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idk who still actually follows this blog but i moved maia to @arzodae w/ some changes

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me: “i don’t intend on returning for s6″ me, 3 days later: “but what if i return for s6″

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#v: a catalogue of modern mistakes [modern] and Other Things That Ruined My Life: An Autobiography by stellarstolen

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I’ve been silent for too long and can no longer bear to keep this inside: @indiebryan is a good person and deserves many good things.

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@azhefa 

The day I started posting about #azhefa was the best day of my life.

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u right

I’d be nothing without @indiebryan.

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me, jumping back on this blog just bc i know the good memes are gonna be here

surprise, fellow kids. I bet you thought you’d seen the last of stellarstolen

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A way overdue life update

Okay, obviously I haven’t been writing much if at all lately. I’m a full time film student at the moment and I’ve spent the first 3 months of 2019 drowning in production design mockups and pre-production on 2 films + my weekends have been crewing on other films & location scouting (or just literally trying to storyboard and production design and not drown). I’ve barely had time to even write anything outside of Tumblr I have about 6 pilot ideas I want to write for my portfolio but I just do not have the time or energy by the time I get home. On top of all of this, Tumblr makes my anxiety worse so I’ve been trying to stay away for my mental health.

Because of this, I’ve decided that moving forward I’m putting all my blogs on an indefinite hiatus except for @burnedkingdom my ASOIAF multimuse, which I’ve recently revived on a low-activity hopefully low-stress basis, if you’re seeing this message & still wanna write hmu over there or on discord ( brea#5926 ). I’m notoriously terrible at overcommitting myself but I do miss the rpc and don’t want to totally remove myself from it. For a while I was considering deleting all my blogs but honestly I’ve worked too hard on them and I don’t want to do that.

I’m going to be reblogging this same note across all my blogs, but I just wanted to throw out some specific notes for a few of my accs:

For my mutuals over @stellarstolen: I love Maia a whole tone, but for some reason she’s the muse that gives me the worse anxiety and being on her dash for five minutes brings my mood way down. The last 2 years I’ve come back for the new season, however I have no intention of doing that this year. Maybe I’ll be back in the future (I love you all too much to stay away forever), but I really just have too much on my plate to deal with Maia right now. Thank you guys for being amazing (special shout out to Lenee & Yuffie <3333 ) it’s been a wild ride.

@ all my WW babies on @codeminded: WOW OK some of y’all *coughtrip&haleycough* have been around since Emily was Beth and then watched me fight becoming canon complaint (and eventually fail at that too lmaooo). I love you guys and our gc, I’ll probably be back with s3 rolls around but right now I’m still too disillusioned w/ s2 but ily.

The mutlifandom crossover mess that is @arzodae: I honestly love every character on this blog & how no one knows what books they’re from but it’s FINE I’m fine. I don’t doubt that I’ll be back on this blog at some point, ya girl spent too much time on her crossover verse bios to not revive it. For my SOA/Mayans bbys, I’ll be back for Mayans s2 I already know it, my Hanna muse is always hanging around and Liana rly never got a chance before I peaced out. @ my marvel bbys: I literally love my marvel verses so much I know I’m gonna end up showing back up for those too. ALSO @ my ASOIAF babes: if you like Cyra’s ASOIAF verse: I’ve moved it over to @burnedkingdom & changed her into Jalani (but it’s literally the same backstory as Cyra’s verse just expanded).

Lastly @silvcrbow & @incruentum: I never rly got going on these two as much as I would have wanted but I also loveeee all the people I met on them. Even if we never got to write together as much as I would have wanted I love u all.

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Support your local starving artists !!

The crowdfunding page for the short film I’m directing just launched! We’d love your help but even if you can’t contribute you can follow the campaign page & share the link. 

“Youth” follows Maverick, a boy who has just been diagnosed with optic atrophy, and his best friend, Nate, who’s determined to help him check everything off his bucket list first. Mav learns he’s not alone and Nate brings a little more light into his life.

