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~Some Days Stay Gold Forever~

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Stevie lay upon his bed doing the same thing, simply staring at the ceiling. How had he ended up back here? This was the last place he had wanted to come. He couldn't let Penny be involved in the world of hurt that seemed to encircled him. With a good shower and sleep Stevie had sobered up and realized just how bad the situation was. He loved Penny, there wasn't anything he wouldn't do for her but staying away just seemed to be the best thing to ensure her safety. With a sigh he closed his eyes placing his hands over each of his eyes and simply lied there.

Penny laid in her bed, staring up at the ceiling. Stevie was finally home. He was finally within arms reach again. But for how long? The question lingered for awhile yet she had no answer. There were so many things she wanted to ask him but so little time.

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Thanks love.

..Yeah, come on babe.

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Can we  just.. go home?

You can, I’ll be with you every step of the way. You won’t hurt me. I know you won’t. Nightmares?

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What if I can't? What if I can't get through this? Maybe leaving you without an explanation was better than coming back and doing this... Penny I don't want to lose you, but... but I cannot stand the thought of me hurting you. I've had too many nightmares and instincts I just- 

I don’t care what you did to your loft.. I only care about you! You distancing yourself from me has hurt me more than you could’ve ever hurt me.. Of course I can, but I am here for you. We can get through this. You can get through this.

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Because Penny... did you see what I did to my loft? How we wouldn't speak for days on end? I was so afraid of hurting you I decided the only way to do it was distance myself. If I wasn't near you I couldn't hurt you. Can't you see what I've done to myself? {looks down at himself} I couldn't do this to you. I love you Penny, I- I... I don't want to see you stoop to what I have become.

Then why didn’t you stay? Why did you leave me like my parents did? You are perfect Evie.. I didn’t leave you, you left me..

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Penny... it's not like that at all. You're more than worthy of anyone. I on the other hand..

..Is that a problem? I mean I didn’t really know when you were going to come back and I obviously wasn’t enough for you to stay.. I wasn’t enough for anyone.. 

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Oh.

No.. I wouldn’t do that. I packed them up and put them inside your room.

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Yeah... are you telling me you threw out everything of mine?

So, pretty much all you have is yourself and what is in your pockets?

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Well it's pretty much what's left at your house I think. Other than that you're looking at what I got.

Not that I know of. Did you throw a lot of things away?

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No, it wasn't at a junk yard was it?

So, it was junk to you? ..

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Book.. books arne't meant to be eaten...

No, some of them were my father’s. Was the scrapbook I got you just a piece of paper?

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But aren't they just hunks of wood? 

So you can keep people alive with you. Like my ships? Having them keeps my father alive and with me.

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Yeah, that crap just in houses and stuff. Like, why do people need it?

I did, but you weren’t this bad.. Or I didn’t think you were. Sentimental junk?

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And how do you not know I didn't do this before? That night my loft was torn apart? After a few hits turns out it was just me tearing the place to shreds. To think it was just me tearing all my sentimental junk to pieces.

No you aren’t. You aren’t the Stevie I used to know. Because you are high as a kite that’s why. -grabs his hand and pulls him towards her car- I’m sorry.

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Come on, it'll go back to normal. I'm back to my old self, I don't see why we can't get back to what we were. *puppy dog face again because*

I don’t think anything could make things go back to the way they were. I wish i could though. Don’t give me that look please.

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Not even just one more? Come on, it can be fun. It'll be just like old times. *puppy dog face here*

No.. Let’s just get you home. -goes to grab his head, but pulls back and starts to walk towards her car-