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chrisprk‌:

‘’look.’’ he pulls haeju closer by the arm.’’don’t ever feel like you can’t talk to me about someone else just because — you know. i think we will never not love each other but it doesn’t mean we can’t love someone else.’’ if christian could explain what he truly feels for haeju, he would. it is something more than just love, he deeply cares for the other and seeing him hurt by someone or even himself just makes his stomach churn.’’i don’t know the details but maybe this person doesn’t even know they love you back, yet. just give it time, if they do i ’m pretty sure you’ll know sooner or later.’’ christian pouts at what haeju says next. ‘’they probably can’t stand you because you’ve got a better ass than theirs.’’ he is pretty sure that no one at mulberry or in the world finds haeju annoying, and if they do they are probably crazy.’’can we stop talking about what happened? it happened and it’s not your fault. i’m gonna have to spank you for real if you don’t stop. and no, not in a sexual way.’’ he lets out a sigh and brings his middle and index finger together and kisses it and he places them on haeju’s lips.’’you’ve only got one kiss left now,baby.’’ a devilish smile appears on his face, knowing that haeju will start whining and get mad at him.’’i want to kiss you too,haeju. i think i always wanna kiss you but i’m not sure if that’s what you really want right now.’’

"i know chris, i know." haeju replies with a soft nod of his head. "— none of that even matters right now. i just... i want to forget." he breathes out with a sigh. "i will always love you, you do know that right? you were the first person i ever truly loved." the words that used to scare him to admin flow freely from his lips now, no longer afraid to deal with his own feelings. "i'd rather just move on — if that makes any sense. whatever happens, happens. whatever doesn't, doesn't. can't really do anything about it." he shrugs, a giggle following his words at christian's comment. "you say that as if i didn't already know i've got one of the best — if not the best ass in mulberry." haeju smirks, playfully rolling his eyes. "you can't keep giving me empty threats, babe. i'll end up not believing them far sooner than later if you keep that up!" he teases, though there's a pout that forms on his features as the other places the 'kiss' to his lips. "hey! no! that is not fair at all!" he's half tempted to cross his arms and pout even more, but instead he leans against the counter and reaches out to pull christian towards him. "i get more than one or i'm suing. that's final!" the silver-haired male continues, brow raising ever-so. "that is what i want right now." he's more quiet now, slender fingers playing with the sleeve of the other's shirt. "i might be drunk but i know that's what i want." haeju continues, eyes falling towards his own feet as he speaks. "want you." the words come out as something resembling a whisper.

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he hears the other's sigh from the other room, a small grin pulling on the edges of haeju's lips as he continues to busy himself, primping in the mirror until he thinks he's got his silver-toned hair perfect. he can't lie, he's grateful to have a second opinion on his outfits. ( one that comes with little to no judgement of how haeju chose to live his life and why said outfits were constantly needed. ) there was no one better to give him an opinion than jeongmin, that's why he'd asked the other in the first place. now? it just seemed like a regular thing between the two of them. "i'd take offence to that..." haeju starts, revealing himself to the other as he steps out of the bathroom to head towards the couch. "but you've helped me too much for that." he teases, hands on his hips as he does an overly dramatic twirl for the other. "i didn't have a personal stylist. cost too much to tell me things i already knew. to be honest, i just... winged it. but maybe i do like exploiting you and your knowledge." haeju teases with a wink. "it's thursday that i'm dealing with tonight, what do you think i should wear?"

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          draping himself across the velvet couch, jeongmin sighed, feigning annoyance as he waited for haeju to enter the room. he doesn’t know when this became thing, helping the boy dress up pretty for whatever friendly benefactor was going to treat him out tonight. perhaps it started when he found out they paid the rent, or perhaps it was haeju’s cute face that made him warm up to the boy quicker than he had anticipated, as shallow as it sounds. “you know,” jeongmin called out to wherever haeju was, unsure if it was the bathroom or closet, “sometimes i wonder what you did before me. don’t get me wrong, ju, you have taste but having style is the important part. did you have a personal stylist or is it just me you’re exploiting?”  

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hqsooyoung‌:

sooyoung laughs nervously and scoots over, “of course,” she looks up at him, “oh, yes i live there! do you?” sooyoung tried to recall any time she’s seen him at the apartments. weird, sooyoung thought to herself. it was a small place so of course they’d probably have bumped into each other. just to make herself loosen up, sooyoung tried to hide any emotion in her face that would hint toward the fact that she’s basically seen haeju naked.

"i do, yeah." he replies with a nod, small smile starting to pull on the edges of his lips. "for like two years. you?" the male asks quietly, trying to think back to when he'd first started to see her around the apartment building. though that doesn't help him much at all due to the fact he's constantly in and out of the building for numerous reasons that his days have started to blend together. he does pick up on her trying to hide her emotions, his brow raising as he glances over at her. "are you alright? i don't want to make you uncomfortable or anything.."

