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I know you're worried that you won't get better, but trust me, in time you will. All these horrible thoughts won't last forever. And just know that I'll be here to support you through it.

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I've always been a worrier, but I'll always be a warrior.

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How's your life?

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THANK YOU.

June Day 19

This is not the end but a new beginning. So, I, Anabelle G. Salazar, think that this is the time to tell how grateful I am doing this blog, on how it helps me cope, and made my day-to-day life more valid and meaningful. I've learned a lot about myself, discover new things about others, and look at life differently. This was the best thing I've done this semester. I was able to know my own emotions and validate them and taking time to reframe my thoughts. Indeed, a whole range of emotions and experience I've been through, it was an awesome ride.

Looking back, when I am starting this blog, I thought I wouldn't be able to do it everyday. I just thought about doing it for the sake of passing a requirement. But as days goes by, and when evening comes, I think that I've someone to tell how was my day and let out the emotions I've felt and share the happy and sad moments. This blog serves as my on screen diary, it helps me to cope for this semester, for the uncertainties in life and different adversities. And I think that it listen to my stories, to my worries, and to the thoughts that I have in my head, it really helps me overcome the challenges that I have encountered, and am continuously encountering aside from both my family, friends and of course, God.

I am thankful for what I've been through, for the people who became part of my journey and for our instructors this sem. I am grateful for my family and friends. I am thankful because I appreciate the simple things, and able to see life positively. Also, I am grateful for the choices I've made, yes, I have made many wrong decisions but thinking of choosing my course is something I won't regret. I'm gonna live my life meaningful and find my real purpose.

I am headed again to another life transition but no matter how many transitions or changes I go through, I hold onto this desire of mine to always keep on going, not just for myself, but also growing for other people.

I AM GRATEFUL. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

Salazar, Anabelle G.

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On Being Fearless

June Day 18

Semester is about to end, time really flies so fast. It's been a roller coaster ride of emotions. This sem has been a challenge but look, I've come this far. I am thankful for all the stress, for the sleepless nights, for the deadlines and all we've been through. It's a step to move forward with those lessons in school and in life in facing another chapter. I want to hug my college friends for making it through, even we had so much battles to fight. I am also thankful for our instructors, for their understanding, efforts and considerations. They made online class easier and meaningful. I am thankful to God, for the guidance and strengths he gives, for showing light when all I can see is darkness.

Belle, 2021

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Power Through Tough Days

June Day 17

I am thankful for my parents, for their efforts, sacrifices and time for making our live easier. I hope that one day, I can make them proud of my achievements in life. I hope that all my efforts will be paid off so I can help and provide for my parents. I am thankful for the tough days because I can see how life really is, that suffering is a part of life. I am grateful for the strength to get through it, and go on with my day with still a sense of purpose.

Belle, 2021

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Odd Comfort of the Past

June Day 16

It's eleven in evening, as I recall what happened today, all I did was remembered the past. The past with a happy moments that made me felt joy at the same time sadness. The people who I used to be with, that now it's hard for me to approach them, to ask them if they're doing well. Those memories I've reminisce is such a treasure, it's the thing I can look back and hold on. I hope that they also remember the good memories as we go on our different lives.

I am thankful for the memories I've made with different people, with the different place and with a different emotions. I am glad that I was able to remember it and gives an odd comfort. I am thankful for the days like this, a day where I remember the worth remembering for.

Belle, 2021

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Control Over Different Things

June Day 15

What matters is doing the things within your control to make a difference. Today is a good day, and I claim that the following days will be more meaningful and productive. I am thankful for everything that happened.

Belle, 2021

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You Matter

June Day 14

Back then, I really wished that somebody would be there to guide me on how to handle situations. I don’t want other people to experience the hardships I’ve been through. I know I am far on what I've plan to do or what God's plan has for me, all I know is that these experiences are constant reminders that I was ordinary, that I still mattered. Given the situation of this pandemic, we’re forced to face ourselves in the confines of our own home. We ask how we’re supposed to get through the day and how we’re going to continue the things we want to do. Asking that in itself can elicit a lot of feelings, thoughts, and even doubts. It teaches us to take care of ourselves and to bring awareness to yourself and other people. It’s also about remembering that we are not alone because there’s always other people. There will be times where we should ask for help because there will always be others who would want to help out. We go through a lot in our different lives but, know that there's always who would want to reach out for us.

Belle, 2021

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Eventually

June Day 13

I am disappointed to myself. I think I am not doing enough and I am being complacent. I hate it about myself that things become hard and I am struggling to engage again into something I like and love. I think I was distracted for a while. I am not doing my best and just to say that I survived. I am lacking in every aspect I see. It saddens me that I am at this phase again in my life. I know that sooner or later, it's going to be okay and I will understand pretty sure what is this trying to teach me.

Belle, 2021

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Trying to Uplift

June Day 12

I am thankful for the kdrama I watched, for the words of encouragement and for this day.

Belle, 2021

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Entering the World of Probabilities

June Day 11

Back to reality, basically, in the online world. We had an exam today, it's so hard and am still grasping that I need to do again online course work after the trip we had. I am a bit pressured for our exam but I am praying that all of us will pass this and move forward. I am thankful for the courage and for being able to control my feelings. I am also thankful that we had a time to think.

Belle, 2021

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Fleeting Moment

June Day 10

It was the second day of our trip and it was the day we got home. We enjoyed this day. I am thankful for the simplicity, for the food we eat, and again, for being safe. I am thankful for the burger and fries of mcdo. I am happy.

Belle, 2021

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Magnificent Day

June Day 9

Indeed, a day spent well. I had fun, I am happy and I am at ease. It's so nice to see a new environment, seeing people with different walks of life, feeling the cold breeze of air, and hearing the sound of the ocean waves. Today was awesome, I bond with my cousins, played, took a pictures and just sit and drink some coffee featuring the night sky and the flow of the sea. I am thankful for this day that I got to experience this kind of moment and see the beautiful creation of God. For the laughter I shared with the people around me, for the smiles that touched my heart and see the goodness of everything. I am grateful that I spent time with myself and manage to joined this trip. It was worth choosing for. I am thankful to God for the guidance that we arrived in our destination safe and well. Also, for the nature, for the calmness and the majestic view it shows.

Belle, 2021

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As Keen As Mustard

June Day 8

Day before our Bolinao trip, everyone is excited and looking forward for it. I decided to join them even I have still classes, I just need to finish it and pass it before we go tomorrow. Sleepless nights are approaching hahaha. I am happy at the same time I am pressured because of the requirements I need to pass. I am going to enjoy tomorrows trip so I'm motivated to finish anything hahaha. I am thankful for something to look forward to, for the positive emotions I am feeling and for the simple joy that coming in my way.

Belle, 2021

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Stuck in Reverse

June Day 7

I don't feel anything today, it feels like I'm just waiting to pass this day. There's something that my mind was thinking, I realized that I haven't spoken to some of my friends in almost a couple of months. I hope they know I still love and care for them. It's just really really hard to be a person right now and I lack social interest. I am still thankful for this day, for remembering my friends, for reminiscing good memories and for just surviving this day.

Belle, 2021

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Thankful

June Day 6

I am thankful for today's food, for the water, for the blue sky and for the oxygen.

Belle, 2021