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[straylife97]

LEE FELIX ONE SHOT-

Fluff and maybe a hint of Angst but only if you squint really hard.

Tears flooded my eyesight as I closed the taxi door. This was it. This was his first step to forever. I just didn’t think it would happen so fast. It seems like only yesterday we were laying down at the park in the middle of the night, star gazing.

I looked over at him as he sat down beside me, taking my hand

I’m scared." He said, drying his tears with his free hand.

I opened my mouth to talk, but nothing came out. I couldn’t talk. The pain hit me and reality took over the moment. “This is what you’ve always wanted, Lixie. This is your dreams. Don’t let it go.” I whispered.

He looked into my eyes, kissing me and paying the taxi driver. We got the suitcases from the trunk and went into the airport. His flight was leaving in fifteen mintues. Which gave me about ten to say my final goodbyes.

I hugged Felix, embracing his touch. “You’re gonna be huge Lix, I know you are. But promise me, no matter how big you get, never forget about me.”

"Y/N…"

I looked up, my eyes puffy and blood shot red from all the crying.

"It’s impossible to forget your first love."

I sobbed a bit, as his hand touched the back of my head, bringing me to his chest. We cried together. I never wanted to let him go. I wanted him to live his dreams, but him living his dreams meant leaving. And I didn’t know how long I could be without him. We’ve been best friends since we were in diapers and he’s been my boyfriend for three years ago. Sure, we were a little immature, but three years is a long time. When I was with Felix, I felt safe. I felt okay. Without him it’s like my world would come crashing down. He was the only one who understood me; the only one who tried. He made my days brighter and my nights merrier. No one was gonna be able to replace him. He was my first love, and God knows when I’ll find a guy like him again.

"I love you Y/N. I want you to know that." He said, his voice cracking in the middle of the sentence.

I nodded, barely able to look him in the eyes. “I don’t want you to leave, Lix. I won’t be able to make it.”

"Here." He took off his necklace and put it on me. "Every time you feel sad, take this in your hands and remember all the things we did together."

I looked at the necklace, then looked up at him.

"I’m just a phone call away. Call me when ever you want to talk. I promise I’ll be there."

A voice came on the loud speakers, saying that his flight was leaving in five minutes.

“You have to go. I want this as much as you do." Trying to convince myself

I couldn’t take it. I wouldn’t be able to make it. We were the only ones cryng in the airport. No one knew our story. No one would ever understand how much we meant to each other. He was me. We were one. And now, we were broken.

"I love you." He said, his voice shaking.

"I love you too." I replied, crying harder with each word said.

"Remember that we’re infinite."

I nodded, smiling a bit through the pain.

He kissed my lips slowly. “Okay?”

"Okay." I replied, quoting our favorite book.

Felix cupped my face and kissed me once last time before he left. His tongue slowly brushed against mine and we hugged each other tightly. I felt him start to let go and we both cried, watching him leave. He turned around, blowing a kiss and wiping his tears. I waved goodbye at him, looking into his eyes for the last time.

-YEARS LATER-

“…KPOP group Stray Kids are coming to Sydney on their world tour. We are excited to welcome home Bang Chan and Lee Felix for an..”

I zoned out after hearing his name again. Felix and I kept in contact for a couple months while he was training, but quickly fell off. I thought I had finally moved on But hearing his name again has brought back so many emotions.

I dropped the coffee I had been making and clutched my heart trying to suppress the growing panic.

“…they will be here for 2 days worth of concerts. Let’s welcome them with warm arms.”

“..Y/n… Y/n.. Y/N YL/N”

“Ye..yeah?” I snap out of it and look over to my coworker.

“Are you okay?”

“Yeah I am, sorry I just zoned out a bit” I grabbed the mop and started to clean up the mess while apologizing to the customer I was helping.

“Wait- isn’t Felix apart of Stray kids? Which means he’s going to be home”

“Please don’t remind me”

“Don’t you wish he’d try to contact you while he’s here?”

“I pray that he doesn’t. He probably doesn’t even remember me anymore”

The next day I have to drag myself out of bed to go to work. “Y/N I HAVE NEWS..and you’re probably not going to be happy about it.”

“What is it..”

“I won front row tickets the first concert tonight… and you’re coming with me…”

“Amanda I swear to god. I. Am. Not. Going.”

“You are be ready by 5, we got sound check as well”

-5 pm-

I’ve been waiting outside my house for 10 minutes when Amanda finally arrived. “Are you seriously wearing that?”

“What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?”

“You’re seriously wearing an oversized t-shirt and leggings and have no makeup on. Do you want Felix to see you and be wowed or what?”

