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Dysphoria (2025)

This is a repaint of an illustration I first posted right here on this account over a decade ago when I first transitioned. I did this for TDOV this year as a sort of 'then vs now' for myself more than anything. A lot has changed in a decade. I've changed.

A decade ago visibility felt like liberation, but today it feels like a target. A decade ago politicians made a lot of promises to us, and today they can't run away from us fast enough. A decade ago I was crashing out in a dysphoria spiral. Today, in spite of everything, I'm at peace with myself.

It's Pride Month in the States and the Trans community is going through it. Between the Skrmetti decision and the threat of HR1 stripping care from Trans people of ALL ages on Medicaid and ACA plans, Trans people need support more than ever. So I'm making this illustration available as a print in my shop (link in bio) and 100% of the proceeds will be donated to Point of Pride, an organization dedicated to providing financial aid for transition care. I'll post receipts of funds donated at the end of the month. I'm aiming to raise at least $2000, as that's the amount needed to cover 12 months of telehealth services, prescription medications, lab work, and more for at least one trans person in need of HRT. Transition care really IS life saving, it saved MY life. I wouldn't have lived to make any of the art that people have told me they love so much. My whole portfolio, all my work over the years, none of it would exist. If my art has ever meant anything to you, please, help.

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Honestly so glad I transitioned because it made my experience with bisexuality so much more freeing, in a sense? Looking back I really did not like the trappings of a standard "straight relationship setup" that I had with women and because of that I looked for men as an escape and as a way to properly express the other half of my sexuality. It felt like there were a lot of standards and expectations I had to meet when I was dating cishet women as a (at the time) cis bi guy and I never saw those same trappings when I looked at male/male relationships. I didn't know the words for it at the time but I desperately craved specifically queer affection, with all its weirdness and lack of rules. Now that I've transitioned it feels 1. So much nicer to be with others in a body I actually love being in and 2. I realize I don't and never had to adhere to those trappings I was so afraid of!! I can just be Mason in a Relationship first and foremost and all the perceived "right" ways of dating women are out the door. Now none of that matters!! I like them all in equal fashion. It's very liberating to no longer carry those biases and external expectations.

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🌹Valentine's tryst⚔️

Tip jar

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maybe i should learn esperanto for real (<- she says for the tenth billlionth time)

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Next week on The Unexplored Places...

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SHOT AND CHASER page 201 is up.

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Everyone shut up! It’s the ten year anniversary

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alternate punchline was "it's because they're too hard to draw"

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I can’t stop thinking about crocodiles for some reason so here’s some cool pictures I found of probably the second largest one in captivity, his name is Utan:

isn’t he beautiful

listen to the SOUND when he bites

and that’s not even a real power bite, that’s mostly just heavy bone falling on heavy bone from his jaws and the air rushing out from between them

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embroidery from peacockandpinecones my friends and I have been losing our minds over all morning.

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Australia’s version of the onion has just character assassinated all you gays

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trailer drop tomorrow.....

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New Crowmance update on Webtoon!

READ IT HERE.

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