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chrisprk‌:

he knew this day would come eventually. haeju would fall for someone —— and no, christian is not mad, he’d fallen for someone else after haeju as well, and even though his feelings for haeju still remains and he will always love him, it’s time for both of them the move on for good.“well, if that person does not love you back, it’s their loss. and no worries,i still love you too.’’ he feels like he needs to assure haeju that it is okay, that he loves someone else because christian can’t help feel like haeju might feel guilty saying it.‘’i mean how could someone not love you? you are like the most lovable person i’ve ever met.’’ christian leaves a soft kiss on top of the other’s hand, can’t help but giggle at how cute haeju looks.‘’no,baby. my insecurities fucked us up, not you. not peer pressure.’’ he instantly scrunches his nose to tease him. ‘’you can’t always get what you want! okay, one kiss before you go to sleep and one more whenever you want it. but that’s it!’’ he leans forward to catch the other’s hands but before he can even reach it, haeju is already running away from him. ‘’ slow down! you’ll hurt yourself.’’ christian follows him into the kitchen, or more like he’s running to catch haeju if he falls.’’ you are still drunk and i’m slow.’’

truth be told, getting over christian wasn't something that had been easy for haeju, and he knows he isn't fully over the other. just as he knows there's a possibility that he'll never fully be over christian or the relationship that they'd once had. however, if the other were to talk about someone else — about having feelings for someone other than haeju, he'd understand. "it's... i don't know if he does or doesn't, chris. we uh — we don't really talk about things like that and it was never supposed to be what it is. or at least, what it is for me." he explains quietly, gaze falling to his feet as a small frown pulls on his lips. "oh stop that! there's probably a few people in mulberry that can't stand me and my annoying ass self. which is understandable." he replies with a nonchalant shrug of his shoulders, pressing another kiss to christian's cheek in return for the one the other places on the top of his hand. "that's not true either, babe. i fucked up, i let my stupid friends dictate what i did back then and it — it was dumb of me. i should have put my foot down, should have kept my phone. should have just.... called you." he breathes out, chewing on the bottom of his lip before the pout returns once more. "you are absolutely no fun whatsoever! you can't just threaten to spank me and then tell me i only get two kisses!!" he pouts, his tone slightly whiny as he does so. "if i hurt myself in my own home, it's my fault! hurry up old man, we don't have all day." haeju calls in a teasing tone, leaning against the counter once he's entered the kitchen. "if you keep putting yourself down like this, i'm gonna have to kiss that out of you.."

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if there was one thing haeju like to do to clear his mind, walking was it. he wasn't sure why, maybe it had to do with him being around nature. or being able to hear the murmurings of conversations from strangers around him that soothed him. but that's what he's doing now, hands shoved in the pockets of his coat as his eyes dart from one thing to the next. he'd seen her looking at him once before, his gaze passing over her not even a few moments ago, but when he looks back he finds that sooyoung's staring at him and it makes him wonder why. he's seen her before, hasn't he? she looks familiar enough to him that he figures she either lives in mulberry or pretty close to it, so without hesitation, he starts making his way towards the bench she's seated on. "that spot free?" he asks, gesturing towards the empty space next to her. "i feel like i've seen you before." haeju continues, a slight shrug of his shoulders. "you wouldn't happen to live around mulberry apartments, would you?"

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sooyoung went jogging, for the first time in a long time. she was quite bored and didn’t feel like sitting around. she needed a break from her workspace. after her third mile, she sat at bench and delighted to know that she could still run with ease. she took a few gulps from her water bottle as she watched people jog, walk, and sprint by her. one person in particular caught her eye. she studied him as his figure got closer. haeju, she thought. the one reason sooyoung knows him, is through haeju’s nsfw twitter account. she loved his aesthetic despite seeing his penis on her twitter timeline. she was surprised that nobody pointed it out to her. it was quite funny actually. she suddenly realized that he was walking toward her now, it was the staring. i should have looked away! soobin thought to herself as she tried scrambling up an excuse.

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whyctt‌:

Wyatt doesn’t know what he’s going into here. He knows what Haeju said it was, and he also knows that there are times when what Haeju says doesn’t match up with what Haeju does. Both of them are guilty of that to some degree, yet still it manages to leave him with a sense of unease that he isn’t sure what to do with. Given that he’s currently waiting for his date to turn up, Wyatt busies himself with fussing over his hair being just so, and looking at himself in the mirrors he’s got in his bedroom. It feels like it takes a lot longer than it actually does in reality for there to be a knock on his door, and there’s a tightening in his chest as he looks towards it like he might be able to see Haeju through the walls. There is only a brief moment of hesitation before he limps over to open the door, and is immediately greeted by a bouquet of roses. Despite the fluttering in his stomach and his uncertainty, Wyatt finds himself breaking out into a huge, dimpled grin. “That bouquet is bigger than you are.” He says, reaching out to take it from him gently, and then backing up to give him room to enter. “Let me put these in a vase before we go?”

there's so much going on in haeju's mind that he's not sure if he'll even be able to get a clear sentence out. he knows this isn't serious, knows that nothing more will come of tonight, but he's okay with that. yes, there's that tiny bit of hope that he'll be able to do this with wyatt again some day, but as of right now? all he wanted to do was treat the other to an evening that was just about wyatt. it's why he'd gone to great measures to reserve a table at the other' favorite restaurant, dressed himself in something that wouldn't make him the center of attention. he wanted this, but he wanted this for wyatt more than he did himself. the other deserved this, if not more. however, haeju can't help but to playfully roll his eyes at the comment wyatt makes. "now you're gonna start teasing me about my height too??" he giggles, shaking his head ever-so. "it might be bigger than me, but it isn't nearly as big as i wanted it to be." he's more quiet now, eyes falling to his feet as he finds his now free hands starting to tremble once more. "if you think that was big, you're in for a real surprise tonight then, wy." haeju retorts, carefully taking a step into the other's apartment. "where do you keep them? i'll grab it for you."

