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Uma vez eu escutei “ninguém fica com você, porque ninguém te suporta. Já percebeu que todo mundo te larga?” Sim, eu já percebi sim. Eu pensei. Eu sei. Ninguém me suporta. Ninguém me aguenta. Todo mundo larga minha mão. Mas, todo mundo também pede para segurar ela mais uma vez, depois de ter me largado. E eu dou, eu deixo segurar de novo. No entanto, a minha mão que não consegue mais segurar a de quem uma vez me soltou quando eu precisava entrelaçar meus dedos nos seus uma vez mais.

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I can’t even imagine that in the next three days I’ll be boarding to my Paris flight. It’s my very first time traveling all by myself, with my own money, doing everything I want it. Someday I heard from my ex boyfriend, that I just travel because of him, and he was wrong, because I don’t need nobody in my life to tell me that I’m not good enough to all the things that I’d desire, you know?

Anyway, I’ll post everything about my new journey in here. And you know what? I’m one of the most incredible woman’s I’ve met. I deserve to be happy.

Ihuuuuul

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Hey guysss, I’m back. And brandnews are coming. I just pass through an abusive relationship, and what happened? Do you want to guess it? Ok I’ll tell you, i tried to kill myself, a lot of times. But at least, I’ve started to treat my mental health and I’m much better now.

Got a promotion in my job, and now, planing a trip through Europe. France and Spain. All by myself, I’m too proud you know? Oh, and I almost forgot, I broke up with that guy. And if someday you’ll read this, go fucking yourself.

I think that I’m getting the control of my life again, and so happy for it. I’ll try to post more.

Xoxo 😘

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Sorry guys to be so much time without post my weight update, it was because I was with some personal issues, you know? Depression is always an old friend.

But now 21/8 my weight update are: 54,7

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Weight update:

8/5: 56,9

8/6: 56,6

8/7: 56,1

8/8: 55,9

8/9: 55,7

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I just made 1 hour of jumping jack, let’s see if tomorrow I’ll see some difference on scales. Excited for my next weight update post. 🤞🏻😻

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Weight Update:

8/5: 56,9

8/6: 56,6

8/7: 56,1

8/8: 55,9

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Weight Update:

8/5: 56,9

8/6: 56,6

8/7: 56,1

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Weight update:

8/5: 56,9

8/6: 56,6

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When I think that I’m finally achieving the end of these dark days. I start to cry again.

It’s exhausting.

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Weight update:

8/5: 56.9

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That is always my mistake, I’m always thinking that will be the end if someone don’t want to be with me. If someone do not like me anymore. If you don’t worry about me. It’s because I am not a good person, I am not a good girl, everybody gets bored with me. I am ugly. Why this guy loves me? I don’t have nothing interesting. This shouldn’t be the big deal, and I spend so much time thinking about these situations. It’s so exhausting.

It’s so hard for me learn this. It’s always happens to me. Always. I am the cause for this. I should think different, love me more.

I don’t have to spend hours of my time concerned myself about this subject. If you don’t want to be with me, why should I want be with you?

You aren’t the only person in the world who can be with me. I am awesome and I don’t need that you love me, because I love myself. I’ll repeat these words to myself, until become my only truth.

No I’m thinking that if you don’t miss me. So that’s your loss. And I’ll repeat it to myself, until become truth.

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I decided that I’ll post an update of my weight everyday here, to help me to not give up on the loss weight. 🤞🏻

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Hopeless

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Someday I’ll look to those days that I am living right now, and think “hey girl you get it, you achieved your goals, get throughout everyting was letting you so deeply down. Look who you are now.” And I’ll feel so blessed.

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I really want to know if someday I’ll get everything that I wish

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Dealing with all this by myself.