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The One That Got Away

“Maybe I’ll see you in another life, if this one wasn’t enough.”

— Florence + the Machine / How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful

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December 26, 2019

I thought I already accept everything. But I was wrong. Seeing you in my dream last night made me realize that after the decsicion you've made which also made my heart break, is that I still love you. Honestly, I cried. A lot. I felt every single drop of my tears.

I always tell myself:

"You'll be okay."

"You got this okay?"

"Let it be."

Yes I know that it will be okay, soon. But why? Why is there a reason this to happen? I don't understand.

To what happened? I used to blame myself. I can't help it, I'm sorry.

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"You fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time"

-Unknown

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My Ideal Guy

When I was in grade 7, I usually look up to the guys who are handsome, have beautiful eyes, tall and a basketball player. I don't know why but when I see a guy like that or if i'm with that kind of guy, I feel very protected and cool at the same time.

Grade 8 to grade 9 years, I think I'm matured enough when talking about love. I didn't have that kind of guy when i was in grade 7 anymore. I always think that there is someone in stored for me and that is the reason why I started praying for "the one".

I always tell God that I'll wait for the right time and all that I want is a simple guy who's honest, kind, gentleman, understanding and can get along with my weirdness and can handle my mood swings.

Being handsome is on the last list because physical appearance is not a basis. I just want my "the one" will stay no matter how hard, how complicated our problem is, I wanted him to understand and let our love and Christ's guidance lead us.