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I know I need to see a therapist I want to but I can't and no one cares. No one gives a shit. Nothing I do or say matters.

I guess this is the only place I can go to now. Everywhere else I'm either ignored or people feel manipulated by responding to me. I don't think they're wrong. I'd rather really shout into the void than let go only to make others feel worse.

The self-loathing is back and I know I won't be anything more than mediocre in anything I do. I've hit my mid-30s and I have nothing to show for it except my survival, like a cockroach amongst the human race. The people I love are dead or far away and I can't say or do anything about it and nothing makes me feel any better and my life beyond them is not at all worth their absence.

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I guess this is the only place I can go to now. Everywhere else I'm either ignored or people feel manipulated by responding to me. I don't think they're wrong. I'd rather really shout into the void than let go only to make others feel worse.

The self-loathing is back and I know I won't be anything more than mediocre in anything I do. I've hit my mid-30s and I have nothing to show for it except my survival, like a cockroach amongst the human race. The people I love are dead or far away and I can't say or do anything about it and nothing makes me feel any better and my life beyond them is not at all worth their absence.

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My mutuals when I talk to be honest

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I'm not about to argue the finer points of Southern culture with anyone, because I can accept that I was born and raised in the hot flames of a dumpster fire, but I'll tell you gotdamned commie Yankees one thing: I'd rather be dead in the hallowed halls of a Cook Out than alive in an In-N-Out

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It's been a while since I posted anything ffxiv related in a while. Maybe I'll do it again soon.

Twitter bad

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In Brazil people were like this waiting to see across the spiderverse

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Palomares, Spain. In 1966 two American military airplanes collided in flight and 4 thermonuclear bombs fell to the ground. Two of them released 20kg Plutonium. Today, 57 years later, the US government has promised to remove the contaminated soil and carry it to America.

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sorry hyetta…

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Old Fanta sign por Seb Por Flickr: I saw this sign in a small lane in Sapporo, Hokkaido, Japan.

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Pitcher Plants - Sarracenia xharperi (Sarracenia flava x Sarracenia minor), Francis Marion National Forest, Berkeley County, South Carolina, USA

Photo by Alan Cressler

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“It's just a small handful of ibuprofen, and it will help the words fade away."

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