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Sometimes I feel like I’m faking my ed because I see everyone on here loosing like 6 lbs in a week and i’m here like, ‘why can’t I get a grip and be more in control of my eating!!!

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The good thing about being fat is that literally everyone is thinspo, even if they're just a few pounds less :'-)

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Oh why did you start slipping back into your ED?

Definitely not because my boyfriend had pictures saved on the “hidden” portion of his photo album of a hot skinny girl he use to know. Definitely not that at all.

“Thought I deleted them” my ass.

“I don’t know why I saved them” bitch ass.

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Tips for successful restriction!

Eat a wide range of foods including vegetables, fats, sugar, and protein 

Do it every day

Listen to your body and give it what it needs to survive

You deserve nourishment, peace, comfort, and joy

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when u measure ur waist and the 24” looks like a 124”

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me telling my mom to stop buying cheese because i can't stop eating it (ahem...binging it with bread)

my aunt: you can just not eat it

me:

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No one can convince me that it is possible to lose weight on 1200-1500 calories a day. I tried doing that for over a year and all I did was gain. I exercised and did my absolute best to eat healthy. I call ✨bullshit✨

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God, eating feels so bad I'm gonna cry

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Dieting

Everytime i lose weight it feels like my soul is being cleansed from everything.

Fact: Dieting is more effective then praying

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The less I eat, the more I lose

The more I lose, the thinner I get

The thinner I get, the more I accept myself

The more I accept myself, the happier I’ll be

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Im back at my starting weight. I just checked, and I literally saw my numbers. I was so shocked and I felt so stupid, ever since I let myself to be able to eat without caring ive gaining literally 20 pounds. I was 118, now im 140. Holy shoot im actually really upset with myself. Well, im back here again.

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new rules for April

at least 5 litres of water a day

at least 50 sumo squats, leg raises, Russian twists and

try to only eat foods that are rich in protein

no eating before done with all school work

at least 1/2 litre of green tea or oolong (that counts in the 5 litre)

if I eat something that has sugar, flour or too much carbs in it, then immediate purge!!! (laxes or throwing up)

try to drink water equally throughout the day

do the 30 day fitness stuff

no going above 700 calories

if I have to eat food that had unknown stats then I eat the smallest amount I can without looking weird

trying to convince my mother that she doesn't have to cook, I will find something to eat (yeah right)

at least 1 fast day a week

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for every rb ill starve one hour

pllzzz help meee

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jealousy

imagine being that girl.

that girl that other girls stare at. we’ve all been there. you look at their small waist and tiny wrists, their slim legs and skinny arms, and wish desperately to be like them.

you see them at lunch, laughing with their friends, hair pulled back from their face accentuating sharp cheekbones, scoop-necked top showing off prominent collarbones. even in the harsh cafeteria light, they look ethereal, like a fairy. you watch as she grasps a plastic fork with her slender fingers, picking up a bit of salad and eating it. you watch as lunch ends and her salad is unfinished, and you watch as she neatly package it up for later. you watch, and you wish.

you sit near them in science class, and watch as she flirts effortlessly with the cute guy who has been assigned to be her lab partner. she leans forward on the table, lab goggles perched on her pert nose, big eyes wide and full of laughter, skinny jeans with a gap in the back because even with a belt they’re much too big for her small frame. she has a question, and you watch with jealousy as she walks up to the teacher and you get a side view of her impossibly flat stomach and bony elbows.

you see their pictures on social media, likes and comments flooding in. each post looks effortlessly beautiful, a highlights reel of them and their friends having the time of their lives- parties and football games and sleepovers and after-school hangouts. you stare at each picture and wish you could be her.

you can be her.

all it will take is a little diligence, a little self-control, a little bit of you pushing past your limits.

do this, and you’ll get the reward. do this, and you’ll be skinny. do this, and you’ll be that girl.

can you do it?

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Is it just me or does anyone else feel like not getting your period because of an ED is like a huugee accomplishment ??