“Uhm not particularly, I hope he doesn’t see me”

“This is not going to do, let’s go” she grabbed my arm and pulled me back into my house and got to work.

“Voilà my work here is done” she stepped back from me and turned me towards a mirror

“Holy Shit Mands, how’d you do all of this in only 10 minutes” I examine my makeup; a very Smokey green cat eye, my complexion glowing and to top it all off a beautiful winged eyeliner. My outfit matched the makeup, black fishnets with a black skater skirt, and a cropped t-shirt.

“I’m magic, now let’s go” we rushed out the door made our way to the venue and then waited until sound check. “OMG OMG OMG ITS HYUNJIN!! Y/N LOOK FELIX IS COMING OVER HERE TOO!” I quickly duck down and lower my face.

“I hope he didn’t see me”

“I think he did but it didn’t seem like he knew it was you.” Ouch that didn’t hurt at all.

“I’m glad” sound check ended and we waited until the concert. It started off amazing, I knew a couple of songs and really enjoyed the music.

“Y/N are you doing okay?”

“Yeah I’m all good, thank you for checking in”

“How is everyone doing tonight?” Screams all around us. “I am so happy to be back home, and I am so grateful that Stay can be here with us” I couldn’t keep my eyes off him, there’s my Lix, but also not my Lix anymore. He’s grown a couple inches, paler and has long blonde hair now. He has changed so much but my heart still beats the same way it used to for him. For my love. I grabbed hold of the necklace he gave me. I haven’t taken it off since the day except to shower. “It feels so good to be back and I can’t wait to be able to spend some time with my family for a few days”

There is no way he’s going to be visiting his family. He’s only going to be across the street from me again. For the first time in forever.

“Y/n..isn’t that the same necklace you have” Amanda pointed to Felix. My heart stopped, my breathing stopped, the whole world stopped in that moment. He bought himself the same necklace.

“I- it- it is.” I broke out into sobs, Han and Lee Know whom were closest to us both looked and mouthed asking if I happened to be okay and I gave them a smile through the tears with a thumbs up. I couldn’t handle it anymore. I got out of the concert as quickly as I could and shot Amanda a text telling her I was fetching a cab home.

Later that night I heard car doors slam shut and screams of happiness. I peaked out of my window and saw him there hugging his mom and sisters. When he pulled away from them I saw his mom gesture towards my house and him turning to look. I quickly threw myself away from the window in time.

“Shit shit shit, what if he come over here?? I need to look somewhat presentable” I still had on my outfit from the concert what was left of my makeup. It was smeared all down my face. When a knock came on the door. “Fuck” I breathed out. As I walked towards the door I tucked the necklace into my shirt to make sure it wasn’t visible. I stood in front of the door for a minute paralyzed until another knock snapped me back into reality. I took a sharp inhale and opened the door.

“It’s been a long time.” There he is. I can still envision the way he looked when he left. I nodded and stepped out of the way for him to come in. “I thought I saw you today, but thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. Mom told me you bought the house off your parents, I’m quite surprised, you always said you wanted to leave and travel.”

“I’m surprised too, I didn’t think I’d want to stay anymore.” We both chuckled

“Not to pry or anything, but why’d you leave the concert crying and in a hurry” I sighed deeply.

“It was just a lot for me to be there.”

“I get it, you were never good with big crowds” I slightly nodded. “What’s that around your neck?”

“Lix no-“ he gently pulled it out from my shirt and examined it like it would break any second.

“You’ve kept it all these years?”

“Of course I did. It was the last thing you gave me.” He gently let it go and I grabbed a hold of it.

“As soon as I got to Korea, I bought myself the same one. There were many nights I cried wanting to come home and I held on to it imagining that you were holding yours at the same time. I swear sometimes I could almost feel it.” I sighed once again.

“Lix I just want to say that I am so proud of you. You’re doing great things out there. I see all the things people say about you, your fans… they really look up to you and say that you are their sunshine. Sometimes I get jealous because you were once my sunshine too and now, you’re theirs.”

“I never stopped thinking about you. When I found out we were coming back home I was so excited to see you, but I didn’t know if you even still lived in the area. I guess I’m lucky.” He pulled me in for a hug and held me. I started to cry. I never thought he’d be back. “I am so sorry I stopped contacting you, I got a new phone a couple months after I got to Korea and lost everything. I couldn’t have social media or I would have reached out that way”

“I- I thought you forgot about me.” He gently lifted my chin and looked me in the eye before slowly moving in to place a soft kiss on my lips.

