strayingawayy

[strayingawayy]

it is crazy how much i have been missing you come back please 🥺

aaaaa sweetheart hello <333 things have been busy and will continue to be busy but im considering that i'll just continue to be absent for periods of time instead of abandoning everything entirely because i do miss this space and after hitting 1k ...it feels really sad to have to let it go so :(((

[strayingawayy]

can we just talk about how skilled of a writer you are?🧿

no but we can talk about how big of a sweetheart you are <333

[strayingawayy]

[strayingawayy]

i think i will shoot my shot while you're still active and ask this- can you like truly yearn for someone you've never met?

yeah, you absolutely can. like ive said, often times it’s not the person themselves you’re yearning for, but what they represent or what part of you reflects in them.

it’s not about knowing them—it’s about feeling like, crazily but somehow, they already know you. and that kind of yearning can be just as real, maybe even deeper, because it’s built on imagination and possibility. because hey, you don't know if it'll happen so might as well let your imagination fly wings and shit over your head in the process. but anyway , yeah this kind of yearning...it fills the spaces reality hasn’t reached yet. strange, no?

[strayingawayy]

despite the inactivity you've all gotten me to this absolutely phenomenal fucking milestone thank you thank you thank you 😭😭😭🙏

[strayingawayy]

important announcement !

hi everyone :) there's been a lot of ups and downs going on in my life. some of which you all hear about, some of which you don't. but i'm here with good news this time don't worry.

i'll be finishing my ba soon and the last couple semesters will be demanding (something i'm ready for). but i'm very happy to share that i've gotten a chance to work with a theatre and performing arts company full time after finishing up my degree which is something i'm so incredibly happy about like, you guys have no clue 🥺 it has been my biggest passion since i was little.

my band and i also plan on doing our best and performing as we'll be going in separate directions after this year. that being said, i have a lot to cover up in life for the rest of the year in terms of work, studies, finances, etc.

the decision was tough and i had been thinking about it for a few weeks since the company mailed me a while ago but i've officially decided to go on a hiatus. having said that, it's not like i'm not going to finish the 'love me two times' series or a couple of drafts i plan on posting soon. however, i will not be responding to asks for a solid while and will probably come online only to post fics, that too rarely and will probably do so only till this month. (happy pride lmaoo)

however !! if anyone is interested in talking and generally messing around and having fun, here are some of my socials where you can see me at:

discord: sho1310

twt (the username is such bc deni demanded)

if anyone wants to reach out and talk, we can interact here. i'll try my best to respond. thank you all for nearly 1k followers btw! i think i'll get some unfollows after this but oh well ❤️‍🩹

stay safe, stay alive

—sho <3

[strayingawayy]

Sho is off limits, I'm his type.

Stay away or I will bite.

-❄️

the competition is fierce...i like it

[strayingawayy]

sho sho's type is me 🤭

-deni

the wife in question 😌

[strayingawayy]

"i blinked and suddenly i had a valentine"

...the one where you're not quite sure how and why hyunjin loves you, but he does, and that's all you really need

it's the way he just loves you like it's normal. you don't know how to describe the feeling but it makes your eyes well up with tears everytime.

with your limited experience of love, you've never once had someone love you back as strongly as you loved them. that was until you met hyunjin.

the way he kisses your forehead before he puts down your cup of coffee on the table, the way he smiles at you every morning as he grabs you and pulls you over him, the way he silently adjusts your rings and earrings whenever you're rambling on about something that happened at work, the way he sends you random messages throughout the day about how grateful he is to have you in his life, the way he always kisses your face to wake you up in time for work and ensures you still have fifteen minutes to cuddle, the way he silently rests his head on your shoulder as he stands behind you, hands caressing your hips and soft kisses being planted on your neck.

you're not used to it. all your life, you've been the one giving and giving and giving until your glass was empty and the moment you asked for any sense of reassurance or comfort, you were told to be too much.

but with hyunjin, for the first time, it's like you're finally able to get back the love you always wanted. and this time it's not even a small portion, hwang hyunjin loves you like the world was to end tonight and he'd have no regrets when it comes to you.

so it takes him by surprise when he slips his hands into yours one sunday afternoon, the grey clouds outside admirers of your love and leans down to press a kiss against your lips only to see fat tears rolling down your cheeks.

he immediately lets go of your hand to grab the sleeve of his sweatshirt and wipe your tears away, afraid he had done something wrong.

but he's even more confused when you bury your face in his chest and cling to him tightly as you cry your heart out. hyunjin doesn't know what he's done to make you so upset and he's almost afraid to hug you back but seeing the way you hold onto him, he wraps his own arms around you before cautiously kissing the top of your head.

"you-you don't have to-i've never- i love you hyune." you cry out.

and hyunjin can only smile softly as he gathers you in his arms and takes you to the couch to get you comfortable on his lap.

he wishes he could tell you. but he can't. words fail him when he needs them most. but he knows you understand, he knows you can feel how his heart bursts from love for you.

so he'll write about it someday, maybe paint too.

because he just hopes you know that even if the earth burns to ashes, hwang hyunjin will never stop loving you.

[strayingawayy]

What's your type? >_<

honestly, my type is pretty simple. if we vibe on the same music, that’s a big deal for me—like, music’s how i connect with people. and i really need someone who gets my sense of humour, especially the sarcasm, or else it just gets lost and awkward. and kindness… that’s huge. not performatively kind, but genuinely, unconditionnally kind. your kindess can't be based on your convenience. that’s what actually sticks with me.

[strayingawayy]

Screaming cause I didn't start actually writing till February ALSO HOW ARE YOU SHO :)

oh my god !!!!! congratulations my princess this absolutely phenomenal !! im not surprised one bit <333 you deserve them all and many more

[strayingawayy]

This how I look at you sometimes:

wondering how you're looking at me because of the conversation we're having rn....mom pick me up im scared

[strayingawayy]

This how I look at you most of the time :

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

[strayingawayy]

my main is @tearsofthegods if anyone is interested lolol

[strayingawayy]

you were missed cause I was inactive💔 ALSO can i be in the tag list plspslpslspskspslpzlzlzlzpzlzl

awwww ☹️💗 i hope you're doing good, sweetheart and yes of course ! tagging you right away. how's your day going? <3

[strayingawayy]

bro I just. I just love you so much bro. man I really do man. bro.

sorry guys. my wife is very strict.

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how i look at all my moots btw