times I was just oddly calm and took care of it. Both were recovered just fine, and I didn’t have to cancel anything. Even two months ago I don’t think I would have been able to stay so calm about it all. 

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i like the multiverse theory because there are giant hamsters playing basketball somewhere out there. i also dislike the multiverse theory because there’s a world where the competition went to their heads and they forgot to have fun

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