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hiya friends,      let’s talk about rp burnout,      because it’s a real thing and at some point i think we all experience it.   ⸺  rp burnout. aka you’re tired of this place, this culture, some of the people, the way things are treated, the drama, everything really, but ( like so many of us ) you don’t necessarily want to give up and give in and stop writing because you love it. so what do you do? well lo and behold, friends, i am not an expert. but i do have some advice that i’ve found to work,

step away. it doesn’t necessarily have to be a formal “hiatus” but if you’re not here, and you’re not writing or you don’t find yourself wanting to be here, don’t be here. you don’t owe anyone replies. you don’t owe anyone anything. you owe yourself everything.

go hang out outside for a little while listen to music or a podcast and go for a walk / run.

do some of those chores around the house that you’ve been neglecting, cease the endless dash scrolling and the obsessive ‘i need to keep up with every trend and bit of news’

step back. step away. take a breather. 

reconnect with what you love about your muse or rp in general. you like making blogs? make a blog, you don’t have to promo it or write on it or anything, if you just like the process of setting something up, have a space for you to do that.

be selective with your replies and your threads. is there something you like writing right now? write it. fuck the whole system. write what you want with who you want.

stop stressing about appearances and the whole ‘is what i’m doing going to irritate someone’ because you know what? it shouldn’t matter and it doesn’t matter if susie from susieland doesn’t like that you’re writing this or posting too much on the dash. it has literally zero impact on susie’s life. susie can unfollow.

this. is. a. website. it has zero power over you. it doesn’t have to have power over you. do not give it the power over you.

it’s super easy to be addicted to tumblr, believe me, i know, cuz i am. but once you take some time to ground yourself in things that you actually enjoy, and that make you feel good about yourself and the world around you, you can get back to a place where you can actually enjoy being here. 

do the things that you enjoy ! because you enjoy them ! because that’s what you’re here for ! that’s what you deserve ! 

this is a hobby. remember that this is supposed to be a hobby. 

⸺ and if you have things that you’ve found to work that you want to add, please add ! 

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                                              “  men fight wars                                                                                   women win them. “                                           multimuse || indie || private || as penned by brea

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💀    SONS   OF   ANARCHY   SENTENCE   PROMPTS   !  

*  A VARIETY & MIXTURE OF SONS OF ANARCHY PROMPTS, SEASON 1 & 2. CHANGE PRONOUNS AS NEEDED / FITTING .

❝ It ain’t easy being king. ❞

❝ How the hell you want me to get it out of there? ❞

❝ It’s gonna be different this time. This time I have my baby to live for. ❞

❝ I’ve made several gestures of friendship. He’s declined every one. ❞

❝ I got to tell you something, man. I mean it could be bad. ❞

❝ Let’s go into the photo booth. ❞

❝ You bring him to me first. I’ll pay anything you want. ❞

❝ I don’t want your money. ❞

❝ What? What do you want? You want to bond? ❞

❝ Don’t ever sit on another man’s bike, asshole… ❞

❝ I step outside for five minutes, you can’t watch him? ❞

❝ That love’s gonna kill me. ❞

❝ If I was to ask for some comfort, would you be about that? ❞

❝ The lie and the truth had to feel the same. ❞

❝ I said distract them, not scar them for life.  ❞

❝ So you stole an ambulance? ❞

❝ It was first love bullshit. I grew up. I got over it. It’s time you got over it too. ❞

❝ Somebody hurts your baby, you never get over it. ❞

❝ At least we know one good thing’s gonna happen today, huh? ❞

❝ You can’t change the rules, or it all goes to hell. ❞

❝ Just wondering what digging up dirt on old girlfriends gets you? ❞

❝ If I’m gonna stay, I need to know the truth. ❞

❝ You know why I run away from shit all the time? Cause I don’t trust anyone. ❞

❝ The right ones stay…wrong ones disappear. ❞

❝ When you want the truth, you come to me. ❞

❝ Why do you think I chose you for my second? Huh? ❞

❝ How do you know what I’m dealing with? ❞

❝ Everything caves under the weight of greed. ❞

❝ There’s never a good time for me to be around my kids. ❞

❝ What makes you think this would land on me? ❞

❝ Pull the trigger, man. That’s the only way this leather’s coming off my back. ❞