“It’s impossible to forget your first love”

[straylife97]

LEE FELIX ONE SHOT-

Fluff and maybe a hint of Angst but only if you squint really hard.

Tears flooded my eyesight as I closed the taxi door. This was it. This was his first step to forever. I just didn’t think it would happen so fast. It seems like only yesterday we were laying down at the park in the middle of the night, star gazing.

I looked over at him as he sat down beside me, taking my hand

I’m scared." He said, drying his tears with his free hand.

I opened my mouth to talk, but nothing came out. I couldn’t talk. The pain hit me and reality took over the moment. “This is what you’ve always wanted, Lixie. This is your dreams. Don’t let it go.” I whispered.

He looked into my eyes, kissing me and paying the taxi driver. We got the suitcases from the trunk and went into the airport. His flight was leaving in fifteen mintues. Which gave me about ten to say my final goodbyes.

I hugged Felix, embracing his touch. “You’re gonna be huge Lix, I know you are. But promise me, no matter how big you get, never forget about me.”

"Y/N…"

I looked up, my eyes puffy and blood shot red from all the crying.

"It’s impossible to forget your first love."

I sobbed a bit, as his hand touched the back of my head, bringing me to his chest. We cried together. I never wanted to let him go. I wanted him to live his dreams, but him living his dreams meant leaving. And I didn’t know how long I could be without him. We’ve been best friends since we were in diapers and he’s been my boyfriend for three years ago. Sure, we were a little immature, but three years is a long time. When I was with Felix, I felt safe. I felt okay. Without him it’s like my world would come crashing down. He was the only one who understood me; the only one who tried. He made my days brighter and my nights merrier. No one was gonna be able to replace him. He was my first love, and God knows when I’ll find a guy like him again.

"I love you Y/N. I want you to know that." He said, his voice cracking in the middle of the sentence.

I nodded, barely able to look him in the eyes. “I don’t want you to leave, Lix. I won’t be able to make it.”

"Here." He took off his necklace and put it on me. "Every time you feel sad, take this in your hands and remember all the things we did together."

I looked at the necklace, then looked up at him.

"I’m just a phone call away. Call me when ever you want to talk. I promise I’ll be there."

A voice came on the loud speakers, saying that his flight was leaving in five minutes.

“You have to go. I want this as much as you do." Trying to convince myself

I couldn’t take it. I wouldn’t be able to make it. We were the only ones cryng in the airport. No one knew our story. No one would ever understand how much we meant to each other. He was me. We were one. And now, we were broken.

"I love you." He said, his voice shaking.

"I love you too." I replied, crying harder with each word said.

"Remember that we’re infinite."

I nodded, smiling a bit through the pain.

He kissed my lips slowly. “Okay?”

"Okay." I replied, quoting our favorite book.

Felix cupped my face and kissed me once last time before he left. His tongue slowly brushed against mine and we hugged each other tightly. I felt him start to let go and we both cried, watching him leave. He turned around, blowing a kiss and wiping his tears. I waved goodbye at him, looking into his eyes for the last time.

-YEARS LATER-

“…KPOP group Stray Kids are coming to Sydney on their world tour. We are excited to welcome home Bang Chan and Lee Felix for an..”

I zoned out after hearing his name again. Felix and I kept in contact for a couple months while he was training, but quickly fell off. I thought I had finally moved on But hearing his name again has brought back so many emotions.

I dropped the coffee I had been making and clutched my heart trying to suppress the growing panic.

“…they will be here for 2 days worth of concerts. Let’s welcome them with warm arms.”

“..Y/n… Y/n.. Y/N YL/N”

“Ye..yeah?” I snap out of it and look over to my coworker.

“Are you okay?”

“Yeah I am, sorry I just zoned out a bit” I grabbed the mop and started to clean up the mess while apologizing to the customer I was helping.

“Wait- isn’t Felix apart of Stray kids? Which means he’s going to be home”

“Please don’t remind me”

“Don’t you wish he’d try to contact you while he’s here?”

“I pray that he doesn’t. He probably doesn’t even remember me anymore”

The next day I have to drag myself out of bed to go to work. “Y/N I HAVE NEWS..and you’re probably not going to be happy about it.”

“What is it..”

“I won front row tickets the first concert tonight… and you’re coming with me…”

“Amanda I swear to god. I. Am. Not. Going.”

“You are be ready by 5, we got sound check as well”

-5 pm-

I’ve been waiting outside my house for 10 minutes when Amanda finally arrived. “Are you seriously wearing that?”

“What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?”

“You’re seriously wearing an oversized t-shirt and leggings and have no makeup on. Do you want Felix to see you and be wowed or what?”