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who do you trust the most?

myself, honestly. only person who’s gonna be here no matter what. though i do trust wyatt and christian as well, for many different reasons. jay as well, honestly. it’s kinda hard for me to put my trust in a lot of people, been like that ever since i was young. ( @whyctt, @chrisprk & @jayvxr )

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what is an opinion you would say out loud and not care what anyone would think?

the bright orange cheeto should have never been an option for president in the first place.

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do you smile at strangers?

i do, yes. not because i want to seem ‘fake’ or anything like that.. just because i feel like if that’s the one small act of ‘kindness’ i can give someone, why not do so? it could make them feel better if they’re having a shitty day. small acts of positivity can help more than most people realize.

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do you find your horoscope to be true most times?

in all honesty, i don’t follow my horoscope. sure, sometimes i get curious and see things posted about it so i’ll read up on it but i don’t regularly follow it. life is gonna happen no matter what, no amount of reading up on my horoscope is gonna change that.

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what do you find yourself day dreaming about most often?

a vacation, honestly. especially more so in the last few months. time to myself, to relax and just de-stress and everything like that.

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tell someone something you've always wanted to say without saying their name

you mean a lot to me, more so than i ever thought you would. you deserve nothing but happiness and to be able to relax. i wish i could be the one to give that to you, but if things don’t work out like that or like i’d hope they would.. for whatever reason, i just want you to be happy. because you deserve that and so much more.

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who is someone you are interesting in seeing more of?

davina. it’s not that i don’t see her at all, but i’m just interested in seeing her more often than i already do. call me selfish, i guess. ( @dcvincs )

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chrisprk‌:

christian gives the other’s body a one last squeeze before lifting his body again to carry him inside.’’please just know that you can talk to me. don’t feel like you can’t because it’s about someone you like.’’ he lets haeju cling into him all he wants as he carries him to the couch in the living room. he doesn’t let him go, pulls him on to his laps instead when he finally reaches the couch and sits down.’’stay like this. i won’t let you go.’’ looking down at haeju’s small body, his head against his chest makes him warm. he smiles to himself before starting to play with the other’s hair.’’oh god, if you don’t stop with this what i did to you shit, i’ll smack your —— butt? you didn’t do shit to me,baby. we both made mistakes.’’ his hand softly lands on the other’s hip.’’but we are okay now, aren’t we? i wouldn’t be here if we weren’t okay,baby.’’ he lets out a sigh.’’ yes, hot chocolate and we cuddle and go to sleep. and maybe a kiss if you insist but that’s all you’ll get. deal?’’ part of him is dying to know who haeju likes or maybe even loves, he’s not jealous though, not exactly. he just wants to know the person who hurt haeju and the other part of him feels guilty because he’d hurt haeju at one point as well.’’you good to get up? or wanna stay like this a little longer?’’

haeju's intoxicated state causes him to giggle as he's picked up once more, head instantly falling onto christian's shoulder once more. "no, i — i know christian. it's just, it's complicated and well, i still... i still love you, but i —  i also think i love this person... so it's just — complicated." he breathes out, eyes fluttering shut for a moment. he doesn't wanna talk about it, not right now. maybe eventually, when it hurts a little less. however, he's content the second he's in chris' lap, hands gently resting the other's sides. "you better not, you're comfy." haeju mumbles, pressing a kiss to the other's collarbone. he knows he could fall asleep like this, he's done it before.. fallen asleep on christian far more times than he can even count. "you say that as if i didn't beg you to do that a bunch of times before now." the male teases with a giggle, nuzzling his nose against christian's neck. "i was horrible — i let peer pressure fuck up our relationship. but —" haeju says with a small sigh, nodding his head gently. "we are okay, yeah. i wouldn't have let you carry me all the way up here and be in your lap if that wasn't the case, baby." he says, pulling back ever-so-slightly to press a kiss to the tip of christian's nose. "just one singular kiss? that's not fair." haeju pouts, bottom lip jutting out in an overly dramatic fashion. "i don't particularly like this deal. maybe i wanted more." he teases, though he pulls himself off the other's lap begrudgingly, instantly holding both hands out. "come — hot chocolate's in the kitchen babe." though he doesn't wait for christian to get up, already starting to stumble his way towards where they keep the hot chocolate. "baaaaaabe hurry uppp."

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ok so.... i might have spent all day yesterday lying in bed being sicker than hell. BUT i’m alive now and ready to get my shit together and do everything i said i was gonna do yesterday n today but just do it today instead. love me pls.