❝ I banished you, took what’s yours. These are the facts. You do as I say. ❞

❝ You remember that the next time you try to twist the truth to kill one of us.. ❞

❝ Whatever happened to 10-on-10 with no weapons? ❞

❝ Maybe they believe you, but maybe they don’t. ❞

❝ Truth is I know I’m going to hell. ❞

❝ Take him out? That means like kill him? ❞

❝ Can you at least pretend I’m a cop sometimes? ❞

❝ We could have our own little uniforms and hats. ❞

❝ To survive, you had to master the art of perjury. ❞

❝ You know all about us, and we know all about you. ❞

❝ Look, only way this relationship works is two of us together, or one of us dead. ❞

❝ The older I get, the more I realize that age doesn’t bring wisdom. ❞

❝ I’m not any smarter than I was 30 years ago. ❞

❝ I’ve just grown too tired to juggle the lies and hide the fears. ❞

❝ Self-awareness doesn’t reveal my indiscretions; exhaustion does. ❞

❝ I have this condition. I’m not even aware of it. ❞

❝ You’re gonna gag. I’m gonna laugh. We’ll be best friends forever. ❞

❝ We’re not nineteen years old anymore. ❞

❝ His solution is always an equal mix of might and right. ❞

❝ I’m trying to run a business here. ❞

❝ Come on; let me give you a quick hand job. ❞

❝ I’ll gut them dead bitches. I’ll flush their bellies with bleach. ❞

❝ I’ve been through hell, landed on my feet. ❞

❝ And I’m telling you, “brother”…giving me some more time? ❞

❝ I need for you to show me a little respect, and give me a few more days for delivery. ❞

❝ Don’t give a shit about history or respect. This is about business, old man. ❞

❝ He run into it or hit a tree while it was giving him head? ❞

❝ Most of us were not violent by nature. ❞

❝ How the hell you want me to get it out of there? ❞

❝ Blood and bullets are the rule of law. ❞

❝ We all had our problems with authority, but none of us were sociopaths. ❞

❝ I will not look the other way, [Name]. Just a friendly heads up. ❞

❝ I am going to do anything I have to do to protect him. ❞

❝ Some men cave under that weight. Others abuse the momentum. ❞

❝ The true outlaw finds balance between passion in his heart and reason in his mind. ❞

❝ I, you know-we can try to have a decent conversation. ❞

❝ You want to bond? You want to get closer? Fine. ❞

❝ I am not happy about being here either.. ❞

❝ I think quite a few have been there before. ❞

❝ Well I’m glad your ass is feeling loved. ❞

❝ What? What? Too soon for that joke? ❞

❝ Like I don’t have enough shit oozing out of my ears. ❞

❝ Nobody knows the truth in or outside the club; especially you. ❞

❝ I’m serious. I think it’s infected. ❞

❝ You guys gave it your best shot.  ❞

❝ I’m threatening you. ❞    

❝ That’s why the people who buy ‘em are, like, state and federal agencies. ❞    

❝ Oh, uh, just something like a small hospital or something. ❞    

❝ Why don’t you just steal, like, a fire engine? ❞  

❝ I’m his mother, and until I am dead and cold, I am going to do anything I have to do to protect him. ❞  

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i should write this as like a drabble, but we all know i won’t so... here’s how maia spent s5--

after getting back from space this hoe was like “obviously i must be angsty & need to save my friends by being a spy.” enter, cal malikov (@razborka​), leader of house of shadows, a russian crime family, very unthrilled with the idea of letting diyoza boss them around. cal’s dead thief girlfriend’s backstory bears a suspicious resemblance to maia’s modern crime verse gives maia an idea of just how to wiggle her way into the shadow’s inner circle.