“Uhm not particularly, I hope he doesn’t see me”

“This is not going to do, let’s go” she grabbed my arm and pulled me back into my house and got to work.

“Voilà my work here is done” she stepped back from me and turned me towards a mirror

“Holy Shit Mands, how’d you do all of this in only 10 minutes” I examine my makeup; a very Smokey green cat eye, my complexion glowing and to top it all off a beautiful winged eyeliner. My outfit matched the makeup, black fishnets with a black skater skirt, and a cropped t-shirt.

“I’m magic, now let’s go” we rushed out the door made our way to the venue and then waited until sound check. “OMG OMG OMG ITS HYUNJIN!! Y/N LOOK FELIX IS COMING OVER HERE TOO!” I quickly duck down and lower my face.

“I hope he didn’t see me”

“I think he did but it didn’t seem like he knew it was you.” Ouch that didn’t hurt at all.

“I’m glad” sound check ended and we waited until the concert. It started off amazing, I knew a couple of songs and really enjoyed the music.

“Y/N are you doing okay?”

“Yeah I’m all good, thank you for checking in”

“How is everyone doing tonight?” Screams all around us. “I am so happy to be back home, and I am so grateful that Stay can be here with us” I couldn’t keep my eyes off him, there’s my Lix, but also not my Lix anymore. He’s grown a couple inches, paler and has long blonde hair now. He has changed so much but my heart still beats the same way it used to for him. For my love. I grabbed hold of the necklace he gave me. I haven’t taken it off since the day except to shower. “It feels so good to be back and I can’t wait to be able to spend some time with my family for a few days”

There is no way he’s going to be visiting his family. He’s only going to be across the street from me again. For the first time in forever.

“Y/n..isn’t that the same necklace you have” Amanda pointed to Felix. My heart stopped, my breathing stopped, the whole world stopped in that moment. He bought himself the same necklace.

“I- it- it is.” I broke out into sobs, Han and Lee Know whom were closest to us both looked and mouthed asking if I happened to be okay and I gave them a smile through the tears with a thumbs up. I couldn’t handle it anymore. I got out of the concert as quickly as I could and shot Amanda a text telling her I was fetching a cab home.

Later that night I heard car doors slam shut and screams of happiness. I peaked out of my window and saw him there hugging his mom and sisters. When he pulled away from them I saw his mom gesture towards my house and him turning to look. I quickly threw myself away from the window in time.

“Shit shit shit, what if he come over here?? I need to look somewhat presentable” I still had on my outfit from the concert what was left of my makeup. It was smeared all down my face. When a knock came on the door. “Fuck” I breathed out. As I walked towards the door I tucked the necklace into my shirt to make sure it wasn’t visible. I stood in front of the door for a minute paralyzed until another knock snapped me back into reality. I took a sharp inhale and opened the door.

“It’s been a long time.” There he is. I can still envision the way he looked when he left. I nodded and stepped out of the way for him to come in. “I thought I saw you today, but thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. Mom told me you bought the house off your parents, I’m quite surprised, you always said you wanted to leave and travel.”

“I’m surprised too, I didn’t think I’d want to stay anymore.” We both chuckled

“Not to pry or anything, but why’d you leave the concert crying and in a hurry” I sighed deeply.

“It was just a lot for me to be there.”

“I get it, you were never good with big crowds” I slightly nodded. “What’s that around your neck?”

“Lix no-“ he gently pulled it out from my shirt and examined it like it would break any second.

“You’ve kept it all these years?”

“Of course I did. It was the last thing you gave me.” He gently let it go and I grabbed a hold of it.

“As soon as I got to Korea, I bought myself the same one. There were many nights I cried wanting to come home and I held on to it imagining that you were holding yours at the same time. I swear sometimes I could almost feel it.” I sighed once again.

“Lix I just want to say that I am so proud of you. You’re doing great things out there. I see all the things people say about you, your fans… they really look up to you and say that you are their sunshine. Sometimes I get jealous because you were once my sunshine too and now, you’re theirs.”

“I never stopped thinking about you. When I found out we were coming back home I was so excited to see you, but I didn’t know if you even still lived in the area. I guess I’m lucky.” He pulled me in for a hug and held me. I started to cry. I never thought he’d be back. “I am so sorry I stopped contacting you, I got a new phone a couple months after I got to Korea and lost everything. I couldn’t have social media or I would have reached out that way”

“I- I thought you forgot about me.” He gently lifted my chin and looked me in the eye before slowly moving in to place a soft kiss on my lips.

“It’s impossible to forget your first love”

[straylife97]

Hi y’all! I decided to make this into a Stray Kids blog!