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in regards to your last post.. i totally get it, honestly. it’s easier to put on a mask than show your real self to the world ❤️ i had just been thinking recently about sending in an ask, asking about if you’d ever finish that story about richie and his stupid big dick and such! i reread recently and it was never finished. it felt like they were so close to getting together too. i understand if you wouldn’t want to update though cus it’s so old fjdndj

hi anon this was very sweet and did make me feel a lot better. honestly i was thinking about making a post like this for a while and i should’ve done it earlier but also... idk it was just easier to abandon this blog and the fandom ahahaha

MAN. untouched is still very important to me. it’s been forever and most likely i’m not sure if i’ll ever finish it. i’m still in school but i might look over it again during winter break ahaha just because i haven’t taken a look at that word doc in a while. if there are still people who are interested in updates i might consider posting a few chapters so they at least hook up lmao but yes who knows! thanks a lot for your message

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hello idk how many of you are still active but i’ve been thinking about this for months and decided to finally say something. no need to reply or whatever i just wanted to... explain myself

tbh i fucked up with this blog

this was a side blog i made because on my main blog people were so angry and loud about shipping the it kids and i was in a weird place in my real life AND fandom life so when i made a secret side blog (not following anyone from my old blog) i decided to... reinvent myself. “emma” and details about her life were carefully twisted from my original life and made different enough so i appeared like a different person

the thing is i didn’t expect my stozier stuff to get so big. i never expected to make friends or have so much fun in this fandom! and 2018 was a weird time for me so it was easy to ignore my main blog and other friends and focus all my energy over here

but i couldn’t keep it up forever. when i lost interest in it i kinda faded away from this blog but i also lost contact with my friends. i regret it bc as much as i wasn’t honest about certain things about myself, i did really enjoy my time here, talking to swamp squad and hal and my other mutuals. i was just... too paranoid to have this part of shipping associated with me and i was so focused on hiding who i really was, “emma” started to feel exhausting to keep up. 

maybe emma was actually a more honest version of myself but either way, i shouldn’t have gone about it the way i did. so for that i’m really sorry. even if i had never updated my fics again, it was fucked up to abandon my friends. i am sincerely sorry for that. 

but more than anything, thank to anyone who was ever my friend on here, who told me nice things about my writing, who listened to me when i was happy or sad. i’m sorry, and thank you. if you’re reading this, i hope you’re well.

sincerely miss emma stonedzier!

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Stanley Uris is a member of every ornithology meme group he can find online and posts these sort of memes constantly, you can't change my mind

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man i used to write a lot of fucking porn huh

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stanley uris gets overwhelmed by the complicated feelings that grow in his chest over his best friend. he doesn’t know how to quantify or explain the depth of the emotion that bubbles over whenever he looks at richard tozier. he tries to put a lid over it, hiding his affection with sharp words and annoyances, but to his horror, richie sees right through him. richie doesn’t put any distance between them like stan hopes, like stan wants, like stan needs (that’s a lie, that’s a lie, he would crumble to pieces if richie ever left him alone) and those feelings just keep on forming, growing tangled roots and heavy blooms.

what do i do with all of this? stan wants to ask richie. it’s too much. it’s overflowing. an ocean of emotion, a forest of feelings. he’s running out of room for the boxes that keep his feelings hidden. what does he do with all of it?

if stan ever got the courage to tell richie, he would just laugh, and take stan’s hands in his (gently because he doesn’t want to scare him. richie knows better than anyone that stan is a skittish, nervous creature, so much like the birds that he loves)

you give it to me. richie would tell him. you give it to me, and i’ll keep it safe.

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stenbroughzier is basically stan getting manhandled by two tall dumbasses

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The Goldfinch (2019) dir. John Crowley

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emma helwlo i missed u its a delight to see u back

HEWWO!!! i missed everyone here ;~;

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Hi! I just finished reading all of untouched amd it’s genuinely one of the best stozier fics on ao3 I’ve read! And I’ve gone through the whole tag. This isn’t a message meant to pressure you but to let you know that people are still reading and loving your work it’s just that good. I definitely know how hard writing is since I experience long breaks but it’s not a skill that just atrophies from disuse. For me, at least, it’s like riding a bike you never really forget just need a warm up.

man idk i haven’t been actively writing for MONTHS and it’s rough. it’s hard to even get a little bit going i miss the days when i was actively writing all the time i’m too tired and busy for that! but thank you for all your kind words. it does really shock me that ppl like my horny fic enough to keep reading it even when i didn’t update. but i have been slowly working on a chapter and hopefully will progress soon. thank you!

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just wanna clarify in my tags when i said "im begging u t continue" i just meant tht irt as sooo good i screamed and immediately searched for morer but you are and never will be under ANY obligation to continue anyhting you jsut dont have the energy or muse for have a nice day

ahaha aw thank you for the clarification! don’t worry comments like dont rly bother me bc if i don’t have the energy/time or muse i won’t write, trust me 

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wait loml are you back

kinda!!!!!! i’m still sorta on and off with activity but i’m here!!! c: HELLO!!!!!!!

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🏖🏖🏖

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It's funny to think that Stan was worried about being left behind, Eddie didn't want to walk out of neibolt alone but at the end the one alone is...

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the last year my love life has been a mess and a disaster now my single ass is about to project everything into fanfiction

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Nah but fr we miss you bitch

omg ): i feel so loved wtf!!!

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You say that as if interest for Untouched actually does dwindle??? Exsqueeze me???

I’M IN HONEST N GENUINE SHOCK TRUST ME