the shadows inner circle consists of kenna o’brien (irish angel, ended up on eligius iv bc the sick girl she was a nanny for died on her watch & she was blamed for it, accidentally ended up a shadow by necessity), ella garipova (hacker princess, all around badass, literally mass murdered 60 people so she could join the eligius iv mission with her brother, highkey a crazy bitch), gavril garipov (ella’s baby brother, dumbass, very soft, only ended up on eligius iv bc the us didn’t want to extradite him back to russia bc they’re #pettylittlebitches), alexander ivanov (russian expat who grew up in berlin, only joined the shadows bc of the garipovs but he’s a ride or die, ella’s boyfriend who helped with aforementioned murder spree & followed her to space), & peter nowak (polish-german & alex’s best friend, ella’s other boyfriend we love an ot3 who also followed her to space, tiny softie who ella & alex would kill to protect)

eventually maia gains the squad’s trust, and begins working out a plan to turn the shadows against diyoza, with the goal of taking the valley for themselves. however this all goes to shit after maia let’s slip she knows about kaja (cal’s ex), who he’s never once mentioned to anyone, not even the rest of the inner circle. he realizes she’s a shitty spy & kicks her out. which ultimately ends up with her almost getting herself killed what’s new? but cal saves her sorry ass & aligns the shadows with diyoza in the showdown

now, at this point, maia’s old friends think she’s sleeping with the enemy they’re not wrong but like she was doing it for a reason, the shadows know she was playing them the whole time, & diyoza thinks she’s a shadow, a group she still doesn’t rly trust. so you know. everybody hates maia a sitcom, coming soon to a tv near you. but like she’s also still useful & the shadows (+ maia) get sent to scout one of the entrances to the valley cue the ominous music

mccreary’s shits attack wow who would’ve guessed and peter gets caught in the crossfire rip my soft kiddo who died before i could flush out his backstory. naturally ella flips the fuck out bc that’s her bf & blames maia for everything, but kenna shuts that shit down real quick & says the shadows would have had to pick sides eventually. they were never getting out of this without either mccreary or diyoza as an ally. kenna drops all the truth tea about how ella blames herself for dragging her three boys into this shit when they rly should’ve just stayed in berlin & been a soft lil family i love causing my characters pain. 

cal has it bad for maia which is so unfortunate bc she’s literally the most emotionally unavailable person in the world, so he forgives her for being a spy. but maia goes off on a suicide mission to get everyone into the valley. until big surprise cal brings the shadows to help i genuinely don’t remember what happened in this part of the finale i’m sorry i just know everyone...somehow ended up in the valley...and the shadows...did things... ALAS, ella has had enough with maia’s bullshit & blames her for peter’s death. so she shoots maia, bc as previously mentioned: ella is a crazy bitch. everybody shoots maia, that should actually be the name of the sitcom. but cal jumps in front her & takes the bullet himself. alex mr. coldhearted kills ella. naturally. bc we love angst. and like you don’t come back from shooting the boss, so um rip.

bby boy lives he was supposed to die but i got attached and just could not bring myself to kill him so i killed ella & peter instead & the remaining inner circle decide to make maia a shadow & kenna gives her a bomb ass stiletto knife tattoo overlaid with the virgo constellation bc maia is a space hoe

and that’s what you missed on glee

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Kelsey as Monica, in Yellowstone.

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me: “idk when i’ll be back on this blog idk where maia went” maia, materializing out of thin air: “surprise bitch bet you thought you’d seen the last of me”

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octavia: ( @skaireapcr )

Post s5 starter @stellarstolen​

125 years has passed. Eden never healed meaning it should’ve been the end of all. However a saviour managed to find a way for the human race to continue thriving. Staring out of the glass to witness the second sun rise, there tears begin to fall knowing Monty and Harper will not roam the new planet. Her attention drifts away from the view noticing a presence near her. Wiping away the tears promptly as she steps away from the window, there she glance at the woman’s tattoo on her forearm. “You think everyone will be finally at peace once we get down there?”  

         It still hadn’t quite sunk in, over a century had passed while they were asleep. The universe had gone on without them, and they were still stuck thinking about the sins of yesterday. Maia stepped toward the window, where the other girl was looking down at the new planet below.

         She rubbed the stiletto knife on her forearm self consciously. Just yesterday, at least the way it felt, she’d watched a friend take a bullet for her. She’d been inducted into a group she’d once considered the enemy. “Who knows? But crazier shit has happened. We’re all that’s left, might as well work together, yeah?”